choices...

so many things to think about after getting my results... there's actually so many pathways.... i could just apply to go into uni and do some random course.. like journalism or somethin like that.... who knows? i might be good at it....and i get to travel as well..... u never know if u never try.... but it's a risk to take.... and i hate to take risk... but at this point in life, everything is risk-taking... i mean, i don't even know what i want to do in uni or what i want to do in the future... look at it, all my science subject are pretty crap... am i not a science student anymore? maybe i should just quit studying and work for people..... money won't come in huge amount but one day... one day, it might be possible...... or maybe i could start some random talk show.... and be rich one day like oprah winfrey.... lolzzz.... ok, the above three suggestions are like really random but yea... it's something i can do..... now.. i still have to think of what subjects to take... and making those choices are risk taking.....
say if i manage to continue my biology to A2, then i will take A2 maths as well.... i will have to re-sit my AS bio mid year to bring my mark to an A, and then for A2 bio i need to get an A and that would give me 120 points. as for maths, i won't re-sit it, but i need to get a high A in A2 maths to get an overall A and that would give me another 120 points. then i will take AS business studies eventho i suck at business and economics, and i will try to achieve an A in it and i will repeat AS chemistry and try to get an A. so overall i might be able to get 360 points which is the max... but that would be kinda impossible... but if i have faith, it might still come true. this is the most likely path i would take but there's still risk in it coz in reality, i might not be a good science student... maybe i might be good at other stuff in which i haven't tried like history, geography, classic studies and those kind of subjects.... who knows ayy? should i go for it? should i just like dump all my science subject and go for history AS, geography AS, classics studies AS, literature AS, repeat AS language and AS maths, and get A's for them and i will get 360 points as well. ... this choice is the biggest risk taking choice... another choice would be is to start doing all the sports subjects...... and if i dun like it, i can just stay another year at college and stick to science.... i mean, i 've already saved two years in msia so i might as well stay another year next year in college and repeat them all over again if i did really bad.... i could probably repeat all the subjects i did last year.... and see how well i do.. and then next year move on to A2... isn't that great?? tat's something to think about, right? i mean, i still manage to save one year.. and that's already good.. my brother saved one year... so maybe i should also just save one year and repeat last year at college next year.....
or maybe i could just come back to msia and study..... nahhh.... forget it, it's quite expensive as well to study at taylor's college.....
so many choices ayyy?? well, will tell my final decision when school starts...... tata

they're out!

results are out... results are bad... results are close to what i predicted. 2 C 2D 1 Fail....... real results... 2 C, 2 D, 1 B.... the only subject i can move on to a level is maths.... C for bio and english, D for chemistry and physics.... that's all i'm gonna say about it.. my mind is really blank. i don't even know what to think about and i dont' even know what's going on my mind right now.... all i know is that this is some sort of lesson to be learnt but what lesson?? i have no idea yet...screw it!!!

STill waiting

results are out today but i haven't got it yet because need to send email to school to give authority for friend to collect it.. so gay!!!!!! therefore, i mailed the school to ask them to just tell me my results straight... easier.. but..... haven't mailed me back yet thus my mind ain't at rest still.... since last night i was like really scared.... and now i still have to be till i get my results.... this isn't a good feeling at all... no no no.... mannn.... i wonder what i will get... my dream results.... straight A's... DuhHHH!!?!!.... if not... then perhaps 4A's 1 B?? that will also be my dream... the most likely results i will get?? well..... 2C 2D 1E or maybe ungraded... just heard from my friend that heaps of ppl failed physics....yupzzzz.... my worst nightmare.... D's, E's and ungraded.!!!! hope that won't happen.... please do not happen.. please please please!!!!

sleepover at pauline's house was great.... too much to telll.... but i can talk about yesterday when we were at her church... mannn.... it was so funny.... pearl and i were like just staring at the drummer the whole time as we think he's cute.. we also started scribbling on our hands... pearl wrote" cute drummer! holy shit!!" and i wroke" hallellujah! cute drummer! AMEN!" .... and then we tried to use pearl's phone to take a picture of him but it it was pretty far so the picture was blurry..... then after the service, pauline's friend came and talk to us and pauline told her that we wanted to take photo of the drummer... and she was like:" ohhh... david is it?" then later she was like :" hah?? david?? leng chai is it??" in a very shocking tone.... we were like what's so shocking about it...... well, she asked him to come to us and well, pearl and i were like so embarassed.. and when he came, i was like shocked coz he wasn't cute anymore.... even pearl thought the same.... then later we had a photo with him but was also very blur.... i kinda regretted for not bringing my camera.... ohh wellzzzzz....
ok, gotta go now.... my prediction of my results..... shall now be 2C, for bio and chem.. 2D for eng and maths... 1 fail for physics... yupzzzzz.... that's the only happiness i shall have since the results is gonna be shitty..... tata!!

Happy Birthday to my Daddy!!!

it's my dad's birthday todayy!!! happy birthday to him!! the coolest dad in the whole wide world!!!! he's xx years old... it's private and confidential... haha!! went and bought a cake yesterday from auntie may's cake shop... i hope i ordered the right type... tulti fruitti.... i hope it will be nice and enough... haha!! gonna eat it tonight and gonna have dinner.... therefore i'm gonna get fatter.... mum and dad gonna go indonesia tomorrow till tuesday.... therefore no parents therefore sleepover!!! hahahaha.. thursday night yi wen's house.... friday day time, not sure what i'm gonna do... coz yi wen is gonna do her work and i have to TRY not to disturb her.... maybe i should go rock climbing... BUT... you see, there's a but... with who??? hahahahahaha... friday night and saturday night, sleepover at pauline's!!! auntie susan said that she's gonna set up a tent in her garden.. but i doubt we will sleep there, but we WILL play there tho... haha! holly gosh!! i'm so excited!! and on saturday, gonna go summit and shaleeni might come!!! summit for bowling i suppose and movie perhaps? there ain't much shopping to be done at summit... hope on sunday after pauline's church we can go pyramid and then...... window shopping!!!!! so yea... that's my plan for the weekend.. i hope it will work out.... btw, tomorrow afternoon gonna have lunch with annabelle at the curve..... i hope she hasn't forgotten.... ok, that's all...ciaozzz!! one thing i gotta laugh at.......... *laughs at those ppl that has gone back to new zealand already before me* muahahahahhahahahahaa....

Fat Fats..bulging fats..ewww

just a note... i'm fat..!! ewww.. so fat and it's so yuck.... this morning went for a jog at bukit kiara... after the jog.... i looked at my tummy and i can really see the fats bulging out.... yeeeee errrrrrrr.... and i also can pinch it and i can pinch out a LOT... and i mean a LOT... oh my goodness!! how in the world i got so fatt!!!! never realized till today... and it ain't a good sight at all... losing all those fats will be tough... it ain't that easy to lose them but it is easy to gain them.... i think it's time to diet... and seriously diet... for the first time in my life..shermayne dieting.... noo!!!!! mannn, dieting is hard... all u get to eat is fruits and veges and boiled food...yuckssss... but then if i just eat fruits and veges, i will have no strength to exercise.. i will lose weight but ermm.. my muscles (not like i have much) will turn to fatsss!!!! dammmm... this is hard... i shall decide on what i will do with this issue when i'm in new zealand... not here, not in malaysia coz i wanna eat... but yea, have to cut down though.... and continue jogging... but jogging doesn't lose the fats on the tummy though... heck! i dun even know why i'm going jogging when i want to lose my tummy fatss... to keep the weight off i suppose.... last night had big dinner... tomorrow night, another big dinner.... the food will be so nice tomorrow i dun think i can resist.... gonna have dinner at kajang...the duck!! mmm... but but.... i .... i ... n..need to lose weight!! arghh! screw it! i will just eat rice and duck and the desert --> ice cream! and veges.. i'm going over to new zealand in 17 days.. so soon ehh? less than 3 weeks.. goshhh... it's fast!! well, shall start losing weight then... now is just trying to maintain what i have and not gaining more...haha! i hope i can manage it... coz the temptations here are really really really strong!!! woahh!! i've just go me my new year resolution... lose weight and lose fatssss .... shall try to aim for 50 kgs before year end exams... can't be after coz during the end of year exams i will start gaining coz i need to eat when i study.... so yea... 50!! it's pretty hard but i will try.... well, at least 52 larrr.... but yea...target 50!! go go go!!

New Year 2005!

welcome to the year 2005! haven't been blogging for quite sometime...been quite busy and don't really have the time to sit down and blog... i've got 23 more days till i go back to land of sheeps and cows...so sad... i dun wanna leave... results are coming out ont he 24th... i'm so scared.. will not know till i go to new zealand... month of december has been great.... enjoying myself and putting on lots of weight.. will lose them when i'm in new zealand, i hope?? this month, january, i'm going to start swimming. well, not everyday though... can't handle it... lolzzz.... i had my haircut today... and it's short... to me, i look like the old shermayne... hehehe.. the one who's always with shorthair... haha! my brother said i look like a guy...shitsss! ohh wellzzz... i'm not really gonna say what i have been doing these days coz it's a lot... i will slowly write it out when i'm in new zealand when i have the time to think and write down what i did during my stay in msia.... now all i'm actually waiting is hoping to go to sunway lagoon on the 21st of january.. and hopefully pearl lin can go this time.. i think it's a holiday..... so yea... please please please!!!! ok, that's all, tata!