Guilty as charged

It has arrived!!!!! It has arrived!!!!! After 2.5 weeks of waiting..... hehehehe...

Details of my recent online spending will be up soon!!! Oh gosh.. I need to stop myself!!!!!

Friday the 13th!

The very first time I heard of Friday the 13th was back in college. Everyone was so afraid of this day. I think I was too. But then I remembered a lot of good things happened to me on that very day. I can't remember what exactly and I was searching through my old posts and I couldn't find anything about it. I didn't blog about it because it wasn't really a big deal I guess.

On Thursday, the new physio was telling me the following day is Friday the 13th and asked if I was worried and superstitious. And I was like.. nahhhh.. I always have good luck on Friday the 13th. If I recall back, I am always happy on Friday the 13th.

Come Friday, it was my last day working at the two facilities in Wahroonga as I handed over everything to the new physio and return back to Manly and Narraweena next week. The big boss that owns several facilities was there as well as the manager. I wanted to talk to them to tell them what we have done and so to help them with the funding stuff because they don't seem to have a clue on what we have been doing so far. (eventhough I seriously don't give a shit about it) But they shut me off because they were busy with other stuff as they are in quite a big trouble and in some sort of deadline. They freaking LITERALLY slammed the door on me. How rude. I even knocked the door and they opened it and just said "We're busy" and wham!!! I didn't even get to say anything. Far out! It just made me even happier that I'm leaving Wahroonga. I pity the new physio though... he's also in my position.. new grad, international student and awaiting PR and hence not easy to get a job in the public sector.

In the afternoon, we went to the facility next door. The staff there are way friendlier and they even said goodbye to me and thanked me for what I have done in the past 4 weeks. How nice of them. I enjoyed my time there and was a little sad to leave. But what happened this morning with the big boss just pissed me off so much.

So as I was doing the usual, seeing patients and working my miracle hands.... I had a missed call and a voice mail. It was regarding my interview last week and I had to ring back. Did not know if I got it or not but my heart was beating really fast. It was the same feeling I had when I got a call from Lady Davidson Hospital at the start of the year. I called back, and I was told I wasn't successful. And hence, this time, I wasn't putting too high hopes in it. I was telling myself to calm down and expect to get rejected.

I rang back. But he was busy.

So I went to see another patient. Was so happy she finally let me go near her shoulders after 4 weeks!! She felt better after the treatment and she had more range in it.

And then my phone rang....

him: "thank you for coming for the interview last week. unfortunately...*as i heard this, i was shattered....* the permanent full-time position has been taken up" *in my head, great...just.. great....*

him: "However, we would like to offer you a 6 months locum position for now and with a possibility of extending if the staff numbers change and if you perform well"

*screams in my head... WOOOOOOHOOOOOO!!!!*

I asked about the pay...He gave me a number but then and there, I didn't realize it was way less than what I am currently getting. But ... I just accepted the job.

I calculated how much less it was....so much for saving up on a car now. But I was still over the moon. That was how bad I wanted out on my current job. That was how much I wanted this position, this opportunity.

And so, I am now proud to say I am no longer driven by money. I'd trade in money for knowledge. Me crossing my fingers on the 5th and 6th of May paid off. I got what I wanted. The opportunity to learn and grow.

Handed in my resignation letter last night. One more week with the oldies. I would miss them actually. But I am not going to miss how I am being treated by the company. I am not going to miss running around the whole like a crazy woman, seeing 30 patients a day.

One more week of buses, trains and ferries. Soon, it will just be trains and buses. One more week of not learning and soon I will have to start turning on my brain.

Soon... you will hear me ranting about presentations that I will have to prep for. Soon, you will hear me whining about the amount of revision I have to do after work. I'd probably whine about getting less pay but doing more homework.

But... it is for my own good. It is work that is going to help me improve myself as a physiotherapist. I am ready to face the challenges ahead... I have asked for it. And I know... it will pay off. Suffer now and enjoy the rewards later. It's what I call, GOOD suffering. Just like how there's good pain and bad pain. Hehehe...

And so, Friday the 13th... Another good day for me :D woooottttt!!!

Old people are like little kids

I think this is very true. They do not listen and you need to bribe them, praise them, before you can get them to do anything. You sometimes need to trick them so that you can get things done. They are probably even more stubborn than little kids. 

Despite all the negativity, there is one part of them that are like little kids that makes you smile. The bond they create with you in such a short amount of time even though they do not know you that well...

As I walked into my patient's room today... his eyes lit up ...

Patient: You!!!!! I thought you weren't coming back anymore!! Why didn't you come yesterday??

Me: Sorry. I was very busy. I promise I'll see you today and the next two days.

Patient: What about next week?

Me: Next week you will get a new physio. I'm going to a different nursing home next week. 

Patient: No!! Why?? 

Me: Because that's where they put me. Don't worry, the other physio is very good.

Patient: No. You stay, he go...

Me: No no, I can't. He is very good. He'll give you really good massage.

Patient: No, it won't be as good as yours. You stay, he go! I pay you more.

Me: Sorry. I will give you a longer treatment time today and I promise to see you on Thursday and Friday.

Patient: Ok, you PWOMISE!! See you tomowoww....

And then he tries to reach for my hands but because of the limited range he has in his shoulder and the weak strength in his hands, he couldn't. He looked a bit disturbed and sad throughout the treatment. I felt touched... and at that point, I do feel a little sad that I have to leave by the end of this week. Because initially, I was happy I do not need to travel to two different workplaces anymore and can be permanent in one. But now... I am a little sad....

I have a soft spot in my heart for kids... and now, I guess I do have a soft spot for the oldies too :S

Happy Mother's Day

To my beautiful mother,

I want you to know

I'll just love you more

Every year that I grow

You're an amazing mother

You show that you care

There's no better mom

On earth anywhere!

Happy Mummy's Day to the best Mummy in the 

Whole Wide World!

I miss my mom so much. Called her today and the first thing she said was she missed my iced coffee and mother's day breakfast. I felt a little sad as I wasn't there to celebrate it with her. None of us are. They both ended up going out for yum cha but it was fully packed because of this day. So they ended up eating Japanese. Sometimes I do wish I can just fly over and give her a big hug. Last night, as I wrote her an email, I got a bit teary too. Funny huh? Really really wish I can just go back to Auckland now. 

I love you Mummy!!!!

Fingers cross on Friday

Turns out Monday at home did pay off... a little for now...

If I have to stay up tomorrow night to prepare for Friday, I will!!

I really want this but sighhhh... I mustn't keep my hopes up too soon.

No No! Believe in yourself Sher Mayne!!!

Go for the experience anyway. Training in progress. Training in progress...

At least I can say I've tried and I won't regret.

More on this later if it turns out well.

Thank goodness for sick leaves!

Usually when I'm sick, I will down heaps of honey and lemon juice, hot tea, water, gargle salt water, and pray hard I can drag myself up the next day to get to class or to the hospitals during my placement. And even if I don't get better, I would still drag myself out of bed and head into uni, irregardless of how bad I can't breathe or how itchy my throat is. That is what I call.. commitment!! I've had friends who simply took a day off during their placements just because they were too tired or simply want a break from everything. I always wanted to do that but never had the guts.

Over this weekend, I fell sick. On Sunday night, I was at a very bad stage. Stuffy nose, sore throat, watery eyes. I was still doing the above hoping I can make it to work the next day. And then my cousin, the doctor, came back from work, saw me, and said.. YOU ARE NOT GOING TO WORK TOMORROW.

And suddenly I remembered, oh yahh! It's not like I'm attending any class.. it's not like I'm going to miss anything... it's not like my attendance is counted...it's not like the oldies will get worst.... screw the nursing homes if residents don't get seen 4 times a week. They don't need 4 sessions in reality! Plus I've got sick leaves! I let out a huge sigh of relief and continued sipping my tea :) Besides, they have not bloody paid me yet!

I woke up this morning feeling tons better after a long sleep. Nose is still stuffy but much better. Checked my bank account..... And they haven't bloody paid me yet! Did some calls and they said payment will come in midday. Come midday, still not in, Thought I'd wait longer. Come 4 pm.. still have not bloody paid me! Called the company and found out I need to fill out all the tax forms all over again before they can pay me. Why didn't they send it to me earlier? Why didn't they tell me that when I asked about my pay?? Big idiots really. Dodgy. More dodgy....

On a brighter note... today, I spent my sick day applying for another job. Suckerss!!! Haha!! And I'm so much more relaxed and rejuvenated.

I think all I needed was a 3 day weekend this week :)

Hello May

Oh Gosh! I can't believe it's May already. Where did April went? It just feels like yesterday where I was so excited for April Fool's Day.. simply because it was April Fool's Day. Not like I fooled anyone but yea.... small things excites me.

I am currently procrastinating. Procrastinate you say? What do I have to procrastinate about? Well, job applications. No, I am not fired. Lol! I just want a better, more ethical job. I told myself when I started this job, the job hunt won't end yet. I will continue to look for better ones. My current one is just to keep me alive and let me enjoy the luxuries in life. But it will be almost 2 months now and I haven't made a single effort to apply for other jobs. Missed out on a few already just because I wasn't looking. I just get too tired when I get home everyday.

But the drama that just happened last week made me realize I need to find a way out, QUICK!! Simply put it, the company I am working for is ridiculous! It's not just the expectations of us seeing over 40 people a day (I am still having trouble to reach 30!), but also the amount of support they provide is little to nothing. The promise they make to nursing homes are close to impossible to fulfill and my pay has always been coming in late. The company just sounds dodgy. I am just thankful for the physio I am working with who's teaching me as much as he can when time permits but we are both finding a better alternative to this.

I don't mind the nursing homes nor the oldies. I am quite fond of them really. To see the joy on their faces and to hear the funny things they can come up with. I enjoy the working part of it. It's just what goes behind the scenes and what is expected of us by the company that disgust me. It's just the company that shocks me. No values, no common sense, unethical. All just driven by money. I have finally understand why money isn't everything, and "Money is the root of all evil".

So now I have 2 cover letters to right and submit by midnight today. Spent yesterday fixing my CV, contemplating whether to even put the company's name in my CV. I have decided against it. It's just a disgrace really. Wish me luck!!!