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Stress!!

Stress!!

2 more weeks. 2 more weeks till the exam break arrives. Can't wait for that actually. Have already decided that the very first monday, i'm gna do NOTHING. Need to relax. Need to breathe. Need to clear the head before I start studying again. The past few weeks have been crazy, and the following two is not gna be easier. Have my 60% written analysis due in 2 weeks which I haven't started as I have no idea what to put in, plus a 20% presentation on it. Fu....dge!! I need to sit down one day and just brainstorm. I got two weeks. One week to finish up 18 articles, one week to get 80% of this paper done. Sigh... Is it even possible? I so just wanna vanish into thin air now.

I am so stressed that...
Today, when I was walking to my lab at tamaki, I walked pass boon and jeremy BLINDLY. They were just less than a metre from me and called me and ... I literally walked pass them and did not see them!! They were just right in front of me! OMG! I didn't realize till... till the lab was over and when I went for volleyball and they told me. I still can't believe I did not see them!!! How blur was I? Or maybe I was just too focused on how the lab was gna be and I don't even know what's going on around me. Arghh! Still can't believe it, still can't. Pretty funny though come to think about it. Haha!

Ahhh...at least volleyball did help me clear my head a wee bit. At one point I couldn't really stop laughing and kee wee tried to be serious with me but failed. Which made us laugh even more. Haha!!

Anyway, tonight was the last dinner we had as a family till next year. Dad's going back to Msia tomorrow and bro is going off next friday. He will be going to msia first, then to europe then to sweden for his exchange and only coming back end of jan. So yeaa... the last dinner as a family for the year 2008. And it's not even june!!

Ok, May is gna be over and I didn't do any shoutouts..
Happy Birthday to the May peeps!!
4th- Rach
6th - Henry
11th- Gladys
12th- Pearl Lin
18th - Sheng
21st - Yi Wen

Hmmnn... quite a handful. If only ... if only I had more time to sabo some of them!!! And then there's also the graduates!! Yes, graduation was in May.

Congrats to all the "oldies". Next year is my turn, I hope! Fingers cross!!!

And lastly,

Happy Mummy's Day on May 11th and Happy Anniversary to Mum n Dad on the 12th.

Ohh wait wait.. one more thing....

http://www.nzherald.co.nz/section/1/story.cfm?c_id=1&objectid=10510922

Check out who appeared in NZ Herald on Monday? Woot woot!! No one other than my BROTHER!! Wahahahahaha!!!

so many readings

So many readings ...

24 journal articles in two weeks
+ 6 journal articles by this wed for lab test
+ 1 chapter by tmrw for lab
+ 3 journal articles to catch up for lectures

Draw me...

Hehehe....

Record speed

A wonderful day .. lunch and record speed :)

After many days of miserable weather, Mr.Sun came out and play for the past few days seeing that the newly graduates want to have nice photos taken. Congrats to all the graduates!!! My turn next year ... fingers cross!

And yesterday, it was no exception. I woke up with a big wide smile on my face as I looked out the window. Went for two classes and headed to city. Met up with my wonderful other half who brought me lunch! Yummy baked pasta. Thanks babe!!! During our lunch, something happened. This random old cina pek came up to us and asked if we speaked chinese. I knew something was wrong hence I didn't really want to say YES. But this Swan who is very nice said "a lil bit". And then he asked us to translate this chinese thing to english. He was going to make a complain to Helen Clark, the Swiss Police, Judge and Japanese. No, don't even ask why coz we have no idea. Apparently this dude striked Lotto and he put his money in ANZ bank and he's claiming that ANZ bank has not been giving him interest for the past 3 years and is saying that one of the staff must be stealing his money. That's the complain he wants to make. What a crack up!! It's hilarious. As if Helen Clark would layan him, and Swiss Police? Why Swiss? And Japanese? ................................ Swan o Swan! Sometimes cannot be so nice!! Lolxx! He wanted to pay us for translating it. But we didn't take the money. Come to think about it, should have taken it, at least can use the money to buy butter chicken :p Or we should have said we wanted 100 bucks since he got so much money in the bank!!! Swan, watch out, he has your finger prints, your handwriting and maybe a strand of your hair :p lol!

Moving on.......

Went to the library to study. After battling in the library for 3 hours, went for a run along mission bay to st.heliers. Ran for 3km, stopped, and then ran back for another 3 km. The last 3km, I clocked an average of 5 min 17 sec per km. My fastest ever! Teehee :) Record speed! Face and legs were burning but... it was a darn good run!! Felt so good and happy :)

ohh n btw.. ladies bay is closed for the season. Ahaha!! Construction work going on. Lolxx!!! Till next summer I guess xp

What a day huh?

self evaluation

Self-evaluation

Because I want to improve and I know I can. Because I enjoy the competition. Because I enjoy the game. Because a good game makes me happy. Because it makes me work out. Because... because I just enjoy it.

But then there's the extrinsic motivation as well. Because I want to win. Because winning makes me happier. Because winning gives me an indication of where I'm at. Because winning is one of my goals. Because the want to win makes me wanna train harder. Because I enjoy winning.

At the same time, I want everyone else to have fun. To enjoy the sport. But for the past few days, I have just been wondering if I'm being too harsh, too hard on them. Honestly speaking, I don't think I am. This year is no comparison to the way we trained last year. But I guess I have to understand that the majority is a bunch of new players. They might have different goals and aims. Not everyone will be willing to go that extra mile and push themselves. Maybe the majority just sees this as a social competition. Their main reason is to just go down and have fun and meet new people. For me, I want to go down, have fun, socialise and win at the same time. Because winning just makes it even better!

I'm not too sure where I'm getting to. Lol! Basically, I see potential in this team. But if our aims and motives are very different, nothing much can really happen. I need to know....

aihhh...i don't know. I really don't know. But...I'm not giving up yet :)