I wanted to blog about this many many months back but I decided, I'll wait till this day to blog on it... So here goes..... (juicy? partially la.... no, i'm not tricking anymore..i'll be good this time :p)
Laying it down...
To my friend, Matthew....
Who's 19 today, another swimming buddy of mine, who I've known for 9 years, who indirectly, accidentally, taught me a few things in life....
19 years of my life and I've always been single. Never been into a relationship. But it's you, you who's given me an idea of what to look for in a guy. You who taught me not to be gullible.... that sweet words aren't everything. You who taught me how to know what's sincere and what's not.
Just by looking at your mistakes, looking at what you've done .... I've learnt from you. Learnt that honesty and trust is really important. That in a relationship, both sides have to be open with each other. That a relationship is not all sugar and spice, everything nice. It's how a couple overcome the downs that strengthens it. That it's a two way thing, give and take. Compromise. Yes, it's from your past experiences that you shared with me that opened my eyes.
Just by looking at your mistakes, looking at what you've done .... I've learnt from you. Learnt that honesty and trust is really important. That in a relationship, both sides have to be open with each other. That a relationship is not all sugar and spice, everything nice. It's how a couple overcome the downs that strengthens it. That it's a two way thing, give and take. Compromise. Yes, it's from your past experiences that you shared with me that opened my eyes.
You who taught me that don't get into a relationship just for the sake of being in one. Don't have one just coz everyone's in one. Don't force it. Don't rush it. Don't have one just because you are feeling lonely at that point in time. Don't have one if you have any doubts at all. Follow your instinct. There will be no regrets in the end.
I have not regretted and will never regret. I am happy with my decision I made many months back (dig up the post in january this year if you guys wna know more :P). And now reflecting on it, I am glad. I am glad with what I've decided. The decision to remain in my fairytale-like world. I am happy with where I am now and it couldn't be better. I am staying strong and still living up to my words. I am still living in my fairytale because I know I can. Because I still believe there's such thing as prince charming. That it's possible for the first to be the last. That is my fairytale. *shy now*
You taught me all of these indirectly. You don't even know it. You've left a great impact on me and I want to thank you for that. Thank you for everything. Thank you for being a great friend. Thank you for the company. Thank you for your motivation in all sorts. Thank you for your care. Thank you for sharing your experiences with me. Thank you for letting me live in my dream, live in my fairytale :p
Time to stop living in denial. Time to start facing the fact. We are not close buddies anymore. It doesn't seem like it. It doesn't feel like it. People change. And for this particular change, I KNOW it's for the better. No more turning back. Don't let history repeats itself anymore. It has repeated once and it shall not be repeated again. Once again, Thank you for the journey and I hope you did learn a thing or two from it as well.
Happy 19th Birthday Matt!!
Hope you have a wonderful birthday and may you have a great year ahead. Enjoy ur last yr being a teenager! Good luck in ur A lvls and train hard for sukma after that! All the best!!
and....
Happy Halloween as well! Aahahahahahahha!!!
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