dreams

Dreams

I used to have dreams of not washing my school shoes and it's all black on a Monday going to school... It never happened.

I used to have dreams of being late to meet up with someone and ended up not getting to see them forever anymore ... It never happened.

I used to have dreams of typing up my assignment and suddenly it all disappeared on the day I had to hand it in ... It never happened.

I used to have dreams of being late to school ... It never happened.

I used to have dreams of being late for an exam ... It HAPPENED. Today ...

*sigh* half an hour late for my test. I was meant to wake up at 5 to finish up my revision. I set the alarm at 5am, 6am, 7am. And I failed to wake up. No, I did not snooze at all. It automatically snooze and I didn't hear anything at all. At 8.45, I woke up automatically. I still had time to think if i'm in a dream or not. Hoping it's tuesday and not wednesday. Till I whack myself real hard, looked at my watch and it says Wednesday, 8.45 .... I realized.. shit, i'm late! Test started at 8.30am! I didn't finish studying everything. I wanted to this morning. And now, I'm late!

Put on my hoodies, grabbed my pencil case and rushed to uni. Arrived at 9am. I had extra time to do my test, the lecturer was nice. When I was talking to her at the start she even asked if I need some time to calm down. But I had no use for that extra time as I didn't know how to answer them. The panic attack this morning made me forgotten everything. My mind wasn't at ease at all.

It's 30% worth. I have to pass all internals to pass the paper. Ohhh shucks!! This is the worst nightmare that ever came true.... for me. All I can blame for is myself. Me and only me. So ashame of myself. Can't believe it actually happened. I never ever thought it would happen to me. Sure I dreamt of it but my dreams never come true. Of all dreams, this one had to come true. Need to change ringtone and get rid of the habit of snoozing! If it were to be 10% or 15%, then not too bad la... but 30% ... *sigh*

I wonder what my next alarm tone should be ...