laying it down...

I wanted to blog about this many many months back but I decided, I'll wait till this day to blog on it... So here goes..... (juicy? partially la.... no, i'm not tricking anymore..i'll be good this time :p)

Laying it down...

To my friend, Matthew....

Who's 19 today, another swimming buddy of mine, who I've known for 9 years, who indirectly, accidentally, taught me a few things in life....

19 years of my life and I've always been single. Never been into a relationship. But it's you, you who's given me an idea of what to look for in a guy. You who taught me not to be gullible.... that sweet words aren't everything. You who taught me how to know what's sincere and what's not.

Just by looking at your mistakes, looking at what you've done .... I've learnt from you. Learnt that honesty and trust is really important. That in a relationship, both sides have to be open with each other. That a relationship is not all sugar and spice, everything nice. It's how a couple overcome the downs that strengthens it. That it's a two way thing, give and take. Compromise. Yes, it's from your past experiences that you shared with me that opened my eyes.

You who taught me that don't get into a relationship just for the sake of being in one. Don't have one just coz everyone's in one. Don't force it. Don't rush it. Don't have one just because you are feeling lonely at that point in time. Don't have one if you have any doubts at all. Follow your instinct. There will be no regrets in the end.

I have not regretted and will never regret. I am happy with my decision I made many months back (dig up the post in january this year if you guys wna know more :P). And now reflecting on it, I am glad. I am glad with what I've decided. The decision to remain in my fairytale-like world. I am happy with where I am now and it couldn't be better. I am staying strong and still living up to my words. I am still living in my fairytale because I know I can. Because I still believe there's such thing as prince charming. That it's possible for the first to be the last. That is my fairytale. *shy now*

You taught me all of these indirectly. You don't even know it. You've left a great impact on me and I want to thank you for that. Thank you for everything. Thank you for being a great friend. Thank you for the company. Thank you for your motivation in all sorts. Thank you for your care. Thank you for sharing your experiences with me. Thank you for letting me live in my dream, live in my fairytale :p

Time to stop living in denial. Time to start facing the fact. We are not close buddies anymore. It doesn't seem like it. It doesn't feel like it. People change. And for this particular change, I KNOW it's for the better. No more turning back. Don't let history repeats itself anymore. It has repeated once and it shall not be repeated again. Once again, Thank you for the journey and I hope you did learn a thing or two from it as well.

Happy 19th Birthday Matt!!

Hope you have a wonderful birthday and may you have a great year ahead. Enjoy ur last yr being a teenager! Good luck in ur A lvls and train hard for sukma after that! All the best!!

and....

Happy Halloween as well! Aahahahahahahha!!!

basketball :)

The hell week is finally over!!

Survived?
Wait for the results.


Was meant to start on my 8 page essay(20%) this weekend that's due on Thursday but I haven't started. And it's Monday already. I'll have to start on it tonight coz I'll be struggling with physics tomorrow and on Wednesday night, I have a bball game and it's halloween! I am seeing another no sleep night on Wednesday. It's OK. I have 3 cans of energy drink left.


On Sunday, I woke up from a lovely 10 hour sleep. Then it was straight to basketball as obviously, I woke up kinda late. It was training today. The people here aren't as committed. In the end, there were only 4 girls and 2 guys came and helped out with training. Did some lay ups and shooting during warm up. And since there were so little of us, we just played 3 on 3. I'm the suckiest of them all as everyone else played basketball before. Good in a way as I love the challenge!! It was so tiring. The 3 other girls can all move so fast. It was just so tiring marking them. Thank goodness I was on form that day. Well, at least I think I was. I really felt on form and I was pretty amazed with myself. Made quite a lot of shots and most went in! I have to say, they were mostly fluke as I don't recall myself aiming before I throw the ball.

It's not like netball where you can stop, take a deep breath and then only shoot. This is like you're moving all the time, preventing the opponent from stealing the ball, dribbling the ball and then straight away shoot. Nothing but the net. No chance to catch a few breaths and slow your heart rate down by a bit first, no time to wait and think and aim and then only shoot. Because if you do that, the opponent would have probably hit the ball away. There were many times where I was like.. omg! that actually went in! Hahaha!! Even my team mates were pretty shocked. So it was only yesterday where they found out I can shoot! One even asked if I played netball before as most of the shots made when I am in the key would go in the net.

And then there's the running around. We only played half court but I was so tired. You are constantly moving, finding space and at the same time, you want to get yourself in a good position. A lot of short, quick movement. A lot of fakes. And sometimes you do a fake but your teammate is so blur and still dribbling the ball not knowing who to pass the ball to. Then you have to do the fake again. It was pretty funny at one point. Still working on my lay ups and catching rebounds. That one I find hard. One of the guys told me..."your butt is the weapon for this".... I just cracked up after hearing that. Apparently you use your butt to push the opponent backward before jumping and catching the rebound. Haha! Looks like I would need to get more butt muscles eh?

Ahhh.. loving this new sport. Training yesterday went for 2.5 hours. 6 of us. 2.5 hours. I was so dead after that but happy. My body is aching right now. Too bad we only have 3 games left because we won't be making it to playoffs. We suck. Don't think there'll be anymore trainings after the league. *sigh* Gonna make sure I attend all the trainings and all the games! Don't wanna miss out. Only 3 more weeks and then no more basketball :( It's not even over but I'm sure to miss it. Hope to be able to still play basketball when I get back to auckland. Some of the bball skills will be able to help us out in netball :p Swannie!!! Heeheee... my sports buddy, come come let us take up another new sport next yr - bball! Bwahahahaha!!!

... one thing is........ if only i'm taller!!!!! RawRrrRR!!

Current time: 12.34 pm
Date: 29/10/07

new housemate smokes

Study study study

And to think I can walk out of my room to get some air. NOT! The whole place smells like cigarrettes now. The living room, the kitchen, the toilet!! It's confirmed. New housemate smokes. Evangeline has confirmed that I am not being paranoid!! Only place that smells alright is my room. But soon, the smell will diffuse into my room. From high concentration to low concentration ma..... I think I should cellotape my door or something, stuff towels at the bottom.

*sigh* Why do I have such sensitive nose? The smell is very strong and distinct to me. I don't like it at all. When I walk out from my room, I try to breathe minimally. The smell just makes me feel like throwing up, dizzy and uneasy. This is pretty depressing. No, I am not over-reacting. I shall be suffering from second hand smoking for the next two months. I can't wait to get out of here now. Ohh man!! My lifespan have definitely been cut short. It actually makes me really upset/depressed/helpless and.......... i'm tearing now. That's how bad I feel towards this. urghhhh..... Never have I thought I would be living with a smoker, even just temporary. I'm ok with people smoking, I do have friends who smokes, but as long as I'm not around when they smoke, it's all good. Getting into a smoker's car is also alright. Sure there is the smell but it's just for a lil while. But waking up, walking out of the room and smell ciggies to start my day????? Not pleasant, not pleasant at all.

My body is already suffering from unhealthy diet due to my excess eating in sweet stuff, high sodium intake, simple sugars, cheesy stuff, high calorie but low in nutrient food, fatty food, lack of vegetables ... I do not want it to suffer more from second hand smoking. It's already suffering from the pollution in air and the occasional second hand smoke along the streets when I couldn't hold my breath in time when they exhale. And now, add on this housemate who smokes, my lifespan is definitely even shorter! Ask me to just change my diet to compensate it? Forget it! It's like asking a smoker to stop smoking or even worst. Besides, I am starting to eat a wee bit healthier now. Eating more veges, fruits and drinking more water to cleanse the body coz mummy ain't here to take care of me. And taking a nutrition paper this semester makes me watch my diet a wee bit more. But still, I know it's not enough since I still eat all the pastas and cheesy sauces.

Two more months. Two more months and I'm out of here. From now on, it looks like I'll be eating and studying in my room. I'll be spending less time in the living room and kitchen. The apartment isn't my territory anymore. It isn't my home. I only have my room now to call home now.

This is just part of lifeI guess. Only two months. Only two months. I can go through it. Will just look at it as part of life. One of life's lesson - Learning to be more flexible and living with different kinds of people.

Current time: 2.30 a.m
Date: 26/10/07

* just got a reply from daddy abt my housemate. daddy says to put charcoal around to absorb the smell or buy aerosol spray to neutralize the air. More importantly, spray it in her presence to show my unhappiness. Lolxx! My daddy can be quite cheeky :p but smart!!! Time for shopping this wknd then. Haha!! Charcoal and spray. Nyehehehehhehee....

crappy week and it's not over

Crap week.

I would have completed a total of 105% by the end of this week.

The two tests that I've done didn't go well at all.

Haven't done groceries for two weeks. Fridge is pretty much empty. Ate instant noodles for the last two dinners.

I haven't wrote mummy a proper email for two weeks now. I want to but my mind's not at it. I miss mummy. I miss mummy's food!

New housemate moved in at 11pm last night when I was trying to sleep and she was making so much noise. We weren't even informed that we will have someone moving in. At least tell us la!!!

Woke up late (6am, meant to wake up at 4am), walked out my room and smell ciggies.

My new housemate is a francophone........... and she smokes :( (or maybe I'm just paranoid)

There's this huge pile of notes and readings sitting in front of me and I don't know where to start.

The test is tomorrow.

And I'm here blogging...
.... ok, i feel much better now :p it's ok to complain once in awhile right? just need to let it out....
i'm all good now.. i hope......


Current time: 7.52 am
Date: 25/10/2007

studying is unhealthy

Studying is unhealthy. Very unhealthy.

1. Amount of junk food consumption rises rapidly.

2. You stay at home the whole day having no fresh air.

3. You hardly have any movements except your eyes, your hands and the occasional walk to the kitchen to get more food.

4. Energy intake greater than energy expenditure... resulting into extra kcal... stores at fat.... resulting into tendency to put on weight .... and to the extreme, leading to obesity which leads to coronary heart disease which leads to DEATH. Ok, that's to the EXTREME la!!!

5. Physical activity decreases, leading to cardiovascular diseases and many other diseases and will eventually lead to death as well :p

6. And if you stay sitted for too long, it can cause deep vein thrombosis which may lead to a stroke and can be fatal.. HAhaha!!! Yes, I'm over-exagerrating but it can be possible. Who knows?One day you see the newspaper headlines.... "One bloody stupid student died from excess studying and lack of physical movement"

6. Your body clock screws up. Honestly, I have no idea what timezone I'm in. On some days, I sleep at 9pm, wake up at 4am. Some days I sleep at 4am, wake up at 11 am.

7. The irregular sleep patterns results into the screwing up of your metabolic rate because you eat at really odd hours of the day. Metabolic rate screws up.. results into the digestive system being screwed up as well... which results into..... extra weight..obesity.... u get the picture....

8. You stress, resulting into pimple breakouts. Eating chocolate also does the same thing. And you eat chocolate when you study!!

You see, studying is very unhealthy. Come on la.. agree with me!

It's the midterms I tell you, it's the midterms!!!

umsa skit and birthday shoutouts

80 MCQ in 90 minutes, I thought I would be sweet, having enough time. How bad can MCQs be right? Ok, the worst is medsci's MCQ. But no, sport psych on Thursday was a nightmare. The questions are so long! Man, the lecturers here are also so hardworking to write such long questions! And it wasn't the kind of MCQ I expected, you know, those straightforward, right out of the book ones. *sigh* It took me time to analyse the question and the situation before choosing my answer. That's the kind of MCQ it is. Learning all the theories and applying it to real life examples and how we can deal with them. It's good in a way, to make us think. But never have I expected it to be like this!! *sigh* Pass? I think I will be able to squeeze through it and pass. But a good mark? Nahhh.... The feeling wasn't as bad as coming out from Medsci last semester though. But still!! So much effort! I actually put in so much effort for this!! At least for the finals, I'll know how to prepare for it and know what to pay attention to the next time!!

For now, I shouldn't think about it. Man! The whole day after that paper, I was like thinking non-stop about the test. I woke up at 4am that morning to study for it. And the outcome, not satisfying at all. But no! Don't dwell on it. Still have three more papers to go, 2 assignments. Can't wait for 12th of November where I hand in my last assignment and it will just be Finals all the way!!

Today was surprisingly warm but it rained in the evening after my class. It was pouring! Was considering whether or not to go for training. Still, the stubborn me decided to go for basketball and had to walk under the pouring rain. I was drenched! After training which was 10.30, it was still pouring! Sigh.. my shoes stink now. But, it was worth it! I am starting to love basketball!

Came home, checked my mailbox and there I saw it.......... the long awaited CDs!! Thanks rayvin!!! And thanks to whoever made the UMSA ball DVD. After my shower, I grabbed a bowl of ice cream, a bag of chips and watched the DVD. Hehehehehe... It was awesome. The skit is SUPERB. The dances..... WOW!!!! Just seeing the final piece is just amazing! Good job guys! And 3 cheers to van!! I'm sure you're very proud of them all, eh? Now I understand why you guys really broke the stage and have post-ball syndrome. I would too if I was there!!! Ishh ishhh.. still can't believe I missed it :( But still, I'm just so lucky to watch the outcome of it.It would definitely be better if it were to be LIVE but yeaa.... all good :D It's all smiles from this lil chic here... teeheeee :D Many many funny moments. Especially the bloopers! Ok, I've watched them many many many times already but still... they crack me up! I swear I was laughing so much that my housemate thinks I'm nuts. And I told her I was gonna study tonight. Guess not eh? Yes, laughing at 1am in the morning, she must be thinking I've gone crazy!! But yeaa.. I'm happy. Definitely brought back good memories during my last few weeks in Auckland and now, kinda missing all those wonderful times!!!


And now... Birthday ShoutoutS! Noticed all these people are all the sporty ones!! So here goes...

16th October to THREE lovely babes of mine!!

Eleanor who turns 20!! taekwondo champ aka sportsci mate!! So thankful to have met a friend like her from my course. One who never leaves me out! You're a champ! Love her too bits!!!!

Ying Jie who turns 24 ... freaking awesome swimmer!!!! My senior when I was swimming And she's still swimming. Girl, good luck with everything and may you achieve your dreams!!!

Shaleeni who turns big 21!! swimming friend .. but she was more of a champ in tennis, netball, volleyball during school days... A very very close friend of mine whom I feel comfortable to tell her anything and everything.. and I do mean EVERYTHING! Thanks for being there for me always and always hearing me out!!!!

20th October....

Peekaboo!! Ubi ... real name.. Uda who turns 22.... a loyal supporter of the UMSA tribe for the Bersatu Games this year, always turning up for the trainings and just making everything much more livelier. Truly part of the UMSA tribe and truly a great ball of laughter. It was also great travelling with you after the games. That was an amazing road trip. Funny guy indeed. And don't you reckon' that photo there is so cute? Teeheee :p

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Thaddeus who turns 24... haven't seen him for ages!! Like years!! A great gymnast, swimmer and a great friend! And soon, gna be a great cook!! Hahahahaha!! Thanks for all the rides to training last time and supper at Murni's after that. French fries special! Heeheeee.. will always remember that. Lolxx!!!

That's it!! I'm telling you, so many people's birthday are in october!! what's with october man? hahahahaha!!!! One more to come at the end of this month!!!

Alright, time to sleep now. Study tomorrow. UMSA skit distracted me hence I didn't get to study. Lolx!! All good tho.. Happy Happy! A wee bit nostalgic but yea... nite nite!!!

Current time: 2.08 am
Date: 20/10/2007

cheap red bulls

If only.....



If only I was in NZ...



Because I'm here and you're there. I could have had you. We could have been together. I would have really enjoyed your company. I would. I know I would.

Because I have gotten a taste of what you're like. You were wonderful! You work miracles. I'm addicted to you. I think I am... Dude, you're just too addictive!

I know you'll keep me strong. I know you'll keep me going. Keep me going through the toughest times.

But reality is....

I can't have you. I've lost you. You were taken. I was just too late and it was just impossible for me.....

Will I ever see you again??

Will I ever see such good deal again??

24 bottles of RED BULL for 15 bucks. One bottle is like less than a dollar. Where in the universe can you get such cheap red bulls!!!! Aiyayayayayaya! I want.. I need red bulls man.... keeps me awake and going and going and it gives me wings!! Esp now during exams....

*sigh*

Yes, I check http://1-day.co.nz/ very often! Lolxx!!! Looking at the deals I'm missing out. So far, this is the only deal that attracted me! Haiyooo..... bye bye cheap red bulls :( It was sold out in 4 hrs once it was released! Shows how good it is! HAha!!

Gotcha! Didn't I ? Bet some of you thought it was something juicy, right right? Ekekekekekkee :p

need to buy camera

I need to buy a camera. Mine DIED :( I'm gonna buy it from ebay.

Any suggestions? I'm thinking to still stick to Nikon coz I wanna be able to use SD card. Help please!!

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I like facebook. They've got nice Grey's Anatomy quotes. Teeheee... some pretty inspirational. Here's one I would like to share ...

" For a kiss to be really good, you want it to mean something. You want it to be with someone you can't get out of your head. So that when your lips finally touch, you feel it everywhere. A kiss so hot and so deep you never wanna come up for air. You can't cheat your first kiss. And trust me, you don't want to...Because when you find the right person, that first kiss, It's everything."

True? I've chosen to really believe in this. Teeheeeeee :D

selamat hari raya

This is a bit late but anyway.......

To all my malay kawan-kawan out there.....

MmMmMMm... i'm just thinking about all the kuih-kuih... yummy!! i miss them!!!

Had a great night tonight. It was kim's birthday and had italian food. After dinner, we hit the clubs. Yes, we have midterms this coming week but gta de-stress first!!! Besides, we ARE exchange students! Although I have a feeling I've killed many many brain cells.

4 tequila shots, 2 cranberry vodka, 1 quick f, 1 redbull and vodka...

Not forgetting the amount of calories!!!! Good thing is, I'm perfectly fine, still conscious, not tipsy and i'm blogging!!! Pretty amazed with my tolerance level :p Gna be a good girl for the next couple of weeks... study time!!!! i deserved to party tonight la.. i slept at 6am yesterday coz i was doing my physics!!!!

Good nights!!!!

Current time: 3.42 a.m.

Date: 14/10/07

midterms and assignments

You auckland peeps feeling the stress of finals??

I feel for you too....

18/10 (Thursday)
Sport Psychology 40%

22/10 (Monday)
Introduction Physics - Mechanics 25%

24/10 (Wednesday)
Physical Activity and Health 50%

26/10 (Friday)
Nutrition and Health 30%

31/10 (Wednesday)
Nutrition and Health Tutorial Score Due 3%

1/11 (Thursday)
Sport Psychology 8 page essay Due 20%

12/11 (Monday)
Nutrition and Health Assignment Due 17%

All these with the weekly physics lab and quizzes to be done.

Passing mark here = 60%. So many things in the next two weeks. Can I even pull it off? I am meant to go out and enjoy but here I am, stressing about midterms and assignments. Seriously, I think this is the hardest I'll ever work! I just finished reading 6 chapters of sport psych. Took me a week, slept at 2am, woke up at 8am this morning to finish it up. And now have to start writing up swot notes.

And to think lil shermayne is that hardworking???


NOT!!! She's got an evil evil plan. She do plan ahead!! Nyehehehehehhee... You see, if she managed to pull this off i.e. midterms and assignments, and score a decent grade, then she need not stress so much for the finals! The finals worth...

Physics 45%
Nutrition 50%
Physical Activity and Health 50%
Sport Psychology 40%

So yeaa... I'm sure they'll be more spread out and I'll have more study time and no assignments to think about. And if I do well for midterms and assignments, then all I have to do for the finals is just the bare minimum to get me to pass overall... ekekekekekeke :p Let's all clap for shermayne's brilliant idea! *claps*

Not a high achiever afterall eh? Teeeheeee :p No, I'm not aiming for A's at all this time because they won't even take the grade back to Auckland. It won't be on my transcript. Just the credits. So what for do well right?

This is because I don't wanna spend my november studying for the finals. I haven't been doing much travelling over here. I should. I know I should! I'll do them in November! I hope to do that! Go out of Montreal and do like weekend trips. I really wanna do that!

So now, I'm treating all of these midterms and assignments as finals!! Let's all study together. It's crunch time!! I'll be semi-free after Nov 12!! (Provided I do well in them!!!)

Good luck to all of you with your finals!!!!!


On a different note....

Happy 21st to Pei Yun aka yunnie aka funnyyunny

You're one of the first few friends I made in NZ and still keep in touch! We were once English class buddies learning how to write "interesting", romantic passages :p. We were once Taekwondo buddies, the very few non-koreans. We were once shopping buddies who would take a day trip all the way to northshore for the sake of visiting all the shopping malls. We were once noobs in snowboarding and I'm glad I learnt it with you :D Fun times!! And then there were those baking sessions, keychain making, movie watching at your house. Ahhh! I can still remember them perfectly in my mind. And not forgetting those gossip sesions too!! Gotta admit, we're not that close anymore. I guess in life, things really do change. But girl, I'll never forget you, never forget those wonderful memories we had. And I do hope we can to revive them one day!!!! Happy 21st Birthday and have a blast after your exams!

Current time: 1.23 p.m.

Date: 12/10/07

koko 21st bday

He's an awesome guy.
He turns 21 today.
He's on the other side of the world.
I miss him dearly.
I wish I can be there to celebrate his big birthday.

But the most I can do for him now is to dedicate this post to a wonderful guy in my life who's a big 21 today ....

My koko!!

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Dearest koko,

How I wish I can be there for your 21st birthday and celebrate it with you. It's always this time of the year where you get really busy with uni and hardly have anytime to celebrate. How I wish I can be back home and try to make it special because turning 21 is a big thing! You're so busy this time of the year but still, it has to be special. It's meant to be big! How often do you turn 21? Hahaha.. but I guess you also won't be able to enjoy such a big party right now because you're so busy and your mind won't be in the celebrating mood.

We were both meant to go for an exchange this semester. You were meant to go to the US and me, Canada. And then, I was planning to visit you in the US during your 21st since it's thanksgiving weekend anyway. Koko, that was meant to be the plan! Hahaha!! I actually thought about this last year. Since last year I was already thinking how I can still celebrate your 21st even if we're not together. But now, it's impossible.

Anyway, thank you so much for what you have given me for the last 19 years. You've always been the one, looking out for me, taking such good care of your little sister. I'm just the luckiest sister on earth, I'm sure others will be very jealous of me. Haha!!

I still remembered last year on your birthday when something bad happened that morning which was purely my fault and yet, you still covered up for me, taking the blame. I felt so bad when it happened and even worst when you said you will cover up for me, protecting me. I guess it's our little secret eh? Thank you so much. I'm sure no other brothers in this world will even think of doing that for their sisters, taking such a big blame. Koko, Thank you.

Thank you for all the small talks in the car during our ride home from university when we're stuck in traffic. Thank you for all the advices for everything. From learning how to show my respect and appreciation to papa and pummy to learning how to be more responsible and organized. Thanks for telling me off in a nice way when I do something wrong or when I am being unreasonable. Thank you for backing me up and supporting me all the while. There's no doubts that we indeed make a good brother-sister team. Wait, not a good one. The BEST brother-sister team!!

You are truly an inspiration to me. Just seeing you juggling between work and studies and succeeding in both just impresses me and I have to admit, you actually made me believed that I can do the same as well. The first half of this year in Auckland, I was so busy with UMSA stuff that I was actually worried with my studies. But just seeing how busy you are and yet being able to still do well, it just made me want to do the same as you. And because of you, I actually performed my best in terms of my studies out of the 3 semesters. Koko, you're truly my role model!!

This is the longest time we've been apart from each other. I do miss waking you up in the morning, preparing your breakfast for you. I miss driving you to uni and sometimes hearing you snore in the car. Hehehehe.. I miss your singing and the bopping of your head in the car. Haha! I miss waiting back at uni for you and then walking to the car together. I miss our small talks in the car on how our day have been. I miss having you coming into my room during dinner time and bounce on my bed just to wake me up for dinner.

Koko, I miss you.
Koko, I love you.

Koko, Happy 21st Birthday and may your days be filled with joy and happiness

Lots of love, hugs and kisses from your lil sis,
~Sher Mayne~

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Hehehe... those were pictures taken last year during his 20th bday. I just read the post I dedicated to him last year and woah!! Very similar.
See for yourself --->> Koko's 20th Birthday

I miss my brother!!!!

one disappointment after another...

I feel like crying ...One disappointment after another...

Imagine this...

Walking under the rain for 20 minutes to the sports bar, paid freaking 20 canadian bucks and watch the All Blacks lose on a Saturday afternoon. *sigh* I want to cry already. The ref... I hate the ref. But to be honest, the all blacks did not perform well. Especially during the 2nd half, defence was weak, heaps of mistake. I'm so gutted. We were all gutted.

Nevertheless, the experience was amazing as I never been to a sports bar and watch the rugby. But for 20 bucks, I'm not happy at all. Nevermind, just have to wait for another 4 years. *sigh*

At night, went to watch my very first ice hockey game. McGill lost. *sigh* Another disappointment. What a shitty day. Plus the sudden drop in temperature, not happy at all.

And........ facebook's free sms isn't FREE anymore. It was the only useful application on facebook and now it isn't free. I feel so cheated. Poor phone. It's gonna be even more dead. I guess, nothing lasts forever eh? Still remember this post last year? Nyehehehe... perfect example.. lolx!

Life is simply wonderful, ain't it? Hahahaha!!

Current time: 11.10 p.m.
Date: 6/10/2007

of choices

Of choices....

Would you ...

1. Take an hour bus ride, attend an hour of class, take an hour bus ride home on a Friday evening

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2. Turn up for a 1.5 hr basketball training ??

Which would you choose? Shittzzz.. cannot seem to set my priorities right.. arghh! Nervertheless, I had fun. Ehehehehehe.... I had a lot of reasons ok!! Ask me and I'll tell you...ok, more like excuses but they are valid ones!!! Really!! I'm serious!!!

On a totally different note .....

It was my ex-swimming coach, Mr.Ang's birthday on the 3rd of October. A great coach who not only made an impact during my swimming days but also in life. Somehow he's taught me many valuable lessons. Sent him an email the other day and told him about how I'm on my exchange and this is something that he said that's like.. WOAH!!!

"So take this opportunity to open up your horizon and get to know the world better. After all university life is to know the universe and not books, books, books all the while like you are in schools. These unwritten knowledge is more valueable than those from the books. Hope you enjoy your stay in Montreal and if opportunity allows you, do tour the whole of Canada before you are back in NZ. Though it is just a semester, it's worth your whole college life, really."

A pretty cool advise don't you think?

Current time: 11.30 p.m.
Date: 5/10/2007

returning auckkie 11 january

Note this in your diary ...

11th January 2008
6.45 a.m: Pick lil chic up from the airport :p

No, just kidding. but you can start spamming my phone once you wake up on that day!

Yayy! So excited! Hahaha! Returning to Auckkie 16 days earlier than expected! Hi to summer sooner. Hi to my preparation for Round the Bays sooner as well!

Yes, it's confirmed. 11th January I'll be arriving Auckkie!! So excited today when it's confirmed. Ahhh!!! No need worry about travelling in LA and Tahiti and finding accommodation. One huge big relief off my shoulders :D

Midterms are not funny at all over here.

18th Oct: Sport Psychology 40%
22nd Oct: Physics 25%
24th Oct: Physical Activity and Health 50%
26th Oct: Nutrition and Wellness 30%

The amount they worth is just like sitting for exams back in Auckland for me except everything is so crammed up. I guess this is the bad thing of doing sportsci in auckland, it's so easy flowing that when you come here, you're dead. I'm so not used to studying hard for midterms becaue they hardly worth much. But looks like now I have to eh?

Let's guess what lil chic will be doing this thanksgiving weekend? Hmmnnn..... Facebook? Ehehehehehe.....

physics o physics

Today's Monday. On Mondays, my class only starts at 1.30p.m. But Sher Mayne here got up at 5 am today.

Why?

To do the darn physics quiz that's only worth 1%. 15 questions for 1%. I'm still questioning myself why o why did I take physics? At least there's still a use to it, I'm so sure I'm going to need it in biomechanics next year! Well, at least this week's quiz is better than last week's. I finished it more than 24 hours before due time which means I do not need to stay up late tonight and stress about it. It also means I can skip today's tutorial since I managed to finish all the questions. All thanks to two future engineers helping me. Jellymi and uncle sim, thank you so so much to both of you for willing to help me!! If it weren't for both of them, I can picture myself sitting in front of my laptop tonight till 3-4am staring at those questions, panicking and not getting anything right. Teehee :D I know who to kacau next time when I need help in physics, bwahahahaha... and the NEXT time will probably be next week? Ekekekeke.. 1% quiz every week ma...

Went for basketball training yesterday afternoon. The first game will be on the 11th. One more sunday of training before I play my very first bball game. Ahahaha!! So yeaa.. gonna have training this thursday as well. I'm starting to enjoy it but still suck at lay-ups. Let's just say, my co-ordination is very very bad. Practice, practice, practice. I need more. At least now I can dribble the ball without constantly looking at it! That's one improvement. Ehehehehehe.. I'm enjoying basketball now, it's a subsitute for netball. But....... I'm missing netball. Baskettttt... you auckland ppl playing netball every weekend without me :( Ohh wellzzz... I can make do with this substitute right now, it's a good sport to pick up anyway, it will help me to find space in netball and definitely train up my stamina coz I was tired. It was the reason why I woke up at 5am to do physics. I was supposedly meant to take a nap at 10.30pm and wake up at 12am to do my quiz but yea... slept thru till 5am. Haha!! As for ultimate frisbee, I might pass on it. Missed one training and one game already. Lolx! Coz the training was last wednesday which clashed with bball training and the game was on saturday night and it was cold that night so I was lazy to to go out :p

Talked to mum and dad last night about my flight back home. I've decided to skip LA and Tahiti. Will buy a ticket from LA back to Auckland straight away after arriving LA. Don't want to tour around LA by myself anyway and I've been there when I was 12. Was considering whether or not to go back to malaysia before going to back to auckland. The ticket from LA to auckland is 580 USD. The ticket from LA to msia to auckland is 980 USD. With extra 400, I can go back to Msia on the 9th of Jan till the 19th of Feb. Tough decision. Tempting. Mum, dad and bro will be going back to Msia for CNY. But I thought about it and decided I won't go back.

Reasons why I should go back:
1. See my relatives and my lil cousins!
2. The swimming and school friends.. (although not many are there already)
3. I get to see the people who I won't get to see anymore in NZ
4. Vanessa will be in msia by then and I can see her and I need not wait till MARCH!!!!!! (this is one of the reasons that made it hard to decide)
5. So that i won't spend CNY and my bday here alone. (not a biggie anymore coz i've spent my day and cny alone before)
6. The yummy yummy food I get to eat and the shopping I get to do.

Reasons why I shouldn't go back:
1. I've already spent so much coming for this exchange.
2. If I go back on the 9th of Jan, it means I won't get to celebrate my dad's bday on the 19th of Jan.
3. If I go back to Msia, I'll basically be spending even more money again.
4. I'll get to enjoy summer in NZ.
5. It's an opportunity for me to get some proper working experience instead of working at the billabong shop in 1U and getting paid like crap!
6. I will force myself to be productive this summer and earn some money, earn some money back after this big expenditure in Montreal.
7. I get to have fun making satays next year!!! (no, seriously, i'm looking forward to it!!)
8. I currently miss NZ more than I miss Msia.
9. To make sure that things are completely over and history will not repeat itself like how it did last year. I know for myself that I'm sure about it but you wouldn't know about whether others feel the same or not, right? So, it's best to just stay away longer first.

So you see, there're more reasons to why I shouldn't go back. It'll be all fun and play if I go back to msia but I do need to get my act right. I don't want to be jobless in the future. I have to get some working experience. Whatever kind of working experience, I don't care! Besides, the pay here is way way higher than in Msia! I'm even considering to beg a gym to take me and I'll work for free. You know, to just get the hang of dealing with customers. Haha! Let me make my mistakes and don't pay me. I'm fine with that. Hehehe...

Man, looks like I've been doing a lot of thinking lately huh? At least it's rational thinking, non emo stuff. Wahahahaha.... denise and jeremy said i've matured after reading my previous post. so, have I? I really have no idea what actually made me think of all these things and decide on passing up the opportunity of going back to msia. Whatever it is, I'm sticking to this decision as I know it's for the better.

Mum and dad said they are happy with me not going back so I can help manage the trademe stuff as long as I'm ok spending CNY by myself. Dad said he'll look up airfares to sydney for me so I can have the possibility of going to sydney and spend CNY with my auntie. So looks like I won't be alone for CNY eh? Teeheee :D

Alright, enough. Time to make my breakfast. I made dinner last night after training. I deserved a good meal hence.............

Fettucine with alfredo sauce

(with added onions and CHICKEN!! the sauce I bought actually tasted really weird hence I added some evaporated milk, fresh milk, salt, pepper and voila! it's soooo goood!!)

Chocolate mint ice cream with baked bananas drizzled with maple syrup

(and grapes and evaporated milk just to make it look nicer.. heeeheee)

Current time: 9.15 a.m.
Date: 1/10/2007 (one yr ago from this date, it was the day where I sprained my ankle the second time .. from playing touch as well :p Haha!)