3 D's.. depressed, disappointed, demotivated

omg! this is so depressing... 52 for chemistry.... median is 70 something.. meaning i'm way way below the median....arghhh!! how am i gonna move on? basically lost my hope in getting good grades for chem.. i could perhaps feel a wee bit happy coz last year i got 47 for chem.. but heck!! that doesnt' really cheer me up much..... plus there's a chem test on tuesday!!! right after queen's bday weekend.. meaning i can't go burger king and drink unlimited soft drinks and i can't really enjoy my weekend... getting my chem exam back today basically brought my mood really really down... man.. there's still maths and biology.. i wonder how i will fair in them.... please please please give me an A in maths.. please!!!!! if i get an A in maths, then i will get back my motivation to not give up..... please please please... and for bio.. please please please give me a B... i will be disappointed with a C and depressed with a D.... i hv a feelin i'm gna be disappointed or maybe even depressed judging by what chemistry have done to half of my feelings... but but... i have to remember my brother's speech.. believe in myself and don't give up.... go me! will blog again tomorrow..... btw, starting swimming today.. gonna get accessed in 2 weeks time for PE.... so yeaa. need to get my stroke right and dont' swim like a turtle... wish me luck!

Exams Over~!!!

exams are finally over today! today i sat my last paper- biology.... well, i was already celebrating on friday... haha!! my happy mode was turned on right after i finished my PE paper.... i thought maths was pretty alright.. but most ppl said it was tough ass! so most probably i did something wrong... can't wait to know my marks... got back my PE paper today, 80%.... very very, majorly satisfied.... because..... i only studied 2 hours prior to exam... well, i guess it was because some of my knowledge was from biology last year... so yeaaaa..... haven't get any other papers back yet....

my social life is gettin interesting... vodafone have free texting every weekends...yee--yahh! my phone is finally alive!!!!!!!! on weekends only.. but yeaaa.. wahahahahhahaa....on saturday, went to drink bubble tea with some caris, cerys and other friends... so funn!!! but the bubble tea was such a rip off.. i dun think i wna go there again.. will just go back to msia and have bubble tea over there......the bubble tea shop at 1 utama near the cinema have cool pressy buttons!!! yeee-yahhh!!! and next time if we wna go out and kill time at night, i shall suggest burger king... unlimited soft drink refil... it closes pretty late as well... wahahahahhaa...

today at bio... couldn't really study.. caris and i were planning our social life calender... haha! lemme see...this friday, shopping for caroline's belated bday prezzie... then msian club party... saturday is da howick mid winter festival.. sunday night, watching pacifier at my house.. vcd from caris.. monday.... MIGHT go to burger king and drink unlimited soft drinks... then after that, go for extreme makeover to get lyposuction... waahahahahaha.. next week, not sure yet... ice cream perhaps on friday... lolzzz!!! i got da buy one free one coupon for wendys... as well as starbucks but dun wna drink coffee at night coz i won't be able to sleep.. trust me... yesterday i had coffee at the library and then at night, i couldnt' sleep till 3! omg! i started panicking coz the next day (today) gna have exam.. so yeaa.. only had like 4 hrs of sleep.. i think i will just stay away from coffee.. it's not good for the brains as well... so yea. no coffee for me till.... i'm like 20 something? hahahahaha... but it's quite yum tho.. the ice blended ones... heeeheee....

ok, that's all for now..... can't wait to know my results....!!!!! byeee!

Exams!!

okok, i know i shouldn't be blogging coz i'm in the midst of my exams..... one week is over already... now i've got another week to go...... this is soooo stressful!!!! last week's paper was my resit of physics multi choice, pure maths, biology multi choice and physics practical.... how did they go?? well, the usual me will say... i'm screwed!! but the new me who believes in herself would say:" yeaa.. i think i did pretty alright.. apart from the fact that maths was tougher than last year... i will just make it up for my A2 paper end of this year as i BELIEVE in myself that i CAN make it up"....
this weekend was a nightmare!!! on saturday, i was at the library from 12-4.... studying what? biology AS and a wee bit of chemistryA2.... then at night at 11pm, i started on chemistry A2 and worked till 3am in the morning... how i managed it? well, caris was texting me from 11 till 1 something so that kept me awake... believe me, i was laughing hardout when reading here text so i was quite awake... at 3, i slept...
woke up at 9 and took my own sweet time in the shower which is the only time where i don't worry bout anything.. believe me, i worried in my sleep.. i was dreaming of organic chemistry.. all the electrophilic attack and nucleophilic substitution stuff... after my shower, i had breakfast and was then off to the library at 11.... studied physics basically the whole day... from 11-5.... ouch!!! well, i had a wee break to eat my lunch---strawberry milkshake and two large mcd fries... YuMMmmMM!! that's what i ate.. unhealthy stuff... apart from the milkshake, it has calcium for strong bones and teeth as well as it helps in the synapse to 0secrete neurotransmitter... yea, learnt that in bio...after a total of 6 hours(including eating time and daydreaming time), i decided to go home.. the library was gna close anyway... went home and had egg tarts.. yummm!! mum and dad got them from dim sum... then, i watch TV.. woho!!! i had dinner, TV till 10.30 and then back to studying.. for chemistry this time.. well, a wee bit of physics first coz i had to ask my brother some stuff... then later was hardout chemistry till 1 something...
i slept and then woke up at 6 and started on chemistry again... at 7, i showered, got into my school uniform, did a wee bit of chem till 8 and then breakfast time...after breakfast, was time to face my nightmare.. chemistry exam!!! how did i do? let's just say i know the stuff that i learnt but not the stuff i didn't learn.... so was kinda gutted coz there was heaps of stuff i couldn't bother to pay attention to when studying as i had revise a lot of organic chem as i couldn't get the hang of all the mechanism... by 11, i finished my chem exam, walked home and then did a bit of revision for physics...why? coz my physics structured was in the afternoon... how did it go? ermm.. let's just say it was a BIT better than last year... i HAVE to improve.. i really HAVE to...although there were some questions where my calculations were unrealistic....and when i say unrealistic, u've gotta believe me!!! but heck! physics is finally over!! i can now store my physics book and past papers away... my room is in a massive mess right now... all the papers and books lying around... that's why i go to the libary and study... it's heaps more tidy....now i'm blogging becoz i don't have the mood to revise my bio practical which will be tmrw...
i think i will go take a nap first so tonight i can start burning the midnight oil.. somehow i'm quite awake during the night..... ok, that's all for now......thanks for reading!!

Macleans Ball 2005- A night in Paris

my school ball was last week.. it was awesome! Great food!! tons better than last year... and i love my tan... i'm not white this year.. i'm tanned!! so proud of it.. haha! my mom did my make up and my hair this year... my hairstyle idea was from chloe sullivan from Smallville....my mom love that hairstyle so she decided to do it on me.. and turned out pretty well... anyway......Ball pictures!! It's just a few of them with captions.... if you want to see the rest of them without captions, go to http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/shermayne_chan/album?.dir=c534&.src=ph&store=&prodid=&.done=http%3a//pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/shermayne_chan/my_photos

That's me welcoming everyone to Paris. That thingy
there was meant to be eiffel tower. Haha!

My hairstyle for the ball. Like it? Those white stuff
ain't dandruff. It's glitter!!! My mom did my hair for me by the way.


Is there much difference before and after? I asked for
a light make-up, didn't want a heavy one. It's pretty good, don't u reckon?

Top is picture from last year. Bottom
is picture from this year. Katherine, Katie and Me.

Ok, is it me or are they just
extremely fair compared to me?

Weeeeeee!!!! The three Malaysians!!!
We were the coolest!!! wahahahahahahaa!!!

Yoon Young and I: Left: last year's ball. Right: this year's ball. the walking buddies!

No, she's not my friend. She's my biology teacher from last year and my 4th form science teacher. She's my favourite teacher!!

The Most Inspiring Day

today's the most inspiring day for me... in my life actually....i never ever felt so inspired before... so inspired that i decided to take up the advice given by the person presenting the speech.. usually i never follow what people say... there's those occassions where there's those talks about how to feel great in life or be a better person presented by a really important person who's really successful in life.. or those random attendance to ppls church to hear the pastor preaching about life and all that... they are good of course... but.. i never be bothered to take them into account and practice them.... i was always like... yahh yahh yahh..whatever larr.. i've heard that a gazillion times... still...no change..... but today.... today was the day... where i decided to change... to have faith and to believe in myself... to be confident in myself and to always tell myself that i can do it..... all because of one person...i never thought that he would be the one to inspire me.... but he was!!!

and who could that be? no one more inspiring than ......... my brother.... yes, i was inspired by my brother... he gave a speech in assembly today... and somehow after listening to his speech, i felt different... i felt that i can actually do it... do good in my exams if i believe in myself.... if i stop saying i can't do it or i'm not smart enough.... i realized that i need to be positive.. not only towards ppl, towards life.... but also towards myself... i have to believe in myself that i can achieve anything....i guess i listened to my brother's advice because i know his advice will work as i have witnessed it myself... he's the person he is today because he believed in himself... so if i stick to his advice, i would be a happier person... i would be happier with myself.... i won't need to be like him...all i need is to be satisfied with what i do....

i'm just so thankful to have a brother like him... there's no one else who can inspire me as much as he did today... probably the most inspirational speech i will ever hear!!! i will be successful one day.. and on that day, u would definitely know who i will thank....

Back to School....

my report this week starting from wednesday about my studying.. it's boring so dun bother reading.. just start from 2nd paragraph to hear bout my day yesterday which is walking around at botany with caris....hahahahaha..... but if u r bored and restless.. go ahead....wednesday, i finished up my chem hwk.. more like tryin to understand what i'm learning... coz i didnt' pay much attention on the last day of school and i so don't get what she taught on the last day of school during chem.... after 2 hrs of reading... i gave up... then i did some bio questions.. managed to do 13.... then on thursday, did 21 questions.... so now i hv 73 more.. and there are just questions from the textbook..still hv pass papers to do.....i did study for 2 hrs on friday... did last year's maths coz i'm resitting it....two hrs only coz my mom sent me to the library late...i can't study at home... i always end up sleeping or eating.. then saturday morning, did maths again..very lil bit only coz i forgotten everything from last year..so it's kinda hard.... i reckon' this year's maths is much easier than last year.. doesn't make sense tho coz last year was AS and this year is A level.. when i was stuck at maths, i will just look at my trig test and stare at that 100% and said to myself:"shermayne, u can do it!" hahahaha..damn dumb larr come to think bout it.....

then from 1pm onwards on saturday, didn't do any work.. went out jalan-jalan with caris.... coz she dun wan to stay at home and neither do i.. so we go and buy her makeup for the ball..i got a bronzing powder and she got her founation...and yea.. we got a free gift which is more foundation.. ahhahaa!! then after we bought the makeup, we had nothing to do already.... but.. we dun wan to go home.. so we went and grab a smoothy from wendys... two for the price of one... and walked around and go into 2 dollar shops to look at how cheap but bad quality the stuff are over there.....hahaha.. talk about restless.... so yea... then at farmers, we saw this butterfly necklace which is sooo darn nice but was close to 20 bucks..it's like this butterfly on a silver chain and then a black ribbon going through it... i really think it will go really well with caris's dress but then it's so expensive... so depressing coz can't buy it coz of the freaking price.. so we went to spotlight and saw a necklace with a butterfly on it which is cheaper... so she bought black string and put it through so now it looks kinda like the one at farmers but cheaper!! heck more cheaper!!! in your face, farmers!!! hahaha... will try to take a picture of it during the ball and put it up... went home at 5... then did a lil bit of maths but not a lot... just like 2 questions...hahaha... then dinner...then my mom did my hair and my makeup... just a trial run before the real day.. so now i'm gna know how i look....lolzzz.... my hair is gonna be something like chloe sullivan in smallville.. well, can't make it exactly like hers coz neither me or my mom is a pro.... but yea, the idea is sumthin like that....

then today, i woke up at 12... then went out and eat dim sum at 1.. came home at like 2 something... vacuumed MY ROOM only coz my mom say she'll do the rest coz she found out i'm allergic to dustmites so she dun wan me to start sneezing.... and then i cleaned up my table and pack my bag for tomorrow....after cleaning up my table and packing my bag, it was already 4.... (i took heck of a long time cleaning up n packing coz i was lying on my bed halfway and then lazing around).. so after cleaning and packing up, i actually touched some physics.. well, i digged out my physics books and past papers from my boxes and then read through some notes.... haven't done any exercises yet.. so on the whole, i haven't actually done anything for physics yet... i guess from tmrw onwards, i can't spend my lunch time sitting under the sun(there aint' much sun anyway) ... will hv to go study or get my school work done so i will hv time at home to study.... so the next thing i hv to discipline myself is not to waste my lunch time socializing ....GrrRRrr.. but yeaa.. it's kinda hard coz everyone will be talking about the ball which is this coming saturday and of course i would be interested n their conversation.... haihhh....ohh wellzzz...ok, i gotta go now... tv time.. not study.. hehee... it's enough.. hv to enjoy my last few hours of relaxation before the stress starts pouring in....byeee!!!!