7 down, 2 to go. 2 more sleeps ...
I think I'm starting to get used to being whacked in the head nearly every single exam. For nearly every exam, I come out, wondering if I can actually pass them. I wonder if I actually done enough. It somehow doesn't feel like it.
After the anatomy exam which was the very first that brought me to tears, I was thinking what am I going to do if I really fail. I was planning to just pack my bags and head home and find something else to do with my life. Just throw the thought of being a physio. Maybe me failing is just an indication that I'm not supposed to be one.
It was good having my brother over here during my mid exam break. He was here for a few days for a job training trip. He said just take a break if I do fail and come back next year. Go travel, still young afterall.
Today I thought to myself and decided.. yeaa.. if I do fail, I'll just come back next year. It'll just take me an extra year to become a physio. If I just pack my bags and go home for good, then I would have given up, which is something I do not do. I am sure it would be the greatest failure in life if I were to give up and I'll regret it for sure.
"There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose"
I'll just go home, find a job, (hopefully i can get one seeing it's recession!!), earn more than 4000 bucks (the cost of one paper) and then come back next year.
Ok fine... exams aren't over, results aren't out yet. Why am I saying this? Why am I thinking of these? In the first place, I'm not gonna fail man!!
This semester is by far the hardest ever in my life and it has drained a lot out of me. Mentally and physically. I don't know how much more it's gonna suck out of me but it's just 2 more days. 2 more!!! Bring it on!!!!
"The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking"
I think I'm starting to get used to being whacked in the head nearly every single exam. For nearly every exam, I come out, wondering if I can actually pass them. I wonder if I actually done enough. It somehow doesn't feel like it.
After the anatomy exam which was the very first that brought me to tears, I was thinking what am I going to do if I really fail. I was planning to just pack my bags and head home and find something else to do with my life. Just throw the thought of being a physio. Maybe me failing is just an indication that I'm not supposed to be one.
It was good having my brother over here during my mid exam break. He was here for a few days for a job training trip. He said just take a break if I do fail and come back next year. Go travel, still young afterall.
Today I thought to myself and decided.. yeaa.. if I do fail, I'll just come back next year. It'll just take me an extra year to become a physio. If I just pack my bags and go home for good, then I would have given up, which is something I do not do. I am sure it would be the greatest failure in life if I were to give up and I'll regret it for sure.
"There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose"
I'll just go home, find a job, (hopefully i can get one seeing it's recession!!), earn more than 4000 bucks (the cost of one paper) and then come back next year.
Ok fine... exams aren't over, results aren't out yet. Why am I saying this? Why am I thinking of these? In the first place, I'm not gonna fail man!!
This semester is by far the hardest ever in my life and it has drained a lot out of me. Mentally and physically. I don't know how much more it's gonna suck out of me but it's just 2 more days. 2 more!!! Bring it on!!!!
"The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking"
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