The pieces of the puzzle is slowly coming together

Flights for next year all booked!

Sydney --> Perth --> Singapore --> London in April 2015!

It's been a long process, thanks to procrastination.

I've always wanted to travel Europe. I've been saving up for a big holiday. I wasn't sure when to travel, when to take time off, and how much time I should take off. I wasn't sure how much I would need. I want to do it right. Been wanting to set off on this big journey for awhile now. This thought came to me probably around the start of 2013. I've heard of many people doing it. I've seen photos on Facebook. I've heard and read stories and experiences of others. I had two choices:

1. Take 1 - 2 months off, travel Europe, do a Contiki perhaps, spend my savings, come back and it's back to reality.
2. Go on a massive big 2 year adventure, do an OE, leave everything behind, quit my job, travel, work, see Europe properly. Spend what I make there.

I chose the latter. I'm young, I've got no commitments, no mortgage, no loan, there's nothing and no one holding me back. I needed change. I needed to step out of my comfort zone once again. I've been working in the same job for 3.5 years now. I am starting to get comfortable with the life here. I have to admit I have no issues with the lifestyle here. I enjoy work, I enjoy my weekends, I enjoy dragonboat and my runs here. I've made wonderful friends in Sydney over the past few years. Friends that I do not want to lose. But, I really needed change. I emphasis on the word NEED. Not that I WANT to, but it was necessary. Why? Because I haven't seen nor experience much of the big wide world out there. It is all still so foreign to me.

I'm a little bit oblivious and ignorant. Or maybe, a lot more than you think I am. For example, a few days ago, I just googled what countries are part of the UK. That's how terrible I am. And for some reason, I wasn't sure if UK is part of Europe. I just assumed it is but if you ask me to bet my life on it, I wouldn't. Well, now I would. After doing some googling. Ask me where France/Italy is in relation to England, I have no idea. What are the capital cities of the European countries? I have no clue. This is why I NEED to travel.

I started to really consider it at the end of 2013 and slowly made my way to make it happen. At the start of this year, I thought I would make it happen in October. I even bought my flight back to Malaysia in October, thinking I would set off on my big journey after being in Malaysia. The ticket was bought in March. I ended up just going to Malaysia and travelled Asia (China + Phillipines) in October. It's because I wanted to enjoy another summer over here with friends, I wanted to do another season of dragonboat, and I do not want to go over when it's winter.

So, here's a brief timeline on me putting the puzzle together. It's not complete but I'm getting there.

Jan: Download HCPC application form.
Feb: Contacted Sydney Uni to get my course outline so I can apply for physio registration in the UK.
April: Sydney uni got the paperwork done, now it's my turn to get the others going
April - July: Massive procrastination on completing HCPC registration. Had to get professional reference from work etc.
July: Submitted application.
September: Application approved.
December: Flights booked. It is HAPPENING!!!!

What else is there to do over the next 3 months?
Working visa application, updating CV, contacting recruitment agencies, apply for jobs, find a place to stay. On top of that, I need to sort out my insurance, bank accounts, etc over here before I leave.

3 months. It's not long to go really. There's still so much to do, so much more exciting things coming up before I go off. Dragonboat regattas, States, Nationals in Perth, friend's wedding, Auckland trip...

I am scared, I have to admit. But I am excited too. It's going to be a whole new adventure. Perhaps a whole new discovery of me, finding a part of me that I never knew I had. There's so many uncertainties out there, but that is how life should be. That is what makes life interesting and that is what keeps us going.

2014 is coming to an end. It's been a rather awesome year I must say. I wouldn't change a thing of it. I can't wait to write my New Year post. 2015 is gonna be ... I don't know. I really don't know what it will be like. All I know is I am going to bid farewell to Australia and start a whole new adventure into the unknown.

"While you're still young, get cultured. Get to know the world and the magnificent people that fill it. The world is a stunning place, full of outstanding works of art. See it." - this is why I NEED to travel. From the article Travel While You're Young

Stay tuned next year!! It's gonna be EPIC!

Gutted and disappointed :(

The desire to complete Six Foot Track next year have been shattered. So angry at myself that I mixed up the dates. Always thought the 28th of November was a Saturday. That was when entries were open. When I realized Friday was the 28th, I checked the website and.... all entries were sold out!!! It was only 12pm. When I checked Facebook, I came to realize that entries were all sold out with 15 minutes. WOW!! Didn't know it was that popular.

Felt very disappointed as I ran that marathon with the main intention to qualify for Six Foot Track. And now, I need to wait till another year. Probably in 2-3 years time. It is still on the bucket list. But it means I need to keep running marathons to make sure I still qualify for it.

On a brighter note, as least that marathon time still did not go to waste. I can use it to sign up for London Marathon 2016. Fingers cross it does not sell out on me again!

Well, looks like I need not train so hard now for this Six Foot Track. Perhaps it's a sign for me to say I should focus more on my last season of dragonboat. Perhaps it's a sign saying I'm not ready for Six Foot Track, I need more trail run experience before Six Foot Track. It is afterall the toughest marathon in Australia.

Time to look for other trail runs. Chin up, and keep moving :)

Sydney Marathon - The battle between the two voices - 21.09.2014

It took me two years to decide to run another marathon. After my first marathon in Auckland back in 2012, the thought of attempting another marathon was totally out of the question. Reasons being 4 hours is a very long time, the amount of commitment and discipline was pretty huge, the amount of mental battle that went through during the race was rather unpleasant. Also, I started to favour trail running more than road races. Because with trails, especially new ones, there isn't a certain pace to aim for. Every trail is different, all that matters is that you finish it. There is no pressure in what pace you should be running at. 

So why the marathon again? 

Top reason being I need it to qualify for the Six Foot Track race. It was eiter running other trails under a certain time or complete a marathon under 4 hours 20 minutes. A road race seemed the most achievable one. I just have to shave 7 minutes off. As long as I don't hit the wall, I should be fine. After 2-3 months of contemplating whether I should sign up for the Sydney Marathon, and after a talk with an ultra marathoner, I decided to go for it. If you really wanna do Six Foot Track, you gotta wanna do this marathon. 

And so, I signed up. 16 weeks of training. Would have liked a bit more time but I just have to make do with it. To be honest, there wasn't much doubts. Since December 2013, I have made it a point to wake up at least 3 times during the weekday to run. The discipline is there. Fitness wise, dragonboat have definitely helped me with my aerobic and anaerobic fitness level. All the Walnuts land training have helped with building reasonable core and leg strength.

Now, I just need to work on specificity - run. 

Sacrifices made?

One hour less sleep during the week, sometimes just less one hour of TV a night. No Sunday mornings sleep ins. No Monday mornings paddling. Missed the occassional dragonboat training or land training. No alcohol (although wasn't totally alcohol free like the last time, you can't say no to mulled wine, but definitely no excessive drinking). 

Suspected/self-diagnosed injuries throughout the 16 weeks:

Extensor tendinopathy of the foot, tib post tendinopathy, adductor strain, and the usual DOMS in the calves. 

Race day

Got up at 4.45 a.m. They say to eat 3 hours before your race. Had a peanut butter wrap and went back to snooze for another 30 minutes. Got up, showered, rolled on the foam roller, stretched, covered my blisters, made sure I got all my gear - Garmin, empty Spibelt (to collect GU gels during the course), bib, shoes, socks, coffee money, and then it was out the door. 

Did a light jog to town hall to catch the train to Milson's point. Legs felt good, the left ankle was behaving. Thank goodness. Whilst on the train, I ate my second breakfast - a packet of Belvita breakfast biscuits. 

Got to the start line at 6 a.m. 1.5 hour before the race. Just in time for the half marathon. Grabbed my coffee and then looked out for Yean and Ivy to wish them luck and took some photos. Once the half marathoners were off, it was time to get ready.

Did my dynamic hip stretches, rubbed some deep heat over the calves, forced myself to take a dump, dropped my baggage off, and then headed to the start line. It started to drizzle whilst we were waiting for the gun to fire. 20% chance of rain and we are that lucky 20%. I'm glad I had prepared for it, I'm glad I ran in the rain a couple of times. Nothing is going to stop me. Revised the race plan in my head:

5km 5:30-5:45 race pace, RPE 3-5

8km 5:15-5:30 pace, RPE 6-7

2 km 5:00-5:15 pace, RPE 7-8 

Repeat

For the last 12 km: 

4km 5:30-5:45

7km 5:00-5:15

1 km all you got

If I stick to the plan, I'll hit under 4 hours. Very much achievable, but of course, there's always that secret goal. Secret goal? 

Yes, when I tell people my goals, I usually tell them goals I KNOW I will achieve, and I will be satisfied with it. But then there's this secret goal all the time... you know, deep down inside, if you achieve this secret goal, you'll be over the moon. What's the secret goal you ask? 

Sub 3 hr 50 min. 

7.30 a.m. and we're off! I was in the B group start and hence it took about 2 minutes to actually get to cross the starting line. From here on, let me introduce you to the two voices in my head that was with me the whole time : (AES) Arrogant/evil/cunning VS (CRS) chill/reality/sensible.

The start of the race felt really good. AEC wanted to go faster, because the legs felt light. Because AEC thinks that I can overtake all these people easily. AEC thinks I can go at a faster pace. But CRS said to run your own race, stick to the race plan. So I kept telling myself to take it easy, don't try to overtake all these people. You have 42km to go, don't be silly. Check my watch and it was a 5:15 pace. But RPE was low, I know I can push for more but because the pace is under the target pace, I decided to just stick to it, slow down if I can, and just enjoy the first 5km. Took in the sights of Sydney whilst running across the Harbour bridge, checked out the various running styles of other runners, check my own running technique, made sure my core is switched on, intentionally squeeze my gluts and see how it feels (my legs actually felt lighter but it was too much effort to squeeze my gluts the whole way), made sure my arms are not swinging around too much, worked on my breathing technique, varying it with 3 inhale:2 exhale and 4 inhale:3 exhale ... Nerd much? This is what I do to keep myself distracted. 

When I got to Botanical garden and hit the 7km mark, I saw the 3:45 finish pace setters. Clock was showing 35 minutes. Which meant I have been running at a 5:00/km pace. It didn't felt like it, it felt slower. But it was time to bring my RPE up and do a 5:15 pace. Somehow my pace was faster than planned, and so, I just decide to stick to RPE. I got excited running pass the 3:45 pace setters, there's that hope of doing sub 3 hr 45 m, not too sure which voice was winning then, AEC or CRS, but it's most likely AEC. Haha! But thanks to CRS, I made sure I'm keeping my RPE in check. AEC was telling me to keep going, you are a winner! You're gonna do a sub 3 hr 45 m for sure!! But CRS said, it's too soon to say. Just stick to your 3 hr 50 m secret goal, that pace setter will most likely run pass you later, stay calm and stick to the plan.

Took a few gulps of water along the way, when it was time for the 2km fast pace, I definitely overtook quite a few people, and going at a 4:40/km pace. It felt really good, it was all flat then as well. After the 2km push, it was back down to 5km easy. Was definitely going slower than the 1st 5km but still at the target pace. 

At the 20km mark, it was the first stop where they had GU gels. Time to refuel. Stopped and had my first GU gel, took another spare to put in my belt for later. Bad idea to stop.

When I started to run again, my calves were cramping up. It put me off a little, was a little frustrated. I had practice stop start stop start runs during my training, why is my calves stil cramping up. I still have more than halfway to go. And so, I slowed down, stopped looking at my pace and just run and get comfortable again. I tried to take my mind off my calves, but then I started to feel some discomfort in my feet, in my knees. I clenched my gluts, wriggled my toes, it took the pain off my knees. I kept going.

Eventually got back into my rhythm again. Pace definitely slowed down but I still tried to maintain the RPE plan. At 21km, I was at 1 hr 47 min, PB for a half! But I told myself don't get carried away, you are most likely to run the second half slower. But that's ok. We did a U-Turn and the 3:45 pace setter is still behind me. 

Hit the 30km mark on Oxford Street. 2 hrs 33 min. Yes, 12km to go. Self check: Have you hit the wall? Don't think so. I'm tired but I can still go. I don't think I can stick to my race plan. Not even the RPE. 

CRS said: It's ok, don't worry. Just run. Don't walk, don't stop. Just keep moving those legs, you'll get there. It's all familiar route, just imagine you are going for an easy run. You've done easy runs under 6:00 min pace. You can do it now.

Came to the 35km mark along Hickson Road, I sort of hit a tiny little wall. From here on, I totally discarded the race plan. I was going at a 5:30-6:00km/km pace for the last 7-8km. It was the battle of the two voices throughout. 

AEC: Yes, it's only 7km to go. But the thought of running all along the flat Hickson Road to Pyrmont and back, it just feels longer than 7km!! Ohhh look, you could possible just do a sneaky U-turn and run back. 

CRS: Are you insane? No, do not do this! You've done 35km in 3 hours 2 mins. If you run the next 7km at 6:00/km, you can still make it a sub 3 hr 45m!

AEC: But I would get a faster time. There's no time mat at pyrmont, it won't matter. I'll suffer less pain. 

CRS: You are just cheating yourself if you sneak in this U-turn. This race is all about you. Not anyone else. Why do you want to cheat yourself? Come on, 5km now. Just think of it as a cool down run now. 

By the time the two voices in my head battled it out, it was over 37km, it was the last slope at Allen Street and then the last U-turn. I had done a couple of hill sprints here. And so, I just told myself to sprint up it. Just imagine you are doing hill sprints, it's less than a minute sprint, just go for it! and bamm!! I sprinted up the slope and then turned, slow jog down. 

CRS won! Now, last 4km to go. It was 10-ish in the morning. The sun's out. Running the last 2 km along Hickson road, you could feel the scorching sun burning into your skin. Ideally I'd like to go a little faster. I should be able to. If I just imagine I'm doing a session and doing 4 mins intervals, I should be able to pick up my pace. But, I was afraid. I was afraid I might possibly encounter the wall again. And so, I just continued to stick to my constant pace. 

Last 200m, the 3:45 pace setter creeped up on me. Shucks!! No!!! But he was yelling at the same time, "don't slow down! Push it guys! Push it! Don't follow me, go ahead of me!" 

200m Shermayne, 200m only. It's time to give it all. You are going to suffer later irregardless, might as well make it even more worth it. The crowd was cheering, everyone around me was also picking their pace up and sprinting too. 

And so, chest up, shouders back, core on, high kickbacks, heel to butt cheeks, game face on, and off I go!! It'll be over soon. I felt strong, 3 hr 44m on the official clock, arms out for the last few metres, a big wide SMILE at the camera as I crossed the finishing line... BAMMM!!!! 

Watch/net time says 3:42:46, 5:17/km. Official time 3:44:50. Legs felt like they were gonna collapse. If I sat, I won't be able to stand anymore. Downed some oranges, isowhey, grabbed my finisher marathon shirt, grabbed my medal... and made my way to collect my baggage. 

I still can't believe I did a sub 3hr 45m. Well under my secret goal. Ecstatic. Over the moon. I have to admit, it's one of the proudest thing I have done and it deserves to be shared :p Those trainings and sacrifices paid of. It wasn't too bad come to think about it. It's sustainable. But I will definitely have to tweak it to make it a more balanced lifestyle. 

Could I have gone faster? I'd like to think so. I'm still very new in this marathon running thing. There's always the could-haves and should-haves. Should have prepared earlier. Could have paced myself better at the start. Could have pushed a little bit more at the end. Could have endured a bit more pain. But it's ok. It's all about the experience and you learn a bit more from every race, and even every training run. You discover what you need to work on when you are preparing for your next. And that is what I believe makes a better runner.

Part of me felt like, that's it. I can stop running road marathons. But part of me started to look up other marathons, and I realized that my time qualifies for the London Marathon. That will be in 2016. And so, I've made it a point. I will continue to run marathons, but never the same marathon. London marathon is now on the bucket list. Fingers crossed! Gotta make it happen! 

Thanks to everyone for the additional help:

The words of encouragement and support from friends and family, the people who accompanied me on my training runs, the colleagues who provided dry needling therapy to my foot and calves, the existence of dragonboat which provided me an alternative to maintain my fitness level when the foot is injured, Walnuts for strengthening and mental training... I wouldn't be able to do it without all these additional help. Best of all, very little money being spent :p 

Enough road races for now, time to hit the trails!!! 

Additional stats:

Overall Rank : 822 from 3235 finishers

Category Rank: 22 from 186 finishers :)

Gender Rank: 109 from 932 finishers 

A man called Andy...

So, ever since I moved to Sydney, there has always been this homeless guy living outside my apartment building. No one ever chased him away. I think it's because he doesn't cause any trouble. In a way, he sort of became part of Pyrmont. Those who stayed over at my place would have seen him as I do point him out. I've asked my cousin once about this homeless guy, and she said he's been there for years. Mind you, I have lived in Sydney for 6 years now. I've asked her why don't he go to the department of housing and get a better place to stay. And she said sometimes these people have some mental issues and they are not aware of what's out there for them. It's quite sad really. But anyway, on this very month, this gentle giant by the name of Andy passed away. What really touched me were the gestures made by the residents of Jackson's Landing, both young and old....

A little bit about the homeless guy... This was when I found out they called him Andy.... 

This was the spot where you would find him every night... even in the winter.... 

Little kids did drawings of Andy. It really looked like him and on some days during my morning runs, I'd see him doing exactly what's shown in the drawings - sitting on the bench and just admiring the views. 

Residents paid tribute by placing flowers on the bench he normally sits in. 

It just touches my heart to know that there's so many kind souls out there, and many of them are just around the corner. And it was also good to know that there's also kids out there who are being nurtured and taught to be kind, to the homeless, unfortunate people out there. 

May Andy rest in peace. 

Happy birthday Swannie!!!!

To my dear other half,

Happy 26th Birthday. I know this post is late but it is still September.

I am so proud of you, as you have fulfilled your dreams of travelling New York. You've made it happened and I am so amazed that you did it by yourself.

Every year, on this special day, I am always reminded what a lucky person I am, to have such a special person in my life. Despite the distance, despite the lack of emails these days, despite the lack of updates, know that I always have you in my thoughts.

May your 26th year be better than your 25th year... May each new year be more epic than the year before. Keep making dreams, and keep on chasing your dreams, because dreams do come true.
We are still yet to fulfill our "25 year old" plan but I believe we will do it one day, eventually!!!!

Love you long time,
Your other half :)
Mwahhhhhhhhhhhhh

Another 10k PB

Ok, it's been awhile since I blogged, time to dust some cobwebs away and revive it a little. I admit, I have lost the interest of blogging, but I am still determined to write my yearly update on the start of a new year. And it's not too far now, the new year. So, to save some time, I thought I should at least make it a point to write about my races so I do not take a long time when it comes to the new year.

More than just a race report...

Sydney Harbour 10k - 13 July 2014

Did this race back in 2012 and set a PB then. This year, the goal was to set another PB. But to make it even more challenging, I was determined to get it under 45 minutes. I only decided to run this race roughly 1.5 months prior to the race.

Since December of last year, I set myself a task - which is to wake up 2-3 times during the week before work and run. Be it a long or short run, sprints or recovery run. I just had to do it. Reason being I started putting on weight since dragonboat. With all the paddling and land training with weights, and neglecting running, I've gained weight. Yes, it's muscle weight, but I'm pretty sure I still have fat to burn. Why am I afraid of gaining the weight? Well, a heavier me means I need to be pulling more in the boat. And a heavier me means I have to carry more weight on me when I run.

And I have to say, I have been rather consistent. Yes, there were some off weeks where I was injured, or sick. But gradually, the habit of waking up and run started to grow into me. And because of that, I thought, maybe I should put all this running into good use. I had a goal, to run 5km in a 4:30 pace. At the same time, I remembered that I doubted myself running 10 km under 48 mins back in 2012. So, I decided to achieve this goal, and to put that doubt aside.

On top of that, I have this desire to complete the Six Foot Track Marathon in March 2015. However, you need to meet the entry criteria. The most achievable one would be do complete a road marathon under 4 hour 20 mins. This means I need to do another marathon before I can do this particular one. As I recalled, I struggled so much during the Auckland Marathon 2 years ago and I didn't want to do anymore marathons after that. However, I think I have recovered from that fear. And so, two running goals were set:

1. Run 10 km under 45 mins
2. Complete a full marathon under 4 hours 20 mins

I started to run with a set plan for each session. It wasn't just "Oh, I will run 6 km today and try to finish it as fast as I can" or "I'll just do some hill sprints today" or "I'll fit in some fartleks during my run". Each session had it's warm up and cool down phase. I had to force myself to run slow, and tell myself, it's a warm up or a cool down. And for the main sets, there were tempo runs, intervals, hills etc and also a target pace for each component. Be it faster than race pace, slower than race pace or at race pace. I started reading running articles. I learnt that recovery is just as important as training.

I got a runner's guide for a half marathon and tweaked it to suit me, so I can build up to the 10 km race and at the same time, train for the dreaded, but must-do full marathon in September.

A week before the 10 km race, I was rather nervous. I actually never felt this nervous for a race before. It's only 10 km for goodness sake! But I had doubts, doubts of doing it under 45 mins. It's something I really wanted but not sure at all if I can achieve it. You see, normally when I set my goals, I usually know that I will be able to achieve it 90% of the time. But this time, it was a 50-50 chance.

Come race day, I felt good. No crazy carb loading the day before, no energy drink this time. I told myself, just eat what you normally would eat before a training run. So I had my regular cup of coffee, and added a banana and some Belvita biscuits. Nothing too fancy.

It was rather chilly that morning. Mid winter, what can you expect? Wore my Vibrams as I felt faster running in them compared to my Brooks during my training runs. I knew my calves were gonna pay for it after the run but I just had to if I want to increase my chances of doing it under 45 mins.

Race start. The adrenaline was pumping. Did the 1st km in 4:04. Told myself to hold back a little. It was a very fast and flat course. I don't remember most of it except at the 6-7 km mark up the Pyrmont Bridge, where there was a tiny slope and I struggled a bit there because the legs were so used to the flat course that a tiny change in incline made it feel like such a big difference. I could then feel my calves started to burn. If I stop now, it will cramp up. And so, I said to myself "Push through!". I looked at my watch and I was cutting it close. But I knew, it was gonna be all flat from the bridge. There's no slowing down now.

Came the last 500m or so, my watch lost its GPS signal. Had no idea if I will make it, wasn't sure if I can just take it easy or should I just go all out. And so, I took a big gulp of air, and sprinted. Crossed the finishing line and looked down at my watch.... 44:27!!! Phew!! A huge sigh of relief and satisfaction ... All that training and reading actually paid off.

One mission down, one more to go for the year.

3 more weeks to go!!!

Nationals write up

It's almost June. Nearly half of the year is gone. I thought I'd give a little update as I am currently procrastinating in doing something more important than blogging. Plus, I do not want to write up a lengthy post at the beginning of next year.

Life's been well. Busy I must say but I'm loving every single moment of it. Sure, I'm not that good at prioritization but I am enjoying what I am doing that is keeping me busy. I've been making a few more fitness achievements that I didn't think I would have ever completed in my life.

Have been running and dragonboating mainly between of the start of the year till Easter. The focus up till Easter was dragonboat until Nationals was over. Ever since the start of the year, I've been attending 2-3 water sessions a week plus 1 land session with my current club. And in March, there were 3 Sundays that were spent training with the state crew. I have to say, all this dragonboating have made me try to eat healthier and be more conscious of what I eat pre and post training to aid with muscle recovery. I have to make sure I recover in time for the next training.

Came back from Nationals with some amazing results. This was held over the Easter weekend. First of all, I had such an amazing time with the tsunami crew up in the Sunshine Coast. Everyone had the same mindset, so determined, so focused... but at the same time, Fun!!

The first two days of racing was tough. There was the 500m races with the nsw state team on the Friday morning - the womens got the Gold. I was part of the crew too but didn't race as I was a reserve. It was an experience training with them,  but I have to admit, I feel more comfortable paddling with the club. Didn't like the whole process of how they make the selections of the state team. Pretty much anyone who trialled got in. Hence, ended up with so many reserves. I felt like I rather not be in the team. But ohh well...  I call it my angry medal. Next year's aim is to make it into the mixed A crew and not be a reserve. That was what I told myself after that angry friday morning.

The tsunami paddlers in their NSW state uniform

Friday afternoon onwards were club races. Raced in the mixed 20s 2km race and it just felt awesome!! Sure we didn't win but to feel that the whole boat was moving together, so in tuned.... WOW!! It just make up for the not-so-good morning that I had.

Saturday races were the women's and mixed 20s 500m, open 10s 500m. Raced in the women's and mixed crew. It was very competitive, you pretty much have to treat every single race your final race. Even getting into the semis was tough. So many fast crews, but that's what Nationals is all about. You are racing with all the best teams in the country. Missed out on getting into the finals but it was nevertheless a great day of racing. Exhausted but felt great. Couldn't wait for the final day of splash and dash - 200m races!!

I felt very privileged to be selected to form part of the women's 10s crew in the 200m race on our final day. I've never felt that nervous before in a race. I was told that the club have been waiting for this particular event for two years now. Two years ago, the women's 20s missed out on third place just by a second. It was then that they decide they will form a 10s crew the next year to stand a chance to win in Nationals. They missed out on last year because it was cancelled due to the rain. Everyone was upset and disappointed. Hearing how much they have been looking forward to this particular event, and me being a newbie in the team, I felt like I must not muck this up for them.

The crew of the Women's 10s

It was really splash and dash, fast and furious 200m of racing. We came first in our heat and hence got into the semis right away, in which we came first as well, bringing us into the finals. I was so excited, to hear that we have made it to finals!! I had butterflies in my tummy during the whole wait up to the finals. THIS IS IT! I told myself not to get carried away, because being over-excited can just throw the timing out. It was a very fast race, I don't remember breathing until we crossed the finishing line. Overall results... 3rd in Trans Tasman (NZ came first), and 2nd in Oz!!! I was so stoked, I couldn't believe it. It was rather emotional, most of the crew had tears in their eyes... You could tell they wanted it SO BAD, and now, they finally got it. I too, was rather emotional. All that anger I had on Friday, this all made up for it, BIG TIME!!!

And so, this marks the end of the 2013/2014 dragonboat season. First season with tsunami, AWESOME AWESOME! Medals from regattas, medals from Nationals... and to add to my collection...

It just couldn't get any better :) Looking forward to the next season!!!

Two Oh One Three... the year that was...

It was definitely a year filled with many roller coaster rides, it has its highs and lows, but I must say, I survived 2013 pretty well in the end. Wished I had blogged a wee bit more so it would make recalling 2013 easier but ohh well... it's gonna take me awhile to write this up but I am gonna post it up eventually. Whilst I'm writing this post, I will be adding entries to 2013 and create a link so hopefully this post wouldn't seem too long. I'm actually starting this on New Year's Day. Let's see how long till I get this up.

Now, instead of the usual career, fitness, family, social life, relationship sequence.... I shall start with what impacted me the most...

Relationship

For those who were close to me, you would have known by now that a 4.5 year relationship have ended for us in the middle of the year. Didn't tell many people as I figured people will slowly, eventually find out. I must say, it was one of the toughest decision I had to make in my life. There were so many doubts before and after the decision... but looking back right now, I have no regrets. All I can see is that only good came out of it. I really wished and hoped long distance would work for us, I felt like I have given all that I can/willing to give. But... tough luck, it just didn't work out. As days go by, maintaining the relationship felt more like a chore... knowing that there's not much support behind it made it even harder.

Initially, I felt lost and empty coming out of the relationship. Wonder if I have made the right choice. But as the days go by, as the wound slowly starts to heal (I have to be honest, it is not completely healed yet but it's slowly getting there), I started seeing the many good that came out of it. I'm glad that he have started to make his decision for his own good and not based on my whereabouts. And I have to say, it's a pretty darn good decision and a really good change in terms of his career. I can't be any happier for him and I really mean this. For me, I am glad I can now work on my dream to work and travel for a short stint. There's no holding back. I am really looking forward to 2014. I hope I can really achieve this dream of mine.  It is still in its early stages but it is a working progress.

What have I learnt in this relationship?
As it is my first.... plenty! I have learnt to love, and at the same time, learnt to let go. I have learnt what it feels like to love someone unconditionally and to be loved by someone. I have seen what someone is willing to do, willing to sacrifice just for you when they are in love.

I have learnt that communication in a relationship is important. And it should start from the very beginning. Two people must be on the same page.

If you're looking for a serious relationship, plans have to be made. Even if you won't stick to the plan, at least a rough plan should be there. Especially if you are getting yourself into a long distance relationship (which I doubt I will ever want to do it again), there must be a set time frame on how long you will be apart. And what are the plans to make the both of you closer.

I learnt that family's view matters a lot to me. And even though I wished to brush it off and take their opinions lightly, I have learnt that I am the type who would consider their view seriously. Whether I should change my behaviour on this or stick to it... I'm still not sure. But I have a feeling it is the latter.

How am I currently coping?
I'm well. I am enjoying the single life and the freedom to do whatever I want. I can make plans without thinking of the second party. I can go out however late I want without worrying someone across the ditch. I am enjoying not having any obligations to reply any texts or whatsapp messages. (Yes, it came to a point in the relationship where I felt like it was a chore to reply him). Occasionally, I do miss being loved and loving someone else. But I know, that feeling will come again. It is just a matter of time, when you least expect it. I'm not ready to date yet, I'm not ready to be in another relationship. But again, time heals all wounds, I will be ready again one day. And I hope for the best for him too.

So, before I end this section, I would like to thank you, for showing me what it felt like to love someone, and to be loved. Thank you for opening my eyes and made it clearer to me of what I should be looking for in my next significant other. Thank you for all the memories and experiences for the past 4.5 years. Thank you for going on crazy adventures with me. Thank you for all the sacrifices you have done.

Pretty much the last photo we took together before it ended a few months after...

This chapter of my life is now... Closed.

Fitness

I must say, 2013 have been treating me well in this aspect of my life. Yes, the ankle still got sprained several times, I had a pretty bad fall and bled but it was all good. As the saying goes... What doesn't kill you makes you stronger :p Dragon boat and running took up most of it but there were still others.

Dragon boat

1. Not one, but TWO unassisted pull ups! I have to say, to me, this is the biggest achievement for this year. I have never been able to do a pull up all my life until December this year after 3 months of hard work at dragonboat land training.

2. Won medals in dragonboat race for the first time ever!
Well, it comes with the decision to switch teams too. In the middle of the year, I was slowly losing interest in this sport. I felt like I wasn't getting much out of it. Every time after session, I just didn't feel like I had a good workout. It was very time consuming and I was better off going for an hour run and I'd get more out of it. Last season, we were just struggling to get enough females so we can race in a mixed team. It came to a point on whether to quit dragonboat completely or switched team. I've heard that it is quite competitive in other teams and they have A and B teams. But I was prepared to just start at the bottom at work my way up. My paddling buddy, Jia, decided to make the switch.

August saw us making that change. We did our research and tried several teams. Tsunami was our top pick. Loved the spirit of the team, it was really a good vibe. Sure, the fees were much more than the previous team but I have to say, so far, it's worth every single penny I've paid.  Joining this team have opened so many paddling opportunities and it has made me fitter than ever and it's just going to get better from here.

Road runs

3. PB in half marathon
This was back in April, see post here.

4. PB in 5km run - Park Run at St Peters on 21 December
First time doing a timed 5km run. Completed it in 23:08. This is a free timed run that is done every Saturday morning. Have always been wanting to do this but because of dragonboat training, I haven't been able to do it. Am aiming to do this once every one or two months in 2014. Aiming to eventually do a 4:30/km pace.

5. Joined the night Nike Run club in July which made me run almost every Monday and Wednesday of July after work with a work colleague of mine, Katy. Would have liked to continue on but dragonboat took too much of my time in the months to follow.

Trails and Adventure Race

6. Adventure racing for the very first time - 25th May
Kathmandu Adventure race. Longest race I've ever done Am tempted to go for another one in 2014 and be more prepared and get a better time. See race report here.

7. Entered in two new trail runs this year, both in non-ideal weather conditions

16km Great NOSH Footrace - 2nd June 
By far the wettest run I've done and also rather crazy!!! Full post here

You can check out the waterfall we had to cross in this video (it's the waterfall featured at 0:41s):

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gCmTfspo4W8

20 km Narrowneck Night Run - 16th November 
A surreal experience, running in the dark, with rain and fog and getting slightly disorientated. Brought trail running to a whole new level. Read more about it here 

8. PB in Woodford to Glenbrook 25km trail run - 8th September (Full post here)

9. Did plenty of casual trail runs in Sydney which consisted of the following routes

Spit to Manly (sometimes not quite Manly)
This is by far the best trail run for me and have done this route several times throughout the year. It's not too far from the city, it has it challenges... and the view is always AMAZING!!!! And you can stop by Manly to grab brekky and catch a cab back to the car if you feel like it.

On a slightly cloudy day

On a bright sunny day

Taronga to Balmoral
Only did this route once. Got lost several times that it got kinda frustrating. Got some amazing views however but I'm not too sure if I would do it again. Unless I get the route right! And if you ask me to take you to this lookout below, I don't think I will be able to because we stumbled upon it whilst we were lost.

Mt. Kuring-Gai

Super technical route. It was more like a hike rather than a run. It was a very hot morning and only had 3 hours of sleep the night before. Also, quite a drive up from Sydney. Wouldn't do this on a regular basis but would love to do it again and see how I fair ... without falling of course.

I shall rely on these two ultra marathoners to take me to new trail routes! 

Battle wounds... What doesn't kill you makes you stronger!

10. Rock climbing
Not a new sport I tried this year but definitely got into it more seriously this year. Even bought my own harness and rock climbing shoes. Between August and December, I've done at least 10 climbs. It got less when summer arrived because.... why be inside when you can be out enjoying the sun?? And so.. this leads to the two new summer activities I tried!

11. Stand up paddling -NEW! 
I figured, maybe if I get better in this, I will eventually be able to surf? I'm not too sure ... we'll see. Maybe it will be a short-lived thing just like surfing. But still, it's always good fun to try out something new!

12. Beach volleyball - NEW! 
No, I did not just gather a few friends and a ball, head to the beach and played volleyball. Actually started lessons and have paid for 10 lessons up front. So far, have only done two but since I've paid, it's a commitment! Hopefully I can get better at this. Have never been good at volleyball.

So what's in store for 2014? 
Plenty! Not quite ready to do another full marathon.
- Keen in hitting the 4:30/km pace for short courses. Aim for 5km first then 10km.
- I wanna get stronger, hopefully 8 unassisted pull ups by the end of 2014.
- Do more trail runs and simply just enjoy them
- Do well in dragonboat, hoping to go and race out of NSW!

Career

Hmmn.. after typing all the fun stuff above, I'm not too keen in writing about this. I must say though, I did try to become more pro-active in this aspect. Still in the same job if you're wondering.

- Did a dry needling course and am in the process of trying to get work to approve the use of this treatment for our patients. Before I left for my holidays, it was in its final stages!!

- Supervised a year 2 sydney uni student for a week

- Supervised a final year student for one day a week for 5 weeks when my senior was away

- Attended several neurorehab lectures and learnt quite a bit from it. Also did a few webinars. I must say tho, I'm still slack in consolidating.

- Attended a student educator course, in preparation for taking on a student myself for 5 weeks in 2014.

- Stayed back after work for one day a week starting from November to get more learning done. Starting to understand the shoulder a wee bit more now.

So, that's about it. Much more better than the year before although still in the same job. I did try to apply for another job at St. Vincent's but tough luck, I did not get it. I feel like I need a change, but at the same time, I am very comfortable at where I am. I am still not willing to step out of my comfort zone. Am planning on something big in 2014 though. Not really going to help with my career but it will be a temporary change. With regards to what it is, some of you might know but I do not want to say it yet just in case it doesn't happen. So, just wait and see, yea?

Family

Plenty of family affairs this year. Shall just go by month:

January

Brother's Registration of Marriage (ROM) in Singapore
They are officially married. Had an awesome time helping with their photo shoot post ROM at Fort Canning Park.

Bali Trip with the family

Good family time spent in Ubud. And also managed to do a shipwreck dive!!

February

Am so glad to be able to spend Chinese New Year in Malaysia this time with the whole family together. It has been awhile. 

March

Mum and dad came to Sydney to celebrate mum's birthday. And it so happened that the brother also had to be in Sydney for work. It was good family time. And also managed to take them for a walk at the Blue Mountains and we did the Charles Darwin walk. 

September

17th September - A new baby girl born in the extended family

My lil princess Jemima!!!

October

Cousin brother got married!! The apartment was packed with aunties. Lots of noise, lots of cooking happening. It was a rather busy week. 

And because it was the long weekend, I took my aunties down to Wollongong for the day. 

December

The long, awaited, biggest, busiest family affair of the year!! Bro's wedding celebration! Prior to arriving Malaysia in December, I had two roles.. and two roles only... get his wedding slideshow and speech done. 

But, being the usual me, I am always a very last minute person. I pretty much did the slideshow the night before I flew back the Malaysia and also more editting on the flight back and even more when I was in Malaysia. And the speech, I wrote it on the night before the wedding and the wedding day itself. 

When I arrived Malaysia, I was given more tasks. And I had so much fun doing them. One was to write up the wedding photo shoot scenes. It was good fun brainstorming with my brother and sis-in-law. It was quite funny how my brother and I also had to keep some things secret from her because he was going to surprise her. He was planning for the photo shoot to be at their primary school, where they first met. All the while she though the photo shoot was going to be at the secondary school. 

The other task was to create a music video for him with Bruno Mars lyrics because his other surprise for her was to sing Just the Way You Are on their wedding night. This was the most time consuming one but I'm so glad it turned out well. 

It was such a wonderful day, simply because everything went smoothly despite the very little sleep for the past several nights. To see how far my brother will go for this girl, how much he will do, and to get the girl of his dreams, it simply makes me a very happy sister.

And so, that's about it for this section. What I hope to do for 2014 is to call mum, dad and the brother more often. That's something I'm not pleased about for 2013 and the years before. I hope to put in some time and just make that phone call every now and then. 

Social life

Last section!! Almost there. It's the 13th of March and I'm trying to get this post up because it's always been at the back of my mind. It's quite distracting when I want to sit down in front of my laptop and get other important things done. Seems like this feels more important. So I better finish up this post and get it out of the way. 

Social life have been pretty good I must say. Here's another recap with photos by months. 

January

Went to Melbourne for Australian Open. Don't really follow the tennis, nor do I follow any other sports. But... I follow my other half!! It's the perfect opportunity to spend some time with her. And so... I decided to take a day or two off, hop on a plane and visit Melbourne for the very first time!! Another thing NEW!!

Also, got to catch up with long lost friends, which was a bonus!

 Christine, Taekwondo friend back in those primary school days. It's been a LONG time!!

Two other long lost friends. Alex and Ma, we go way back in primary 1 and up till primary 6 and then sort of lost contact after.... till Facebook!!

Kylie and her husband. Knew her from Netball in Sydney. Then she got married, moved the Melbourne. She was so nice to take me out of Melbourne CBD and do some sightseeing. Thanks!!!

March

Bernie's birthday Superheroes Costume Party on a BOAT!

First time attending a costume party, and first time being on a party boat!! Good fun. What an experience! I made my own costume, going as Bat Girl. 

There were also plenty of other outings with the ex-dragonboat team. It's called a social competitive club for a reason I guess. I pretty much get the best of both world ever since switching teams. When you have fun, you have fun. When you do sports, you train and be serious in it and have a goal. The old team wasn't giving me that, and hence, the switch. But to date, I still hang out with them, for the fun part :) Hehehehe...

April

Colleague's Wedding

It was one of the senior physio's wedding. It was pretty cool how so many of us managed to get the day off and got in heaps of casuals and physio aides to cover us. What an awesome, special day!!

Travelled to Auckland over the Easter Break. Attempted Tongariro Crossing for the second time... FAILED! Weather was horrible again, but at least we did walk parts of it. Couldn't see much but the company was good, and that's what mattered the most :) Was so good to spend time with Vanessa and Ah Swan... couldn't ask for more!!

Till we meet again!!!

June

Denise came to visit from Singapore. This girl, had no plans. All she wanted to do was sit and chill in a cafe and do nothing. She came when the weather was rather crappy. But she was still so happy to get away from the buzz of Singapore. 

And for the very first and last time, I sat the Monorail!! One of the crazy things I decided to do. Sydney Monorail was shutting down. June 30th was the last day of operation. And because I have not sat it before, and because of my hunger in being part of history... I queued for several HOURS.... just for an 8 min Monorail ride. 

Worth it? YES!!! Because now I get to boast about it yo!!!

August

Snow Trip... read all about it here.

80's costume party with ex-dragonboat team!

And the highlight of August?

Nutty Nat's 5 weeks in Sydney!!

Had an awesome time whilst she was here. Felt a wee bit empty after she left. We played with animals at Featherdale, munched on ribs at Hurricanes, oogled at hot abs along Bondi Beach, went on a chocolate frenzy at Lindt... and who could forget that epic night out... where I fell asleep during supper and threw up when I got to her place... Now, that's a FIRST!!! 

Thank you!!!!

September

Night out with the physios from work... Didn't expect it to be a big night, but it turned out to be one of those epic night! Out till 3am... It was pretty hilarious.... this is the reason why it's hard to leave my current job. Pay is low... but we have fun... at work... and out of work... 

October

Paul's farewell... Sad to have an awesome work colleague leaving... but it was a good night with the physios and OTs...

And following that farewell, on that same night, went out on a boat trip. Was being a wee bit ambitious wanting to paddle a small inflatable boat out to the big boat at 3am in the morning... it didn't happen....

Ended up sleeping in the car and then got picked up the next morning. Was a good boat trip.... didn't catch much fish. In fact, I was the only one who caught a decent size fish! No picture unfortunately.... as I thought I would have caught more for photos.... Ohh well... 

the fish that I caught.... cooked.... 

Awesome awesome trip!!! Great food, great company... what more can I ask for? 

November

My highlight? The other half's visit!!! She had finally finished her exam... and decided to pay me a visit... Feel so SPECIAL!!!!!! 

Poor thing, I made her walk Sculptures by the Sea when she already had torn her ACL and waiting for it to be operated on.

Although it was only 2 days with her, I must say, we did quite a bit. Sculptures by the Sea, Hurricanes, bought a rather obscene postcard and sent it to Vanessa (heehee :p), chilled in a bar by Bondi Beach, Chat Thai, and then a trip to the Gong the following day...

Classic!!!!! 7 years later... still as crazy as when we first met... 

And at the end of November...

Pei Lyn came to visit. Well, she didn't actually come to visit me. I had to track her down!! This girl... came to Sydney for holiday with the company. I found out through Facebook that she's in town and contacted her. Thanks again Facebook!! So we met up for a short while for coffee... haven't seen this girl for AGES!

December

Attended my first concert ever!

Taylor Swift!!! *screams like a little teenage girl*

And then followed by Bon Jovi two weeks later....

And here's some photos from work Christmas party....

As you can tell, I got a bit lazy with writing about it all so I used photos instead. Social life this year have been pretty good I must say. And it was so good to have so many people visiting. It definitely helped to be kept occupied so I had as little quiet and alone time to dwell on what happened in the middle of the year. 

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So looking back, 2013 have been pretty eventful. I wouldn't put it down as an awesome, great year but I would put it down as a year when I have experienced quite a lot, emotionally, mentally and physically. There were definitely changes to many things and as I look back, I'd like to think I coped pretty well. 

And even though the bungy jumping/sky diving did not happen in 2013 nor early 2014 before I turn 26, it really wasn't a big deal. It just shows that you can plan things, but things will not always go to plan... Even if you plan 7 years ahead. You just need to adapt, move on and have another plan :) 

There's definitely so many new things, new accomplishments, new records set in 2013 and I am very proud of them all. It is definitely going to be a tough year to beat. 

But I'm all ready for the challenge. Have quite a few fitness goals set in mind and they are making progress. In terms of career, nothing yet. Still trying to get some inspiration. As for the big plan of 2014? It is still in its early stages. Will let you all know if it happens. 

Till then, Happy New Year to all! Live and let loose, chill and enjoy life's simplest things. 

Better late than never, thanks for reading! If there's still anyone out there :p