Reminder to self

Reminder to self: Just don't think about it too much. If you do, you just become weaker.

Been having doubts. Doubting myself in so many things, so many ways.

Half of me says it's possible. The other half is actually wondering if this is all true.

It almost seems impossible. It almost seems like a dream, a dream that I do not want to wake up from ... because the dream has not ended, because I want to make it real.

Be strong!

4 weeks

4 weeks

I had a pretty good day today eventhough my plan at the library sorta failed and I did not get to study the Basal Ganglia. How disappointing.... NOT!

Went to my friend's tutorial this morning so that I can skip my 3-5 tutorial and head to the library early. But ended up staying back at uni and do some practice on practical stuff for the knee. I think I'm more confident with the knee than the ankle. It's quite scary to think that by the end of this semester, I am expected to be able to treat any ankle, knee, hip problems. Don't even think I can do that!! We won't be going over those anymore next semester nor next year. So don't come to me if you have any of these problems, I'll probably mis-diagnose you. But I have diagnose myself with tight ITB and perhaps ITB friction syndrome. What to do with it? I have no idea. Lolx!

By the time finish practicing and all, it was 3. Headed to city library, was there at 4.30 till 6 and didn't do much. Then went for mamak night. 7 bucks. Roti canai, mee goreng, nasi briyani, curry chicken, kuih, bubur cha cha and satay. It was so good man!! The satay very authentic it really felt like home. Sorry to say this but it defnitely beats UMSA's satay. Haha! And the sauce too!! You know, you do need some fatty chicken in your satay and that is what they had! The roti came with dhall and it tasted just like back home. And any dessert is good!! Ahhh.... satisfied. Eventhough I paid non-members price, I was well fed. My netball friend, kylie, was ex-committee and so she can just keep on getting food. I have no idea how many sticks of satays I had but it was plenty!! Thanks!!

And and... the world is so small because I bumped into another primary school friend, szu huei! I had no idea she was in Sydney Uni and we used to go to malay tuition together during form 1. We were pretty much the loners from primary school who went to DJ as most went to DU and catholic. So yeaa.... it was good catching up with her and we just talked and talked :)

I had a good night once again. I shall bond with basal ganglia and cerebellum tomorrow. Still can't believe I am studying this crap. It's alright. 4 more weeks and then it is bye bye to Neuro for GOOD!!!

Lindt

9 hours of sleep :D

I had 9 hours of sleep last night. It was a very good sleep as it was raining as well. Right outside my window is a zinc roof and so the sound of raindrops on it just makes it so nice to sleep. Am resting today to prepare for the next 5 weeks. I can do this man. I know I can. Gonna go for a run because I've been coughing for over 4 weeks and I think it may be due to the lack of running (lung isn't pushed hard and so the mucus build up? lolx!!), clean my room, organize my notes and catch up on the readings from the last two weeks. It's gna be a relaxing day.

Last night was a relaxing night as well. Went with Su Yi for korean dinner and then this....

Lindt chocolate cafe!

Dark hot chocolate. They give you the melted choc and milk and you mix it to your thickness. So good!!! but I prefer Max Brenner's italian hot chocolate.

Iced mocha

Montreaux: layer of dark chocolate and pecan brownie, caramel chocolate chantilly mousse, marcarpone and vanilla. This is GOOD!! Ying Swan, you have more and more reasons to come here!!!!!!!!

Next chocolate round, Guylian cafe. That will be after the finals. Ekekekeke... I got it all planned out.

Time flies

Time flies ...

My graduation post is finally up. It was 6 good days and it was just good being home. It was just good to take the mind off study for a lil while. 6 days were short. I didn't get to see all the people I wanted to see. I didn't get to spend much time with everyone. But what comforted me was the fact that I'll be back in 7 weeks time! (well, make it 5 weeks now as I'm typing this out). Comments I got was I've lost weight, I looked stressed ... I've aged...but at least the skin colour looks healthy (due to the massive amount of veges i'm having over here :p).

Never knew 10 weeks away from home could do so much to me. Losing weight is no surprise, seeing I am walking at least 4.4km everyday, some days 6.6, some days 8.8km. But what hit me the most was the fact that I looked stressed and aged. Surprised that I looked stressed because I'm on a holiday. How can you look stress when you're happy to be back and on a holiday?? ohh my... please tell me this stressed look is not permanent!!! and aged?? Gladys said i looked older due to the lack of sleep i've been getting. I've never hit 8 hours for a very long time, be it 7 hours. 4-5 is average, 6 hours is sleep in. Can't wait for this semester to be over really. I'll be young again then and get my 8 hours of sleep everyday!!

I didn't have time to blog the past two weeks since I landed because I was forced to study immediately for a test. I had a 40% anatomy test today. The fastest 1 hour of my life! 11 questions, 5 minutes each. Basically we start at 1 question, 5 mins later, we have to move on to the next station to do our next question. It was intense. For a massive 40%, I really wish I pass. 5 mins didn't felt like 5 mins. It felt like... 1 second? Been cramming the past two weeks, libraries and late nights.

Well, at least it's over now. I am resting tonight and blogging before I have to start preparing for the finals which is just around the corner. It is never ending and just keeps coming! But this.. this is the final leg of the race. Finally have reached it. I just want to pass. Prac exams results were out, nothing impressive, a wee bit disappointed but at least I passed all and that's what matters most.

Basically...
2 more weeks of lectures.
1 week of study break.
2 weeks of exams

And then HOME.

Told you time flies!

Graduation 2009

2 weeks ago ...

Home for 6 days :)

Where did all the 6 days go? It just came and go very quickly. But it was 6 good days and I did make full use of it. Thank you all who made it possible. I really appreciate it!!!

Tuesday: Woke up late, no breakfast. Rushed to airport. Flight delayed. No food on plane. Got picked up by Ivan and first thing I had was..... pie. Of all things... it was convenient ok! Dinner at China. Haven't ate so much for such a long time!

Wednesday: Commerce graduation + Dim sum lunch + Jap dinner

so proud of you koko!!

Well done babes!!!!! mwahhhh!!!!

mmmmm...it's been awhile since I had this

Thursday: Morning spent at library to finish my readings and send the notes off to friends. Lunch dateS with Gladys (wedges and calamari) and my other half-Swannie :D .. see below...

sinful but good

this is the best cupcake ever with chocolate oozing out!!!

Friday: My BIG day

He was with me the whole day, morning till night :):)

She bought me flowers ;) (i didn't let ivan buy mine. hehehe..)

she loves ular :p

people I depended on the past 3 yrs.. our classic zoolander look :O

the parents with two graduated kids :D

Saturday: Mafia night. Where I suck big time as a mafia in a group and kill my own people. Especially the part where I accused Dallas in the discussion part, how silly!!!! OMG!!!! But I redeemed myself in the last round by being the solo mafia and the mafias won. Hahaha!! They say love is blind... teeheee :p

Sunday: Mother's day. And then off to Sydney where it's back to reality

I've graduated:)

post week 8 prac exams brain cleanse

Post Week 8 Prac Exams Brain Cleanse

After weeks of studying and tearing our brains out, after a week of mid-term exams with one everyday, after a week of sleeping only an average of 5 hours a night ... it was time to CELEBRATE!! (before the craziness begins again next week)

It was THE BEST NIGHT EVER so far in Aussie land, and probably the best clubbing experience I ever had.

Music was just super awesome you wouldn't believe what music they played. The GEM's Physio students went wild at Lowenbrau at the Rocks. It was the German restaurant I went to few weeks ago and they have a bar on the top. I didn't drink much. Just a shot and half a litre of mango beer. Drinks were expensive but music was just awesome!!

They played backstreet boys, spice girls, vengaboys, sclub 7, westlife songs!! OMG!!!!! All those songs you can sing too when you were in your teenage years (can't believe i'm not a teenager anymore.. *sigh*) and you would sing it and dance around in the bedroom to those songs. Now you have the chance to sing to those songs and dance it out in a bar!!!!! It was super super awesome!! Nearly everyone knew the lyrics to all those songs. They played some ABBA songs as well, Shania Twain, some older JT songs. But yea.. they also played some new songs too. OMG!! Swannie, they played the "pocahontas song" too!!! 500 miles!!!!! That was amazing! ohh ohh!! and they had ICE ICE BABY too!! wahahahahaha!!! brought back lots of memories man.. haha!! And i've got coursemates who can actually rap the lyrics to the ICE ICE BABY song! impressive!!

But I gotta say, THE best song of the night for us physio students is Livin' on a Prayer by Bon Jovi (reminded me of guitar hero too!!). We were all just jumping and screaming to the lyrics of the song. It was so us.

"She says we've got to hold on to what we've got
cause it doesn't make a difference
If we make it or not
We've got each other and that's a lot
For love - we'll give it a shot"

- yea.. we've got each other. We are all helping each other out to go through this and that's the most important thing. No matter how much crap is being thrown at us, we'll give it a shot no matter what.

"Whooah, we're half way there
Whooah! Livin on a prayer
Take my hand and we'll make it I swear
Whooah! Livin on a prayer"

- We are half way there. We are half way through the semester. That night was basically celebrating the end of mid-terms and that we're halfway through this semester!!!

"We've got to hold on ready or not
You live for the fight when it's all that you've got"

- Weeks after weeks. We are never 100% ready. There is just too much to prepare and hence we're always up for surprises but yet, we're still holding on, hanging in there. We'll fight it through to chase our dreams.

It was really an awesome night. I have never been to a bar that plays good songs after good songs (guess it's coz i don't go clubbing much :p). Songs which I can scream the lyrics to! What a good way to celebrate. I left rather early tho as I was getting sleepy. There were a couple of times I wanted to leave but the good songs kept on playing so I stayed a lil longer coz I just love them! Came one point it was a song I was unfamiliar with and so I decided to leave before a good song comes on. As I was walking out, Dancing Queen came on!! OMG!!!! I was so tempted to run back in but nah... I left. And thank goodness I did because my friends told me they were playing more and more good songs after that. It was never ending!!!!

All in all, a great night out. I think half of the bar was filled with us physio students. Some 2nd yrs came to celebrate with us as well. lolx! The brain cleanse for post finals is defnitely going to be even more crazy!! We'll be sitting for 9 exams in 10 days for the finals. So yeaa... more stress needs to be released then!!

1 more ...

1 more to go!!!!

1 more to go tomorrow!!!! By 10.10 a.m. tomorrow, I am finished!!!! It's only a week but it just feels so long!!! I guess it's because I started preparing for this mid-terms a week before easter. It's gonna feel so good tomorrow when I'm done I tell you. I have never ever prepare for mid-terms that early. I usually study for mid terms one or two days before it. Haha! Turning into a nerd...

I am sitting here now procrastinating. Quite worried for tomorrow's prac actually but I really just wanna get it done. Not gonna do anything tomorrow after my prac. Won't touch any books on Fri and Sat.

Tomorrow night gonna go out and a few of my canadian friends said they plan to get drunk. wahahahahaa!! get to see some drunk ppl, looking forward to that. Gonna be hilarious!!

Saturday I'm just gonna indulge myself with movies, go for a run and then netball in the evening! Wooottt woooot!!!

Sunday .... I feel like pancakes on the rocks for breakfast. Then maybe study a bit in the afternoon ... or NOT.

So looking forward to this weekend!!! I've got it all planned out at the back of my head.

I'm gonna relax like nobody's business and you're all gonna be so jealous of me :p wahahahaha!!

So so so so so looking forward to Tuesday too!! gonna give the person who's picking me up and big big big hug!! yayyy yayyyy!!!