Hello May

Oh Gosh! I can't believe it's May already. Where did April went? It just feels like yesterday where I was so excited for April Fool's Day.. simply because it was April Fool's Day. Not like I fooled anyone but yea.... small things excites me.

I am currently procrastinating. Procrastinate you say? What do I have to procrastinate about? Well, job applications. No, I am not fired. Lol! I just want a better, more ethical job. I told myself when I started this job, the job hunt won't end yet. I will continue to look for better ones. My current one is just to keep me alive and let me enjoy the luxuries in life. But it will be almost 2 months now and I haven't made a single effort to apply for other jobs. Missed out on a few already just because I wasn't looking. I just get too tired when I get home everyday.

But the drama that just happened last week made me realize I need to find a way out, QUICK!! Simply put it, the company I am working for is ridiculous! It's not just the expectations of us seeing over 40 people a day (I am still having trouble to reach 30!), but also the amount of support they provide is little to nothing. The promise they make to nursing homes are close to impossible to fulfill and my pay has always been coming in late. The company just sounds dodgy. I am just thankful for the physio I am working with who's teaching me as much as he can when time permits but we are both finding a better alternative to this.

I don't mind the nursing homes nor the oldies. I am quite fond of them really. To see the joy on their faces and to hear the funny things they can come up with. I enjoy the working part of it. It's just what goes behind the scenes and what is expected of us by the company that disgust me. It's just the company that shocks me. No values, no common sense, unethical. All just driven by money. I have finally understand why money isn't everything, and "Money is the root of all evil".

So now I have 2 cover letters to right and submit by midnight today. Spent yesterday fixing my CV, contemplating whether to even put the company's name in my CV. I have decided against it. It's just a disgrace really. Wish me luck!!!