7 down 2 to go

7 down, 2 to go. 2 more sleeps ...

I think I'm starting to get used to being whacked in the head nearly every single exam. For nearly every exam, I come out, wondering if I can actually pass them. I wonder if I actually done enough. It somehow doesn't feel like it.

After the anatomy exam which was the very first that brought me to tears, I was thinking what am I going to do if I really fail. I was planning to just pack my bags and head home and find something else to do with my life. Just throw the thought of being a physio. Maybe me failing is just an indication that I'm not supposed to be one.

It was good having my brother over here during my mid exam break. He was here for a few days for a job training trip. He said just take a break if I do fail and come back next year. Go travel, still young afterall.

Today I thought to myself and decided.. yeaa.. if I do fail, I'll just come back next year. It'll just take me an extra year to become a physio. If I just pack my bags and go home for good, then I would have given up, which is something I do not do. I am sure it would be the greatest failure in life if I were to give up and I'll regret it for sure.

"There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose"

I'll just go home, find a job, (hopefully i can get one seeing it's recession!!), earn more than 4000 bucks (the cost of one paper) and then come back next year.

Ok fine... exams aren't over, results aren't out yet. Why am I saying this? Why am I thinking of these? In the first place, I'm not gonna fail man!!

This semester is by far the hardest ever in my life and it has drained a lot out of me. Mentally and physically. I don't know how much more it's gonna suck out of me but it's just 2 more days. 2 more!!! Bring it on!!!!

"The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking"

The Climb

The Climb

This song is very good at this time of the year. Not a big fan of her but I think this is pretty good. Thanks Ivan!!

Been hit hard twice this week. One on monday, one today. It came to the point where I had to control my tears on Monday. Never felt like that before.

I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

4 more to go!

Sleep for now. Had only 2 hours of sleep last night. Mid exam break!!!!

Here goes!!!

Please please please... please let me do at least half of it. please let me get at least half of them right. that's all i'm asking for.. please please please!!!!

just a lil something

Just a lil something I remembered :p

That Saturday, was the first time we ran 11km after a crazy final week of assignments.

That Sunday, it was when my knees hurt so bad but he walked at my slow pace to the car after library.

That Monday, was when I had my 20% presentation.

That Tuesday night ... 10th of June ... a year ago today... *beep beep*

As he cleared his head, it was those words that reassured me. It was when all the pieces started coming together. My heart paused for a second but then it started beating twice as fast. I slept with a big grin on my face. It was when I realized I had hope. It was when I started to believe...We all deserve to have a lil faith. I might have a shot in this. It was when I DARE TO DREAM ...

because I could see it coming true...

and it eventually did down the road ... :)

Good luck

Good Luck!!

The war begins!! It's that time of the year again. Where chocolate and lollies consumption goes up, where caffeine is part of our daily diet, where energy drink is the best weapon. Where our books become our best friend. Lectures are all over. Now it's all self study. All up to us now.

All the best to all of you who are having exams!! 3 more weeks!! We can do it!!

This is the exams where I seriously just want to pass. I am studying to PASS and that's basically it. And that's stressful enough coz I'm sitting at borderline for most of my papers. High distinctions, distinctions and even credit is out of the question. Just give me a PASS for all and I'll be pretty darn happy. I'll do better next semester.

And last year this time ... it's when I had butterflies in my tummy :p Wish you were here with me to go war.

initially

Initially ...

Monday 15/6: Anatomy 60%
Tuesday 16/6: Neuroscience 70%
Wednesday 17/6: Neurological Physiotherapy 40%
Thursday 18/6: Cardiopulmonary Physiotherapy 80%
Monday 22/6: Musculoskeletal Physiotherapy 1 50%
Wednesday 24/6: Musculoskeletal Physiotherapy 2 50%

And then somehow, they'll squeeze in 3 practicals in between those days during our empty slots. It is tight but it's reality, I've got 9 exams and there's only 10 days of exams. I have nothing to do but to prepare myself to have exams every single day.

Now ...
Monday 15/6: Anatomy 60%
Tuesday 16/6: Neuroscience 70%, Musculoskeletal Physiotherapy 2 Prac 30%
Wednesday 17/6: Neurological Physiotherapy 40%
Thursday 18/6: Cardiopulmonary Physiotherapy 80%
Monday 22/6: Musculoskeletal Physiotherapy 1 50%, Neurological Physiotherapy Prac 24%
Tuesday 23/6: Musculoskeletal Physiotherapy 1 Prac 30%
Wednesday 24/6: Musculoskeletal Physiotherapy 2 50%

9 exams in 7 days. (Good thing is I get to pack on Thursday and Friday :))

I am still in my dream. Living in denial still thinking that this isn't true and it is a joke to be happening to me.

As much as I wish to say life is sweet and everything is going good, it's not. Everything is just not going right.

On a different note ...
I woke up kinda late this morning, didn't eat breakfast, rushed to pack my lunch and rushed out the house. Reached uni, realized I forgotten to put my lunch in bag, and realized 8am class was cancelled and we start at 9. All the rush for nothing, and my poor sandwich.

Came home to throw my sandwich away because it's tuna and it's been sitting out the whole day so I assumed it'll go bad.

But ...

I can't find my sandwich. It's no where to be found.

Anyone seen my tuna sandwich?

I call this ... one of those ying swan moments.. lol!