self evaluation

Self-evaluation

Because I want to improve and I know I can. Because I enjoy the competition. Because I enjoy the game. Because a good game makes me happy. Because it makes me work out. Because... because I just enjoy it.

But then there's the extrinsic motivation as well. Because I want to win. Because winning makes me happier. Because winning gives me an indication of where I'm at. Because winning is one of my goals. Because the want to win makes me wanna train harder. Because I enjoy winning.

At the same time, I want everyone else to have fun. To enjoy the sport. But for the past few days, I have just been wondering if I'm being too harsh, too hard on them. Honestly speaking, I don't think I am. This year is no comparison to the way we trained last year. But I guess I have to understand that the majority is a bunch of new players. They might have different goals and aims. Not everyone will be willing to go that extra mile and push themselves. Maybe the majority just sees this as a social competition. Their main reason is to just go down and have fun and meet new people. For me, I want to go down, have fun, socialise and win at the same time. Because winning just makes it even better!

I'm not too sure where I'm getting to. Lol! Basically, I see potential in this team. But if our aims and motives are very different, nothing much can really happen. I need to know....

aihhh...i don't know. I really don't know. But...I'm not giving up yet :)