A sweet ending

28th- Just wanted to remember this day ....

Very little sleep the night before, crazy n difficult tests. Helping my supervisor with a 2 hour testing session, playing around with EMG electrodes and all the wires that drove me nuts (someone shld really invent wireless electrodes!), rushed home for dinner, took a nap and then off for indoor netball, playing centre for all 4 sets with a rather weak body condition as I am still sick, prepared for my lab the following day ...

Despite all of these, it somehow ended rather sweet. The crazy tests are already over and holiday is coming.

So yeaa.. today's a good day. Balanced :)

dreams

Dreams

I used to have dreams of not washing my school shoes and it's all black on a Monday going to school... It never happened.

I used to have dreams of being late to meet up with someone and ended up not getting to see them forever anymore ... It never happened.

I used to have dreams of typing up my assignment and suddenly it all disappeared on the day I had to hand it in ... It never happened.

I used to have dreams of being late to school ... It never happened.

I used to have dreams of being late for an exam ... It HAPPENED. Today ...

*sigh* half an hour late for my test. I was meant to wake up at 5 to finish up my revision. I set the alarm at 5am, 6am, 7am. And I failed to wake up. No, I did not snooze at all. It automatically snooze and I didn't hear anything at all. At 8.45, I woke up automatically. I still had time to think if i'm in a dream or not. Hoping it's tuesday and not wednesday. Till I whack myself real hard, looked at my watch and it says Wednesday, 8.45 .... I realized.. shit, i'm late! Test started at 8.30am! I didn't finish studying everything. I wanted to this morning. And now, I'm late!

Put on my hoodies, grabbed my pencil case and rushed to uni. Arrived at 9am. I had extra time to do my test, the lecturer was nice. When I was talking to her at the start she even asked if I need some time to calm down. But I had no use for that extra time as I didn't know how to answer them. The panic attack this morning made me forgotten everything. My mind wasn't at ease at all.

It's 30% worth. I have to pass all internals to pass the paper. Ohhh shucks!! This is the worst nightmare that ever came true.... for me. All I can blame for is myself. Me and only me. So ashame of myself. Can't believe it actually happened. I never ever thought it would happen to me. Sure I dreamt of it but my dreams never come true. Of all dreams, this one had to come true. Need to change ringtone and get rid of the habit of snoozing! If it were to be 10% or 15%, then not too bad la... but 30% ... *sigh*

I wonder what my next alarm tone should be ...

A year ago today...

A year ago today ...

I flew off and headed to Montreal to start a new chapter which ended in January this year. A chapter of my life I would never forget. One with lots of lessons learnt. Occassionally, I do think back of the times I had in Montreal. I do miss them sometimes. The times where I had a lot of ME-time, having nothing much to do, nothing much to worry. Having time to cook, making my meals look good, walking along the streets and just observing and not thinking about anything really, except, the people back here. And now... when i'm back here, i'm thinking about the times over there.

But yea.. it's been a year and I can say, I'm happy here. Despite the busy life, I am enjoying it, I like it here. This is home indeed :) And here's just a memory of this very day, a year ago today.

I still remembered last year at this time of the year, I was saying my goodbyes. I went to uni in the morning one last time to say my goodbyes, to see the faces of all the wonderful people that I would miss so much. It was the hardest thing to do, that's what I remembered. The UMSA stall was open for the ball, and so, that was the spot where I met up with all the people. And I even remembered, we took some photos too. After saying all the goodbyes, I took a walk to domain as my car was parked there. At the same time, I was texting, reading all the goodbye messages and replying to them. My steps were small and rather slow, as I hoped time would slow down a little. As I got home, I went on MSN one last time, to say even more goodbye. I just didn't want to leave I guess. In the evening, it was time to pack up and head to the airport. Was kinda rushing and I forgotten my pillow. Was rather sad in the car coz I can't sleep without my pillow. To top it up, text messages were still coming in. I didn't want it to end, I didn't want to end my text2000. Got to the airport and the lady said my flight was delayed. I was so happy. It meant more time here. So I went home and grabbed my pillow and then went to McDs. I remembered I had nuggets and strawberry milkshake. And I also remembered I texted Vanessa to tell her that. Because my milkshake was pink. I remembered the rest of the UMSA committee were busy preparing for the ball at that time. They were doing their skit practice and deco. I remembered swan had her last test on that day too. At the airport,I remembered hugging mum and dad one last time. I remembered waiting in the boarding area, texting to the very last bit. And at the end, I swapped my plan back to motormouth.

And then.. I boarded the plane. That...was the saddest part. I thought of everyone. Everyone that I will miss. As the plane took off, I so wanted to stop it. I so wanted to turn back. It suddenly hit me of what I have gotten myself into. I was afraid. But...there was no turning back. I closed my eyes and slept it through. All the thoughts and feelings.. were all left behind.

And now.. today, after a year, I'm glad I didn't turn back. Things did not really change much, feelings remained. I'm glad I completed that chapter of my life. A great one indeed, to be cherished and remembered forever.

20.08.2008

20.08.2008

So I didn't get to make an entry on 08.08.08... I was just too busy and totally forgotten how special that date was. So now... hehehehe.... time to blog today! 20082008 ...

Ok.. so nothing really special happened today. Woke up, had breakfast, went to uni ... Ohhh! I went home too and mummy cooked yummy food for me. Hehehehe... and then i dyed her hair. Yeaa.. that's something different. Haha! And I received a postcard from my bro, all the way from France! He's finished his Euro trip and just arrived Lund, Sweden few days ago and is still settling down. Everything there is in Swedish. He went to supermarket to buy milk and ... somehow ended up buying yoghurt because it looked like a milk carton. Hahaha!! Waiting for more interesting stories from him. Lolx!! This is really all part of the exchange experience huh? I ... miss him. Koko, I Miss YOU...

Whatelse happened today? Ohh yeaa.. I just landed myself more stress ... more things to do. Application deadline is next sunday! Found out I need to get a JP to certify my documents and then I'll send it off on Friday. Hope i'll keep to my word. I had so much things on my mind today that I had to actually sit down and write it all out to plan my days properly and that I don't miss out on anything. And then I also have to look into applying my visa to go to Australia. Haihhhh... immigration stuff. The same process I had to go through last year. All over again. More money to be spent. Ohh well.. for the future.. for the future... Hehehehe...

And lastly ... I got a letter today saying my term deposit is gna end soon! And I just saw the amount I will get. Teehee :) That.. made me happy. Hahaha! I'm gonna just keep it in there.. and let it grow more. Grow my money tree, grow!!!

slow it down

Slow it down ... Please ...

Funny how I find the time this year just flies so fast. Why does it have to fly so fast in my last year of study? How I really wish it will just slow down. In semester 1, I felt it flying by pretty fast too. And this semester, there is no exception to it. In fact, it's even faster. Before I know it, there's only 2 more weeks till the mid-sem break starts. 2 more weeks till the ball. 2 more weeks till the ball is over. 2 more weeks till my application deadline. I think it's time to pull several all-nighters huh?

Week 5
Sportsci 204 journal assessment (3%)
Sportsci 202 lab (5%)
Sportsci 305 lab report (5%)

Week 6 aka dooms week aka ultra panda eye week aka megastress week

Wednesday:
Psychology in Physical Activity mid-term - 30%

Thursday:
Sportsci 305 midterm- 20%
Sportsci 302 midterm - 20%
Sportsci 302 Lab assignment - 20%

Friday:
Sportsci 202 Lab (5%)

Saturday:
UMSA Ball!!!

Have to get my application done as well!! Why does the process have to be so tedious?? Arghhh!!! I think I'm getting bad at handling stress d. Still trying to find my way, trying to get myself on track, trying to get myself organized... On the verge of breaking down...

But.. don't worry...

Why so serious?

the greatest olympian

"He’s not just winning, he’s absolutely destroying everything,"

And so today after my morning lecture at 10, I decided to stay back at Tamaki to study till work starts. Come 2pm and I gave up so I headed over to Zesty's Cafe, hoping TV 1 will be broadcasting the swimming events. To my luck, it did!!

First stop, the Men's 100m Freestyle Semifinal. First semifinal and the world record was broken. But, it only stood there for a few minutes because it was broken again during the second semifinal. Far out man!! These people are crazy!!! So impressive!! Next, it was the Women's 200m Freestyle Finals. Again, another world record being broken, this time, by an Italian.

Following that, the much anticipated event of the day ... The Men's 200m Butterfly, with our very own Kiwi swimmer, Moss Burmester, being in the finals, along with Phelps. You guess it, Phelps won it. And... another freaking world record. He was so close to not breaking it though due to his leaking goggles. Lolx! But yeaa... what impressed me was Burmester's swim. Gutted but still.. hands down for the good swim. He was actually ahead of Phelps during the first 100m but then slowed down in the last 50m and ended up with a 4th placing. *sigh* So close!!

After that, I headed off to work. Come dinner time, I turned on the tv and they had replay of the Men's 200m Freestyle relay. Shit man!!! US won it... by a body length if i'm not mistaken! and ... world record being broken.. AGAIN!! That means... 5 gold medals to Phelps, with 3 more to go to beat Mark Spitz's gold medals record. But yeaa.. just with his 5 gold medals, all breaking world records, he is now the greatest olympian of all times with a record of 11 olympic gold medals in total. Way too impressive. And to think that this fella is only 23 yrs old!! 3 more events to go.. 200m IM, 100m Butterfly, and a relay event. Will he make it? Will he win all 8 golds? At this point, I really think so. I doubted him for the 200m Freestyle since he didn't come first during the semis but during the finals.... man, he was leading by a fair amount. Some machine he is. Setting more world records again? I have a feeling he will. He just doesn't stop... truly amazing!

look at those muscles! those abs!! i want!!!!

so many things to do

Just with uni itself, there's so many things to do. So many that I don't even know where to start. It has just been piling up since week 1. A lot to catch up on. The amount of readings just keeps getting more and more, readings that HAVE to be done orelse I'm dead meat for the tests in week 6. These days I find myself going into the lectures with an empty head and come out with an empty one too. It's only when I do the readings will I understand what the lecturer was talking about. *sigh* really need to catch up on my readings. But... where to start? Apart from the lecture readings, I have assignments due every week, lab reports, lab readings, and a test this coming friday. Ohhh.. and there's still the sydney application which is due end of this month and I haven't really started on it.

Where do I start? Where? I really wanna do well for my last semester, at the same time I need to get that application done and send it off.

Ohh and then there's UMSA ball... *sigh*

I need to get myself organized. But really.. when I look at the things I need to do, I am so lost. Don't know where to start. Suddenly the ranking of priorities just disappeared. Feel so lost.

On a different note, the Olympics! I have been watching swimming. Awesome! Just makes me feel like swimming again. It's always like that when I watch the Olympics or the Commonwealth Games. Amazing! So many records being broken in the pool. And those swimmers' bodies.. Ahhh!! Irresistable!!! Their abs... fuyoh!!!!!

Need something to wash your eyes?

Go HERE --> http://www.nbcolympics.com/swimming/photos/galleryid=156776.html

Ahahahahha!! G'nite :)

Catchy

Catchy

On a rainy weather like this for over a week....
Sitting in Level 0 attempting my assignment which is due tomorrow ...

Listening to this ...


Jason Mraz - I'm Yours

Oh don't you just feel like tapping your feet to the beat, shaking your head from left to right ... and go....

Du du du du du do you, do you, du du du, do you ....

Hahahaha!!!