*blehh*

nearly 2am on a weekday and i'm online.. doing what? well, just finished writing an essay for bio... benefits, hazards and ethics of genetic engineering... pfft! i basically copied it off the internet but took me like so many hours to change the wordings and well, find appropriate informations...grrrr... ohh wellzz... at least i did complete something today.. was meant to make notes on mass spec for chem.... was last year's stuff with a wee bit more info.. she basically went thru it today w'out notes on the board leaving me really really blur at the end of the day... GrRRr.. hate chem! thank goodness the test is postponed to friday.. meaning i have an extra day to study.. the bio essay is due in on friday as well.. so i decided to get rid of it first so tmrw i can study for chem.. i hope i don't fail it... failing the organic chem was really a heartache... *sighs*... the thing is, spectroscopy is a topic that i hvn't really learn before.. only learn a bit bout it last year... so yea... new stuff just don't want to get into my brain!! my brain is like rejecting in...GrrrRRr.. coz it's foreign to my body i suppose?? ok, just a short blog b4 i sleep.. ain't that sleepy.. slept when i came back frm school.. tmrw is the second last episode of the season for LOST... ahh!!! it's gna end!!! *sob* *sob* and assunta can't go snowboarding.. dad said it's too expensive.. *sobs* again...

Flu Season

it's the flu season.. so many people at school are absent.. one thing i find amusing is that the school assembly was cancelled due to the flu season.. you see, a sneeze travels at 300 km/h... so yea.. we can easily catch the flu if the whole school crowds together in the gymnasium.. i have a feeling that school assembly is gna be cancelled this coming friday as well... yayy!! i hate school assemblies... always get pins and needles and it's usually BORING! i reckon' they should cancel house assemblies as well... the flu can spread easily as well with 350 ppl in the commons... All in the favour of cancelling house assemblies say I... "I!!!!!"is it meant to be spelt like that? or maybe is Ay! *bleh* as long as it sounds like it, it's all good.....

Winter holzz in 2 weeks time!!! this girl here blogging is SO DARN FREAKING XCITED!!!!! can't wait for the winter holzz.. my snowboarding drip is confirmed despite the amount of ppl going.. i've booked my own accomodation... so yea.. even if no one goes with me, i will just go and snowboard myself.. my parents aren't snowboarding tho.. so I'm hoping that i will have some friends going with me.... I hope assunta can go.. she's already asked her mom and her mom said to ask her dad... please please please say YES Mr. Wong... hehehehe.... going to go from the 10th to the 14th of july.... snowboarding for three days! Yeee-yaaa!!!! or maybe 4 if i'm allowed to snowboard on the day i arrive... heeeheee!!!

ok, that's all for now.. c'yazz!!

snowboarding anyone?

anyone interested in snowboarding during the first week of our winter holidays??? here's something i came up with coz i can't sleep....

Snowboarding/Skiing Trip

Option A: Sunday to Friday
Accomodation
$20 per night x 5 nights
Food
$10 per day x 6 days
Equipment rental
$20 per day x 3 days
Full Mountain Lift Pass
For 3 days
$ 196
Transport
$40 for petrol $24 wear and tear

Total
$ 480

Sunday: Travel in the morning, have lunch on the way. Arrive in Ohakune in evening. Get equipments sorted. Check into station lodge(place we are staying), have dinner.
Monday – Wednesday : Snowboarding/Skiing on Mountains
Thurday: Rest Day
Friday: Breakfast in morning, leave after breakfast.

Option B: Sunday to Thursday/ Monday to Friday
Accomodation
$20 per night x 4 nights
Food
$10 per day x 5 days
Equipment rental
$20 per day x 2 days
Full Mountain Lift Pass
For 2 days
$134
Transport
$40 for petrol $24 wear and tear

Total
$ 368

Sunday/Monday: Travel in the morning, have lunch on the way. Arrive in Ohakune in evening. Get equipments sorted. Check into station lodge(place we are staying), have dinner.
Monday-Tuesday/ Tuesday-Wednesday : Snowboarding/Skiing on Mountains
Wednesday/Thursday: Rest Day
Thursday/Friday: Breakfast in morning, leave after breakfast

Option C: Sunday to Thursday/ Monday to Friday
Accomodation
$20 per night x 4 nights
Food
$10 per day x 5 days
Equipment rental
$20 per day x 4 days
Full Mountain Lift Pass
For 3 days
$196
Transport
$40 for petrol $24 wear and tear

Total
$450

Sunday/Monday: Travel in the morning, have lunch on the way. Arrive in Ohakune in evening. Get equipments sorted. Check into station lodge(place we are staying), have dinner.
Monday-Wednesday/ Tuesday-Thursday : Snowboarding/Skiing on Mountains
Thursday/Friday: Breakfast in morning, leave after breakfast
(Difference from Option A: No rest day)

Option D: Sunday to Friday (most expensive and ultimate crazy)
Accomodation
$20 per night x 5 nights
Food
$10 per day x 6 days
Equipment rental
$20 per day x 4 days
Full Mountain Lift Pass
For 4 days
$ 258
Transport
$40 for petrol $24 wear and tear

Total
$ 562

Sunday/Monday: Travel in the morning, have lunch on the way. Arrive in Ohakune in evening. Get equipments sorted. Check into station lodge(place we are staying), have dinner.
Monday-Wednesday/ Tuesday-Thursday : Snowboarding/Skiing on Mountains
Thursday/Friday: Breakfast in morning, leave after breakfast
(Difference from Option A: No rest day and snowboarding for 4 days instead of 3)

* Transportation fees might be less depending on the number of ppl going and the number of cars driving.

Petrol costs for a car both ways: 150 (or less)
Wear and tear for a car: 100 (or less, depending how much the driver wants)
Total cost: 250

* Charging 64 per person but will refund money. 64 for transportation is the maximum cost it will be. (sticking to the safe side)

A deposit of $10 bucks will be required.

Go to http://www.stationlodge.co.nz/ to view info about accommodation and skis/snowboards rental.

Email me at shermayne@hotmail.com if u r interested!! latest by this thursday

good social basketball game

went window shopping with peiyun yesterday.. hvn't seen her for ages! was so happy to see her.. we were meant to bake biscotti.. so we bought ingredients at pak n save.. then put the stuff in the car, went to no.1 shoe warehouse to laugh at the weird shoes they have. then we continued our window shopping inside botany.... decided not to bake anymore coz was too late.. so close to 8.30 and 8.30 = OC!! so at 8, went to subway for dinner.. went home, watched OC.. wanted to watch monster in law after that but had trouble playing the dvd.. watched house of D instead.. was a pretty good movie..

this morning, played social bball... for once, we won!! 22-0 to Pulse. we played them during our very first game and they won us.. they didn't trash us tho.. this time, we thrashed them badly!! woohoo!! i scored 2 shots!! woot!! was lucky shots man!!! i was so surprised the ball actuali went in coz i was standing pretty far from the net... i think one of the girl hated us.. but i think it's caused by stress... she was like asking us to watch our language when we were talking to OUR OWN team mates.. GEEZZ!! mind ur own business! and all we said that time to each other was :" idiot, why didn't u catch it?" and we were jokingly saying it.. weren't mad at each other or anything....
and i heard her called some ppl in our team b****es when we were playing... so dumb!! just coz she's losing...and they made like so many mistakes and blamed it on us... like throwing the ball out coz we were blocking the view and stuff.. we have the right to do that!!!! n there were a few times where they were the last one to touch the ball before it went out but the referee thought it was us that touched it.. but none of us complained and let them have control on the ball... (see how nice we are) and then during the game, i was marking that moody girl and she was running around the court the whole time and i was basically chasing her and to make her more annoyed.. she deserves it.... i started going lalalalala.. i think she was really annoyed and said:" stop chasing me!!!".. and i'm like:" pfft!! i have the rights to chase u.. lalalalala"... in your face!!!! the other team mates were fine.. had friends in that team like sarah and fiona....
after bball, walked home .. went to airport to pick my dad up.. had lunch after that.. went to spotlight with yun, caris and cerys.. bought a mini penguin that's really really cute.. it's gna be my good luck charm.. then bought some ribbons to make a keychain next weekend... went home at 5 something.. was quite sleepy.. decided to take a nap.. slept till 11pm.. n now, i'm so awake!! gna do my bio now.. byeee!!!!!

Feelin' Random

i'm just feeling random... so yea.. here's something that i came across in my junk mails and well, it's pretty funny...

Chinese Names to avoid ----------------------
Anne Chang (Mandarin) - Dirty
Anne Chin (Mandarin) - Keep quiet
Faye Chen (Mandarin) - Dusty
Carl Cheng (Hokkien) - Buttock
Monica Cheng (Hokkien) - Touching your buttocks
Lucy Leow (Hokkien) - You are dead
Jane Tan (Mandarin) - Frying eggs
Suzie Leow (Hokkien) - Lost till death
Henry Mah (Mandarin) - Hate your mum
Corrine Tai (Hokkien) - Poor fellow
Paul Chan (Mandarin) - Bankrupt
Nelson Tan (Mandarin) - Bird laying eggs
Leslie Tong (Mandarin) - Rubbish bin
Carmen Tng (Hokkien) - Leg hair long
Danny See (Hokkien) - Squeeze you to death
Pete Tsai (Hokkien) - Nose droppings
Macy Koh (Cantonese) - Never die before

*rolling on the floow laughing my ass off*~!!!!!

Have a great day!

What to do in my life?

had careers evening at school yesterday... not much of a help coz i don't know what i want to do now.... listened to bachelor of science, psychology and bachelor of health science.. all the while i wanted to do health science... after listening to psychology, it sounds so interesting that it made me feel like doing psychology... i mean, one of the advantages is making people do things for u through psychology.. gosh! i might be able to manipulate a guy and make him like me and do things for me.. *evil laugh* so now i'm thinking of doing bachelor of science and do psychology at the same time ... but then there's so many subjects to choose frm in bachelor of science.. so i'm quite confused.. arghh!!!!
and i'm so lazy to read the brochures coz i dun even understand them!!! plus, i don't even know when my application form to uni is due in.. all i know is that it's not THAT soon..haha!!! my mom says i'm still immature to go into uni coz i said i might consider being a marine biologist so i can play with dolphins!! and then i also said that all i want is a phD, i don't care what i do.. as long as ppl call me DR.Chan in the future, it's all good... so i think that's why i dun really know what i want to be.. coz every single time i want to do something, i will go and ask whether can get a phD or not... so yeaaa... i have to grow up first and then make my decisions.. and i have to grow up really really really SOON!! GrRrrrRR... ok, TV time *sighs* signs of immaturity.. haha!!! i need to enjoy my childhood man!!!

mondayyyyy

today at pe, bad news... our whole class marks were all scaled down coz apparently our median was too high.. school policy: the median of every subject must be between 45-55%... and apparently our median was 70 something.. so yea.. i got scaled down from 80 to 67!!! how gay is that??? from an A to a C...*pissed* .... at bio... watched a video on gene mutation... did the lovely AM (activity manual) book.. btw, i was bein sarcastic with the word "lovely"..newayzzz.. caris got really high and she scribbled my AM book with her orange highlighter..GrrRrr!! why my book? why??? ohh wellzz.. was really funny.. i was twinking off the highlighter marks and then she started scribbling again!! so i used my twink and and put a huge WHITE BLOB on her red blood cell picture.. and i came up with this really lame sentence...." haha! ur red blood cell is now a WHITE blood cell!!!!!".. and she started cracking up coz it's not a really white blood cell, it doesn't even have a nucleus! but since i coloured it white, so i called it a white blood cell.. ok, u guys probably don't think it's funny.. but it was funny at that time...

new tuck shop is opened... they were giving out free milkshake... hot milkshakes.. apparently we are the first school in new zealand to have steaming hot milkshakes... or maybe even first shop in new zealand to have steaming hot milkshakes... 3 flavours to choose from.. mocha, iced coffee(how can it be iced coffee if it's hot? weird.. don't question) and vanilla... i have no idea what i had.. it was either iced coffee of mocha.. was pretty yum! some ppl didn't like it tho... but i do... yoon young got really high in maths after drinking the mocha milkshake...man! she was singing!! she never sings in maths... omg!!! caffeine really does have an effect on the body... assunta's expression when drinking the milkshake was so funny...couldn't stop laughing... i got really high as well.. started jumping around like a monkey after school..i think yoonyoung was freaked out coz she was walking home with me.. we were laughing nearly the whole walk home....

*sighs* what a day! quite a good way to start of the week i reckon'!

heehee

just watched spanglish on dvd... pretty good.... i thought it would just be all bout humour but no.. quite touching and meaningful in the end....my brother just borrowed some dvds from his friend... there's lemony snicket's series of unfortunate events.. i have been waiting to watch that for ages! not coz i read the book (like i ever would read books)... it's coz jim carrey is in it! he's always a crack up! caris's dad just came frm msia.. brought over some dvds... and all are shows that are showing in the cinemas over here and i really really want to watch them.. Madagascar, Mr & Mrs Smith, Monster in Law..

lalalalalalalala.. i'm so happy right now! i can't wait to watch all of them.. would be great if i can have a movie marathon... but my dad is coming back this saturday.... so dun think can have it this saturday.... perhaps on friday... wow.. my this coming weekend is quite packed.. wanted to do so many things on saturday.. first, was meant to go play squash with peiyun then later go spotlight shopping coz they have sales and then she was meant to take me go for movie... then now.. my dad coming so definitely no movie on saturday and maybe squash hv to put on friday.. as for watching the movies, was meant to watch mr.mrs smith on saturday at my house with caris but since my dad coming back, he would be tired so hopefully can watch it on friday.. but friday there's OC on tv.... and now, maybe peiyun gna take me watch movie on sunday... i HOPE!!!! wowww!!! so exciting!!! all these excitements is keeping me wide awake! ohh no! n i hv school tmrw!!! GrRRrrRR.. g'nite!

Today is Sunday

today.. sunday.. went to the library with assunta.. we had a yummy lunch after studying for 1.5 hrs... well, not really yummy coz it was spoilt by the kumara and bacon soup... yuck!! we had chicken and lagsagna.. omg!! it's soooooo YUM!!!!! we shared one lagsagna and one soup.. thank goodness we didn't order two soup or we will have to force it down our stomach... i think nxt time i'm gna have one whole chicken lagsagna myself coz it's just so so so super duper good!! well, next week we are gna have some bacon potato onion thingy and chocolate cheesecake.... we sharing again just in case it doesn't taste good.. hahahaa.. we planning to try every dish in Daily Grind at botany food court... yes, we are crazy... but heck! at least we would be actually looking forward to go to the library on sundays... haha!

right now.. here's the food i recommend u to EAT:

Fettucine with smoked chicken
Chicken Lagsagna

Food i recomment NOT to eat:
Beef Lagsagna
Bacon and kumara soup

that's all fornow.. by the way.. check out denise's blog.. it's so cool with my fav bear!!! http://everlasting-raindrops.blogspot.com ...tata!

Something to SHARE

Here's just some stuff i wna share with all of you....

To My Friends Who Are...........SINGLE

Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it.
Love can make you happy but often it hurts, but love's only special when you give it to someone who is really worth it. So take your time and choose the best.

To My Friends Who Are............NOT SO SINGLE

Love isn't about becoming somebody else's 'perfect person.' It's about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.

To My Friends Who Are............PLAYBOY/GIRL TYPE

Never say 'I love you' if you don't care. Never talk about feelings if they aren't there. Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart. Never look in the eye when all you do is lie.
The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl is to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall and it works both ways...

To My Friends Who Are............HEARTBROKEN

Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go.
The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.

To My Friends Who Are............NAIVE

How to be in love: Fall but don't stumble, be consistent but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, and get hurt but never keep the pain.

To My Friends Who Are............POSSESSIVE

It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.

To My Friends Who Are............AFRAID TO CONFESS

Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea how you feel.

To My Friends Who Are............STILL HOLDING ON

A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it. If he isn't worth it now he's not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now. Let go.....

TO ALL MY FRIENDS.......

My wish for you is a man/women whose love is honest, strong, mature,
never-changing, uplifting, protective, encouraging, rewarding and unselfish.

*sighs*

why?? why does bad stuff have to happen to me constantly????? got my chem test back... failed miserably..... 13 out of 38.. u do the maths.... the worst test ever done...*sighs*.. the lowest girl out of both the A2 class.. i don't think i'm meant to do a level chem... but heck.. i'm still hanging in there and still BELIEVING IN MYSELF... i seriously am still believing in myself... after i got back the test.. i said to myself.. "don't worry, it's not the end of the world..i still can improve"

after interval, was meant to hv a math test but was late to class due the photo taking for water polo.. so mr.barrett said i will hv to do it during period 5.. my real maths class... i go to 2 maths classes... so period 5.. math test = difficult!!! couldn't do most of them eventho it was open book.. got really frustrated coz i wanted to do good in this test so that i know i still hv hope in maths...

ohh wellzzz... at least PE during period 4 was fun... we did some practicals to learn about information processing...practicals were easy but we haven't learn the theory behind it... gna learn it on monday....we were divided into two groups.. my group won 2 out of 3 games... 1st game was sorting out black and red from a deck of cards.. next was a practical outside... 8 numbered cones and we had to stand in the middle.. teacher call out a number n we hv to run to that cone and back and fastest group wins... we lost that game.. last game... sorting out all the 4 suits in a deck of cards and we won. i really enjoy pe.. i guess it's coz it's fun and well, applicable to life.... well, my life that is... or maybe coz it's easy and it's something i can actually understand and make sense to me.... in conclusion, i love PE! best subject ever taken!!!!!

it's over...

did my trampolining assessment today.. did it like so many times and still can't do my routine perfectly.... in the end, it wasn't a perfect one as well... but it's the best i can do... i couldn't make it more perfect coz i was tired and the more i do, the more mistakes i will make.... so i finally decided to stop and be satisfied with my routine... it's the one that will be sent off to UK..

hopefully i will still get a reasonably good mark judging that i started off with nil experience...in the very first lesson, we were also being video taped to see our initial abilities.. and well, i couldn't even do a proper seat drop.. and well, it's kinda good that that tape will also be sent to UK so they will see the improvements i made....hopefully it's good enough... i was quite satisfied with my backflip i did today... but not my seat drop full twist seat drop.. was very untidy.. so that's the bad point... so was my straddle jump.. u see, now all the easy tricks are the ones i couldn't do good coz i was worrying bout my front flip and back flip....*sighs* ...

need to do good in my comment and analysis for trampolining.. so now, i've gotta do some reading on good techniques so i can comment and analyse a trick perform by a person.... then if i do good in that, then maybe i won't get so low marks....if i do bad in it, then well, my marks will be dragged even lower...

right now.. SMILE n B HAPPY!

My Milo Heaven....

this is how i define HEAVEN....

busy saturday....

yesterday... saturday was a really occupied day.. woke up at 10.30... was meant to wake up at 10.. had social bball at 10.40.. meaning i woke up pretty late..so i got changed, brushed my teeth and ran to school.. was a good run by the way.... needed some exercise... reached school in time.. the game was ermm.. lets just say... we lost... haha... 44-12.. i scored 3 shots... quite happy with that judging that i'm hopeless at aiming... after that, walked home... when i was about to reach home, i realized i 4gotten my jacket so i had to walk back to school and take it..

reached home at 12 something... got changed and went to lloyd elsmore to swim.. why swim? coz well.. last week, mr.morrison said that in a few weeks time i'm gna get accessed with my 2nd sport-swimming.. 1st sport in trampoline.. coz we have to hv to sports overall for the AS PE... so he asked me to start training up.. and then earlier this week, he asked me how was my swimming going.. and well, being the lazy one, i only went swimming once.. so decided to go for a swim.. after swimming.. went to warehouse... for what? choc shopping!!! yes!!! 4 milo bars for 3 bucks.!! meaning 75 cents each.. usually is like 1.09... so i bought 12 milo bars, 4 kit kat chunky, 4 kit kat fingers.. the night before, i bought 7 milo bars.. only 7 coz this damn lady took like a basket filled with milo bars.. GEeEEZ! there's a word we often use in the world called SHARING! hello??!!?? i was so pissed at that darn lady that night.. ohh wellzz.. it's all good now.. i got my milo bars and i'm happy already.. by the time i reached home.. was 2.30.. realized i have to meet sarah at school at 2.45... coz gna go to her friend's house to practice trampolining.. so i showered and then ran to school again...

trampolining was ok.. can't do backflip yet.. coz i don't hv to the guts to do it w'out any guidance..but i changed my routine to make it easier after the backflip.. instead of having a pike after the backflip, i will put the pike before my front drop... way easier... by the time i finished trampolining, was already 4.30.. i forgotten i hd to go to school at 5 to help out for indian dance competition.. so rushed home.. didn't even hv time to shower and then rushed to school.... drove there so ain't that bad... we finished cleaning up at 10.30 something.. gosh!!! those audience are sooooo darn inconsiderate... seriously!!! gum and food being chucked in the auditorium... GEEZZZ!!!! i seriously wanted to strangle those darn ppl....inconsiderate and rude... and who had to picked the gum up? me! yess.. me! in a nice blazer picking up gum.... GRrRRRRrR... but the day ended well... had burger king at 11 with rossanna and stephanie... yea.. my first proper meal for that day.. before that... the whole day, all i had was a crunchie bar and a kit kat chunky.. yea.. feeding on chocs... we were at burger king in our uniform and blazers at 11 in the night... so funny... every1 was staring at us.... but heck... it was fun!!

so yea.. that was my day yesterday.. today ain't that interesting....

Ahhh!! Trampolining Assessment!!!

my 10 bounce trampoline routine:

- front sommersault
- swivel hips to full twist seat drop
- front drop
- tuck
- back sommersault
- pike jump

END

the day i dread is very very near.. it's next week!! AHhhHHH!! my trampolining assessment! and guess who's first up on the tramp? ME!!! ohhh myy!! so unlucky!!! coz the order is randomly chosen.... there's a pile of names... and then each person will take turn to draw out a name from that pile...without looking at the names of course.. and my friend monique was first up to draw.... and when she was drawing.. i was like.. "monique, it'd better not be me!"... tough luck! it was me.... what in the world did i do to deserve this???? arghhh!!!!! just ain't my day... i'm not ready!!! i still can't do my backflip.... i just started doing it without the harness today.. and believe me, it's not pleasant at all.. my hands are all over the place, it's not consistent, it's not smooth, it's jerky and i lack dexterity... all the points that show i'm a novice.. and i can't be one coz then i will get less marks.... i cant' get less marks coz this worth 20% of my end of year AS PE results! (i've a feelin this is gna be a long post)

i'm happy that my 10 bounce routine is all written up.. and it's really 10 bounce... meaning 10 contact on the trampoline.. not 10 tricks....i can do everything well except when it reaches to the part where i have to do the back sommersault... i'm happy with my front sommersault coz my exit is pretty well controlled and i have enough height to do the swivel hips (seat drop, half twist, seat drop) and then straight to full twist seat drop( 360 seat drop)... but after my tuck jump and the eye sore back flip.. i'm screwed!! i couldnt' land in a well-controlled position where i can go onto a pike jump and end.... i do the tuck jump, the back sommie and right after that, my hands go flying all over the place.... looked like an idiot! honestly i don't know how i look but i can imagine judging that my teacher was laughing as well as other ppl having badminton training at the gym!!! i laughed as well coz i felt like an idiot.... my teacher is very encouraging tho.. he believes that i can do it next week and i will be ready after a few practice.. he's even more sure than me! haha! so i suppose, trust the teacher? (yupzz.. i'm rite, it's a long post n gna get longer)

it was kinda scary after school doing trampolining in the gym.. yea, i stayed back for another hour to train. i HAVE to coz i'm being assessed next week! and we only hv trampolining once a week.. so basically nxt thurs i will hv like a few minutes of warm up and then start to be assessed... why is it scary? well, i trained in the old gym.. and the badminton training goes on in the new gym... and the new gym and old gym is right next to each other separated by a sliding door which was slide open coz tmrw is school assembly... so yeaa.. there's so many ppl and some of them just stare.. and then there's those ppl who just got changed ready for rugby standing outside the gym, looking inside, being amused at us trampolining... i was a bit pressured by them when i was practising my routine (exclude the back sommie)... at first couldn't do the front sommie.. coz they were looking! and if i dun do it good, then i will be embarassed... n true enuff, i was... i did a front sommie and cldn't go straight into my seat drop.. so i had to stop and do it again.. kinda frustrating coz i'm nt reali comfortable with front sommie... it's not like every single time i will do it correct.... but later on after a few embarassments, i managed to do it.. so i'm pretty happy... (wow.. i wonder how long this post is gna be)

so now, all i'm worried is the ending of my routine.. the back sommersault and then straight to pike jump.... i'm afraid i can't do them.. i mean, i took like AGES to learn the front sommersault.... to be able to do the back sommie in like 15 minutes next week.. i'm not really sure.... if i cant' do it, i will just have to swap it with a lame ass back drop.... GrRRrRR... then my level of difficulty will drop which leads to a drop in marks.... ohh wellzz.. life's life... i will definitely tell u all about it next week if i do actually get assessed coz i sorta beg the teacher to have it next next week but he said that we were running out of time... but he'll try to make it next next week.. but i have to prepare myself for next week....n if i do finish nxt week, then i need not stress out anymore... right now, i need to stay focused and determined... and gotta believe in myself.. (ahh, finally thsi post is finished! thnx for readin!)

thnx 4 long wknd

it's the end of the long weekend... was queen's bday weekend.. it's pretty good... tho i have a chemistry test tmrw.... just feels great having a tiny lil break... didn't do much work although i promised myself to complete my trampolining log.... ishhh.. have to do it next weekend.. hopefully i won't have any test next week so i won't need to worry and i can complete my log... more like.. LOGS!!
yesterday, went to family friend's house for dinner... being the quiet me and all that, i kinda felt left out... thank goodness i was able to leave at 8 coz gonna watch Pacifier at my place.... the show was alright.... thank goodness i didn't spend money on going to the cinemas and watch it.... was just fun having friends over... although i prefer to be at friend's place...haha!!! btw.. my phone got topped up 20 bucks!!!! i'm so happy!!!!!! will definitely last till next year.. thanks to the person who topped it up!! weEeEEEeeeEE!!!!!
was meant to go to the city today with caris.. called her up in the morning and she said she can't go coz she went out too much this week already.... i was like.. YES!!! i can sleep longer.. and so, i slept another 1 hour before fully gettin up.. washed the nissan car today... was much better than yesterday coz when i was washing the odyssey yestday, it rained while i was doing the final touch- DRYING it... thanks a lot stoopid sky!! but today, it didn't rain till the evening.. so ain't that bad.. i could at least see the sparkling clean car for a few hours...
that's all for now.... BE STRONG, LIVE STRONG!

like my new skin?

alalalaa.. like my new skin? if u hate it, too bad.. u hv to bear with me for ermm.... a year or so?? coz i'm loving it... wahahahaha..

anyway... the purpose i came on was..... well... u see, i was watching tv and then after tv, i came online at 1 something.. and then... i saw like three ppl on msn having the same/similar nick.. one is LIVE STRONG by yi wen, and two other ppl had BE STRONG.. one from my primary school friend, and one from a friend in macleans... it's pretty freaky coz they were all online the same time.. all having the word STRONG... then i thought to myself... is it a sign? a sign telling me to be strong despite the results i got during my exams? and then another friend came on.. having her nick as "got 2 B true".. now what? another sign telling me to be true to myself? and stay strong at the same time? what's with motivational nicknames all at once? freaky!!!! or maybe i'm just being paranoid and it's just a coincedence.. maybe yes, maybe not? who knows? *freaky music plays in background*

GrrRrR

life couldn't get any worse, can it? i think it can.... got back my other results.. so in conclusion......

chemistry- 52
maths- 57
biology- 66
Pe- 80

it's just so sad.. sometimes i wonder how much more work and effort do i hv to put in?? maybe i'm just not that smart.... or maybe my study method is wrong.. i think it's that... i mean, i studied till i hv panda eyes and yet..... such crap results... this sucks!!!!! how am i gonna move on? then again, there's this lil voice in my head still saying " shermayne, believe in yourself"... GrRrR!! that lil voice is starting to get annoying... i thought i wld do better in maths.... coz i did pretty well in those math tests in class... all also above 80.. and now.... 57!! how can it be? where's the confidence booster when i need it? i think i'm not good in maths afterall... i did good just bcoz i just learnt it so i know how to do it.. but after a few weeks, i would forget about it already... this sucks.. i've got bad memory... most ppl did well... i'm below the median for all subjects except PE coz ppl who take PE ain't that smart...maybe i'm just a score high PE student but suck at other subjects.... oh my goodness!! that lil voice is speaking again... "shermayne, believe in urself n be positive... u know u can be smart as well" ...

omg!! and i'm gna have a chemistry test this tuesday.. i feel so demotivated till i couldn't be bothered to study anymore... which isn't good because i will definitely regret it next time.... can't believe i'm so stressed up even after the exams... i'm so worried... i'm worried bout my studies.. i'm worried bout my future... sometimes i even wonder if i can be Dr.Chan.... little voice:"shermayne, nothing is impossible, believe in urself"... well, i've got nothing much to say already.. my life is just like this.... and well, i have to accept it.... little voice adds on:" u have to accept it and make it better"..... thanks my little voice....

The little voice in my head won't let me forget
The little voice in my head is never misled