And so who cares about the 22 million lotto I did not win last Saturday? (yea... i really wanted to get that car with diamond encrusted rims...but i'll just stick to my aim of a toyota corolla now....)
Watching the All Blacks winning the world cup triumphs everything :)
Read my other half's post . So well-written. Made me relive the moment all over again. As you can tell, I am too lazy to blog about it. Don't know what's wrong with me these days, not in the mood to type out a long post.
And so, I will leave you with this video.... makes me feel proud to call myself a 'kiwi' when people ask me where I'm from. Hehehe :p
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Saturday, October 22, 2011
22 million saturday lotto yo!!
Worked 11 hours today.... 8am - 7 pm... Newest record... Saving up for a car... Seriously, it takes me 45 min max to get to work with a car. With my own two feet and train, it takes me 1.5 hour. And hence, I am now really considering getting one.
On another note, bought my first lotto ticket ever! How exciting! Well, I chipped in $1. The jackpot is 22 million this Saturday. Everyone in the physio department put in $1 to get a ticket. Our chances are like so minute but heck... $1 for the thrill of it ... I think it's already pretty worth it. All of us are talking about how we're gonna spend our 2 million or so each. hahaha! Dream dream dream... buy a house la.. go on a massive holiday la... and best ever.. the whole department resigns!!!!! Bwahahahahhahaha!!! I won't need to get a car anymore.... I'll probably just quit my job so I don't really need one!!
Now wish me luck! Wahahahahahahahaha!!!
On another note, bought my first lotto ticket ever! How exciting! Well, I chipped in $1. The jackpot is 22 million this Saturday. Everyone in the physio department put in $1 to get a ticket. Our chances are like so minute but heck... $1 for the thrill of it ... I think it's already pretty worth it. All of us are talking about how we're gonna spend our 2 million or so each. hahaha! Dream dream dream... buy a house la.. go on a massive holiday la... and best ever.. the whole department resigns!!!!! Bwahahahahhahaha!!! I won't need to get a car anymore.... I'll probably just quit my job so I don't really need one!!
Now wish me luck! Wahahahahahahahaha!!!
Friday, October 07, 2011
am i boring
Weekdays: Work, eat, tv, sleep
Weekends: Eat, Tv, Sleep, Dragonboat
Such is my life now...
Monday, October 03, 2011
Just even the slightest thought...
... can make me feel suffocated ... like i can't breathe.. and a stabbing pain to my chest...
And it's just a thought, not even an action.
And it's just a thought, not even an action.
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Blackmores Half Marathon 2011 - 18 Sept 2011
It was exactly one year since my last half marathon. A year ago, I ran the exact event and completed it in 1 hour 59 mins, 27 secs. It involved a lot of rest stops and I was on the urge of giving up after the first 10km. My pace for the first 10 was pretty darn good but then slowed down by a lot simply because I got bored and I have had enough. I told myself, no more half marathons.
"And after this race, I think I'm just sticking to shorter 10km runs and target for a sub 50 for now. No more half marathons till I get a new pair of shoes that doesn't give me blisters. And more importantly, till I am mentally stronger and able to drag myself out of the house, put on a shoes and make running as my daily routine. When that time comes, then maybe I will do another half marathon. The thought of doing a full marathon will have to wait." - from last year's post
So, why did I decide to run this half marathon this year? No, I still have not reached my sub50 target for a 10km. But yes, I got a new pair of shoes and it doesn't give me blisters. I felt that I am mentally stronger and able to overcome the boredom of long flat roads. I mentally prepared myself the night before, telling myself I know the route, I know where I'm gonna get bored and I shall not let that get to me. I have my RunKeeper now, which is a pretty darn good app that have accompanied me this year throughout all my runs. It's gonna be different. I am gonna make it.
And on the top side, work paid for my entry fees. So, why not right? Lol!
And I was way more disciplined this year round. I sort of started training in June. The aim was to do it under 1 hour 55 mins. There's this website called marathonguru.com.au and I tried to follow the training program. It was pretty much train 5 days, rest 2 days of the week. But obviously I did not stick to it. Mine was more like train 2 days, rest 5 days. But still, it was better than last year. On the website, it even update my estimated finish time everyday after I enter my workout summary. I had an estimated time of 1 hour 45 mins! Yea right... i'd be happy with 1 hour 50 mins man.....
I think this was the most prepared race I have ever been. Training went well. I peaked at the end of August. Even managed to taper in the last few weeks before the race. Before this, there was no such thing as tapering to me. It has always been the 'just going to wing it' attitude. But no, not this time. I tapered. I carbo loaded. I slept early. I felt so ready man.
On the morning of September 18, I woke up and I had the "Yeaa!! this is gonna be my day!" feeling. 1 hour 55 mins here I come!!
Got to the start and had to go to the loo. By the time I took a dump, the race has started. But it didn't bother me seeing that we all have timing tag and the time starts only when we cross the start line. After I crossed the starting line, I was like.. damn!! Had to run pass all these people in front of me. They were going quite slow and I was just using my energy to dodge them. Rolled my ankle a few times but it wasn't too bad. I ran up and along the kerb because not many people ran on it and it was easier to run pass the crowd.
My pace was 4:33 for first km, 5:00 for the 2nd, 4:44 for the 3rd. I felt good and I knew I won't be able to keep this up for long but the plan was to maintain this pace for as long as I can and then do a nice relaxed pace after for the rest of the race. Ran across the harbour bridge and pass the 3km mark, I was running on top of the kerb and we had to U-turn. So I got down the kerb to make the U-turn and then....... Snapped! Couldn't really stand up and I had to sit down. I was on the urge of pulling out but then all these thoughts.... the effort I put in the last few months... this can't be happening to me. So I told myself.... don't be a wuss, just move on! So I got up, and off I go.
Could tell that I really slowed down looking at my RunKeeper profile (this app is super amazing i tell you!). 6:08 for the 4th km. Lol!! Tried to speed up but couldn't maintain my pace for long. Especially when running through the botanical garden. Up and down, up and down. Tried to ignore the pain in my feet. Wanted to run landing on the balls of my foot but because of the ankle instability, it was difficult. So I had to just run landing on my heel. My cousin woke up early and met me around the 8-9km mark to snap some photos and cheered me on after I ran out of the Botanical Gardens. Felt so energetic after that and it was nice having a cool breeze coming through as we ran through Phillip Street which was surrounded by tall buildings. It was shady and cool.
I picked up speed after the 10km mark as it was cooling and it was downhill to Circular Quay and the Rocks. I knew what was coming ahead of me. The Hungry Mile aka Hickson Road. That long stretch of unshaded, flat road somewhere around the 13km. I thought if I speed up whilst I can, I can relax a little during the gruesome boring road and take my mind off the km markers and just try to enjoy myself.
But.... after the 13km mark.... music stopped playing. I looked at my phone and....... it shut down! Great.. just great. It happened once before during my training runs when I ran under the flyover to fish market. No idea why it happens but *sigh*. Apparently when there's no reception, it shuts down. But why does it have to happen during my race??? It never happened when I ran along Hickson Road during my trainings. Why why? so I pulled aside to turn the phone on, turned on the music and tried to restart RunKeeper. Music played but RunKeeper failed. It hanged. Spent like a minute or so trying to get RunKeeper going but the pain in my feet was throbbing and got worst the longer I stay still. And so, I had to just keep running without RunKeeper. I was silly enough not to wear my watch and so I had no idea what my pace was. Frustrated, I just had to keep going.
It felt like deja vu from last year. I tried to take my mind off the heat, the pain and calculating the distance I have to go. I tried to imagine I was just on my normal training run, imagine I was running along the waters. I stopped at every drinking station to grab water. I saw quite a few runners who stopped because of over-heating or dehydration. I tried to spot every camera man and smiled at it just to distract myself from everything. Came the last 2 km near the Opera House, the plan was to speed up. I tried but my feet wouldn't let me. The mind wants to but the feet simply just couldn't. The bigger the steps I took, the more pressure I was putting on my foot, the more pain I could feel. I think I only sprinted towards the last 50m and I waved frantically as I ran pass the finishing line. Simply delighted that I finally made it. Had no idea what my time was but I didn't really care then.
Once I passed the finishing line, I stopped and I felt like I couldn't walk anymore. I looked down at my foot and OMG! It was so swollen. Could hardly put any weight on it. Took me awhile to walk to the first aid station to get some ice and bandage. Didn't help with it being up slope at the botanical gardens. Wrapped it up and iced it whilst sitting under the hot sun. Sat out on the grass for more than an hour before I decided to collect my baggage. The walk to the baggage collection area was the most painful walk I ever done. It would have taken a normal person 5-10 mins to reach there but I took almost half an hour to get there. People from the 9km bridge run started coming in and walked pass me (their race started at 9) to collect their baggage. It was quite embarrassing to have everyone staring at me as they walked pass me. They must be wondering how the heck I got my ankle like that in the first place. They were all shaking their head and at the same time, saying "well done" and all I could do was to nod my head and said "thanks".
After collecting my stuff, I hopped my way up to the recovery area whilst waiting for my cousin to get me. No way was I able to walk back. Got my free massage but it didn't feel as good as last year as my muscles weren't as sore this time round. It was either because I warmed up well in the morning and I'm super awesome or... the pain in my ankle was masking the soreness of my muscles. I'd like to think it was the former :p haha!!
Came home, showered and then it was all RICE RICE RICE! Cousin was so nice to cook me a good lunch - smoked salmon with turkish bread + scrambled eggs + garlic mushrooms + roasted tomatoes. Yummy!!!
Checked my time online and I completed the run in 1 hour 59 min 47 secs at a 5:40 pace. Quite gutted because I didn't meet my target time. My longest training run (16km) averaged at 5:19 pace. I was aiming for a 5:28 pace at least. All the effort training the past few months just did not paid off. I was planning to do a full marathon provided I meet my target. But because of the unfortunate incident at the start, I failed. Sure, there's all the "if only". If only I didn't injure my ankle ... If only the weather was cooler.... If only I think of myself as more awesome and signed up for the A start group instead of B ... (you see, A start group starts earlier and start at the front instead of the back) ... then I need not dodge all the people in front of me ... then I need not run on the kerb... then I wouldn't have....... Ohhhh well.. we all learn from our mistakes yah? I'm all to blame for running up that kerb.
In case you're interested, ankle is not too well. Dr. sent me for an Xray worrying it might have been an avulsion fracture because of the massive bruising. But you can't tell a fracture in an Xray with all the initial swelling. So no idea if I had a fracture still. I really doubt it's a fracture as I was able to weight bear after the injury. I freaking ran 18km! Unless I didn't initially fracture it... probably tore the ligament initially and then with all the running after, the bone might have been chipped off by the strong deltoid ligament. Have been on bed rest since Monday and given MC for a week. I'm dying of boredom. In a way, I regret running another 18km after rolling my ankle. But in away, I do feel pretty awesome for still completing the race. Call me silly but I blame the endorphins and adrenaline. (btw, parents do not know about this. not planning to tell them as i do not want them to worry or get scolded. but if they do read this... sorry mum and dad!!! i will not do such stupid thing again)
At least I came out of this race stronger and more determined. I am pretty proud of my preparation leading up to this race. I was more disciplined. It was difficult to wake up on Saturday mornings to run or Sunday mornings before dragon boat. Nor was it easy to run at 7pm after a long day of work. But I did it. Gotta actually thank RunKeeper. Seriously, it's like my running buddy. I enjoyed training with it. Screw the finishing time. Screw the ankle. I am going to do one more half marathon next year. And then a full marathon. That's the plan. A full marathon before I turn 25!!
And here's 2 videos of me before and after the finishing line (look out for the crazy woman in a strikingly green top waving her arms frantically. That's me!)
Before Finishing line
After finishing line
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| Just keep going.. just keep going... |
Once I passed the finishing line, I stopped and I felt like I couldn't walk anymore. I looked down at my foot and OMG! It was so swollen. Could hardly put any weight on it. Took me awhile to walk to the first aid station to get some ice and bandage. Didn't help with it being up slope at the botanical gardens. Wrapped it up and iced it whilst sitting under the hot sun. Sat out on the grass for more than an hour before I decided to collect my baggage. The walk to the baggage collection area was the most painful walk I ever done. It would have taken a normal person 5-10 mins to reach there but I took almost half an hour to get there. People from the 9km bridge run started coming in and walked pass me (their race started at 9) to collect their baggage. It was quite embarrassing to have everyone staring at me as they walked pass me. They must be wondering how the heck I got my ankle like that in the first place. They were all shaking their head and at the same time, saying "well done" and all I could do was to nod my head and said "thanks".
After collecting my stuff, I hopped my way up to the recovery area whilst waiting for my cousin to get me. No way was I able to walk back. Got my free massage but it didn't feel as good as last year as my muscles weren't as sore this time round. It was either because I warmed up well in the morning and I'm super awesome or... the pain in my ankle was masking the soreness of my muscles. I'd like to think it was the former :p haha!!
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| Rock On!! |
Checked my time online and I completed the run in 1 hour 59 min 47 secs at a 5:40 pace. Quite gutted because I didn't meet my target time. My longest training run (16km) averaged at 5:19 pace. I was aiming for a 5:28 pace at least. All the effort training the past few months just did not paid off. I was planning to do a full marathon provided I meet my target. But because of the unfortunate incident at the start, I failed. Sure, there's all the "if only". If only I didn't injure my ankle ... If only the weather was cooler.... If only I think of myself as more awesome and signed up for the A start group instead of B ... (you see, A start group starts earlier and start at the front instead of the back) ... then I need not dodge all the people in front of me ... then I need not run on the kerb... then I wouldn't have....... Ohhhh well.. we all learn from our mistakes yah? I'm all to blame for running up that kerb.
In case you're interested, ankle is not too well. Dr. sent me for an Xray worrying it might have been an avulsion fracture because of the massive bruising. But you can't tell a fracture in an Xray with all the initial swelling. So no idea if I had a fracture still. I really doubt it's a fracture as I was able to weight bear after the injury. I freaking ran 18km! Unless I didn't initially fracture it... probably tore the ligament initially and then with all the running after, the bone might have been chipped off by the strong deltoid ligament. Have been on bed rest since Monday and given MC for a week. I'm dying of boredom. In a way, I regret running another 18km after rolling my ankle. But in away, I do feel pretty awesome for still completing the race. Call me silly but I blame the endorphins and adrenaline. (btw, parents do not know about this. not planning to tell them as i do not want them to worry or get scolded. but if they do read this... sorry mum and dad!!! i will not do such stupid thing again)
At least I came out of this race stronger and more determined. I am pretty proud of my preparation leading up to this race. I was more disciplined. It was difficult to wake up on Saturday mornings to run or Sunday mornings before dragon boat. Nor was it easy to run at 7pm after a long day of work. But I did it. Gotta actually thank RunKeeper. Seriously, it's like my running buddy. I enjoyed training with it. Screw the finishing time. Screw the ankle. I am going to do one more half marathon next year. And then a full marathon. That's the plan. A full marathon before I turn 25!!
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| Finally!!!! |
Before Finishing line
After finishing line
Monday, September 19, 2011
HER day
Ok, this is one day late. I'm so ashamed of myself. But this has to be done. Better late than never. Minta maaf ya, separuh saya.
23 years and 1 day ago, this gorgeous baby stepped into this world.
Sorry, I couldn't find any baby photo of you. This is the youngest one of you that I could find on facebook!
Isn't she sooooooooooooo cute??? LOL!! Even that smile look so innocent. She has always been innocent since young. Innocent and... gullible. Ekekekeke....
I have to admit, I am a bit speechless this year. Not knowing what to say because it will be pretty much like a repetition from last year's post or the year before and so on. Because my feelings for her have never changed (ok, this sounds a bit wrong. lol!). Because she has always been there for me... every year, no matter the distance. Her support, her encouragement, her motivation talk, and most of all, her ears (ok, more like eyes) to listen to my rants (more like..reading them...hahaha!!)
Every year, I am just reminded how blessed I am to have this chic here who calls me her other half. There was a point in my life where I was a non-believer in the existence of best friends/friends forever kinda stuff. I used to believe there's such thing that exist when I was like 12/13 but after seeing what distance can do to friendships, I sort of stopped believing in them. Truth to be told, when I left NZ for Sydney, I actually thought.... Right, here it goes again. Farewell to another friendship. But, I was proven wrong. What we had only grew stronger and tighter from then on. Years after years, emails after emails, I find that we are able to share more of our thoughts and secrets easier with each other. Don't you think so, MOH? Hehehe... Not forgetting, making plans for the many years to come. Our DREAMS. Hahahahaha!!!
This post is going nowhere. I feel that it's like one of our emails, no structure. But you know what.. I don't care. Because my other half accepts me for who I am. Bwahahahahahhaa!!!!!!
And so.....
Thanks for being crazy with me :D
And also for being there for me all the time when I need you. All the best for the rest of the year and the years to come. Good luck in your exams in November!!! We'll party hard after that when I see you!! Jacob and Edward date .... and then...... Chocolate boutique!! I just thought of that. That shall be your second present from me. Hahahaha!!!!!
Me heart you long time.. long long time <3
Mwahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!
23 years and 1 day ago, this gorgeous baby stepped into this world.
Sorry, I couldn't find any baby photo of you. This is the youngest one of you that I could find on facebook!
Isn't she sooooooooooooo cute??? LOL!! Even that smile look so innocent. She has always been innocent since young. Innocent and... gullible. Ekekekeke....
I have to admit, I am a bit speechless this year. Not knowing what to say because it will be pretty much like a repetition from last year's post or the year before and so on. Because my feelings for her have never changed (ok, this sounds a bit wrong. lol!). Because she has always been there for me... every year, no matter the distance. Her support, her encouragement, her motivation talk, and most of all, her ears (ok, more like eyes) to listen to my rants (more like..reading them...hahaha!!)
Every year, I am just reminded how blessed I am to have this chic here who calls me her other half. There was a point in my life where I was a non-believer in the existence of best friends/friends forever kinda stuff. I used to believe there's such thing that exist when I was like 12/13 but after seeing what distance can do to friendships, I sort of stopped believing in them. Truth to be told, when I left NZ for Sydney, I actually thought.... Right, here it goes again. Farewell to another friendship. But, I was proven wrong. What we had only grew stronger and tighter from then on. Years after years, emails after emails, I find that we are able to share more of our thoughts and secrets easier with each other. Don't you think so, MOH? Hehehe... Not forgetting, making plans for the many years to come. Our DREAMS. Hahahahaha!!!
This post is going nowhere. I feel that it's like one of our emails, no structure. But you know what.. I don't care. Because my other half accepts me for who I am. Bwahahahahahhaa!!!!!!
And so.....
Happy 23rd Birthday My AWESOME, ONE and ONLY,
Other Half!!
And also for being there for me all the time when I need you. All the best for the rest of the year and the years to come. Good luck in your exams in November!!! We'll party hard after that when I see you!! Jacob and Edward date .... and then...... Chocolate boutique!! I just thought of that. That shall be your second present from me. Hahahaha!!!!!
Me heart you long time.. long long time <3
Mwahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, September 08, 2011
Ka-Chingggggg$$$$$
Finally got paid :) :)
4.5 hours of that.... obviously i wasn't really doing a good job.. he could still smile when I was attempting an ITB release... well, it's difficult to do it over Skins! anyhuuuuzzzzzzzzzz.............
600 bucks richer :) heeeheeeee :D :D
4.5 hours of that.... obviously i wasn't really doing a good job.. he could still smile when I was attempting an ITB release... well, it's difficult to do it over Skins! anyhuuuuzzzzzzzzzz.............
600 bucks richer :) heeeheeeee :D :D
Sunday, August 28, 2011
3 years
Today, marks the 3rd year.
And it's been 9 months since I last saw him.
To be honest, it just felt like any other ordinary day. The thoughts that were building up in me the last few weeks were all questions.
Is the flame still burning? Doesn't really feel like it.
Is there even any sparks? It's really questionable.
Who knows what will happen next year huh?
Maybe we're better off if we............... nevermind...... *sigh*
And it's been 9 months since I last saw him.
To be honest, it just felt like any other ordinary day. The thoughts that were building up in me the last few weeks were all questions.
Is the flame still burning? Doesn't really feel like it.
Is there even any sparks? It's really questionable.
Who knows what will happen next year huh?
Maybe we're better off if we............... nevermind...... *sigh*
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
9:28 p.m. sydney time
and i'm going to bed.
Good night!! *yawns*
On a side note, 1.58kg bag of Reeses Peanut Butter cups was in the gym today. Any food in the gym = physio's consumption. Yummehhhh!!!! My eyes were so big it almost popped out....
Good night!! *yawns*
On a side note, 1.58kg bag of Reeses Peanut Butter cups was in the gym today. Any food in the gym = physio's consumption. Yummehhhh!!!! My eyes were so big it almost popped out....
Thursday, August 18, 2011
After 7 months...
Can't believe I've been in Sydney for 7 months straight. It's the longest I've been here. And for the record, I've been away from Auckland for more than a year now. WOW!!! Been looking forward to this weekend a lot. Sure, I would have been more excited if it was to fly to Auckland but this is gna be awesome too. Flights were so cheap, $97 one way. MUST buy! Ok, my cousin actually bought it for me and say no excuse, I have to go with her. haha!!! So yea.. as much as I enjoy my work, I really needed this break.
I am finally getting a break to get out of Sydney and off to Perth for a weekend to spend with my cousins, their kids, and my 3rd aunty. Excited!! The last time I went to Perth was when I was just a lil 10 year old. Now my cousin's daughter is 11! hahahaha!
Things to do in Perth?
- Visit and stay with aunty and cousins
- Meet up with Pearl - swimming friend back in the days....
- Squeeze in a run... hopefully by the beach, that'd be awesome!!!!
- Sleep ins!!!!!!!
- Shopping maybe? hehehe.. it is afterall... PAY week!!!!
:D :D
I am finally getting a break to get out of Sydney and off to Perth for a weekend to spend with my cousins, their kids, and my 3rd aunty. Excited!! The last time I went to Perth was when I was just a lil 10 year old. Now my cousin's daughter is 11! hahahaha!
Things to do in Perth?
- Visit and stay with aunty and cousins
- Meet up with Pearl - swimming friend back in the days....
- Squeeze in a run... hopefully by the beach, that'd be awesome!!!!
- Sleep ins!!!!!!!
- Shopping maybe? hehehe.. it is afterall... PAY week!!!!
:D :D
Saturday, August 13, 2011
Live life to the fullest (2)
So my patient with relapsing-remitting multiple sclerosis is going home on Monday. Had her for the past 3 weeks.
And gosh! she got me thinking about how I want to live my life.... She's 42 and was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis when she was about 30. At such young age, she have already travelled the world, ran up every stairs she came across in Italy, walked the streets of Nepal, climbed Mt. Everest (i think that's like just the base, not to the top) and Machu Picchu... and other mountains I am not familiar with.... Went to the Bahamas ... Went to South Africa and let the locals take her and her sibling out for a night of fun and party not knowing the dangers being a naive 21 year old..... coming back safe and sound but with mum yelling like crazy.... all of these not knowing what was gonna hit her.
She definitely have live life to the fullest at such a young age. And luckily she did before she got diagnosed with MS. She told me how she was glad she did all of these before 'this' all happen. 'This' being the worst attack ever. Now she have no regrets at all. She's seen the world and is contented.
With relapsing-remitting MS, you never know when it will strike you again even after your first attack. The relapses are very unpredictable and is followed by months to years of quiet remission .... without you knowing, WHAM! it can strike again just like that. Many things can happen after an attack. You could lose the sensation in your hands, your feet, you'd get muscle weakness or spasms, an increase in muscle tone, you could develop double vision, you could lose your co-ordination and balance, and can come down to difficulty in initiating a movement. You could pretty much.... not be able to walk despite how hard you try.... And you have to start all over again. Like... Learning to walk....
With this type of MS, you can usually recover fully but some deficits will remain. For example, this lady of mine have loss the sensation and proprioception in her feet. She can't really feel the ground, doesn't really know that she's on the ground till she looks down. She can be stepping on someone's feet and not knowing that she's doing that till she looks. And this is bad because if you can't detect the different surface types, you'd easily lose your balance.
Ok, enough about me explaining what multiple sclerosis is. There's many different types. Google it if you're interested. Google will do a way better job than me explaining this.
Anyway, it has been an eye opener working with this patient aka my 'star pupil' as she puts it. Always so motivated, I usually have to ask her to stop her exercise and not overdo it. It is usually the opposite where I have to ask my other patients to keep going! It was so good to have her sitting next to my other patients in the gym as she motivates them and tell them.. it works! The exercises works! My patients would listen to her and start doing their exercises. I am gonna miss her for that!!!
I really enjoyed my time treating her. I'd take her for walks and she would tell me her travel stories and she would narrate as we walk along the ward. "So here we are in Rome... on your left, you could see the fountain of love...." And when I took her to climb stairs, she'd imagine it's Mt.Everest. My day was never dull I tell you.
I've learnt a lot. Not only how to really find the deficits and treat them specifically. But also... a better idea on how I should live my life. Which is really.... not to hold back and live it to the fullest. Enjoy and make the most out of it. Don't save it for next time before it's too late. You never know what's ahead of you. In her case, being diagnosed with MS. But yea... anything can just be around the corner waiting for you. *touch wood* nothing bad will happen to me ... i'm just saying.... you just never know..... Definitely going to miss her presence. Yes I've admitted and treated many other patients, but I have never felt so satisfied this time. I guess it's more satisfying with neuro patients compared to orthopaedic. Because it's more challenging. Seeing the changes happening slowly but surely. Today was just THE BEST surprise.. not only to her... but to me. She came in, completed 75m during a 6 min walk test with a rollator frame. And this morning, she completed 160m with walking sticks. Double the distance! Test not completely standardized because doctors were walking up and down the corridors this morning doing their ward rounds and hence the distraction. She would have done better. But I'm over the moon with 160m! Wooot woooot!!!!!!
And so... to my other half, Ah Swan, our 25 year old plan will definitely have to go in plan! No backing out. We have to do it. And so is our 30 year old plan..... Hahaha! As long as we complete all those, I'd be contented. Haha!!
And gosh! she got me thinking about how I want to live my life.... She's 42 and was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis when she was about 30. At such young age, she have already travelled the world, ran up every stairs she came across in Italy, walked the streets of Nepal, climbed Mt. Everest (i think that's like just the base, not to the top) and Machu Picchu... and other mountains I am not familiar with.... Went to the Bahamas ... Went to South Africa and let the locals take her and her sibling out for a night of fun and party not knowing the dangers being a naive 21 year old..... coming back safe and sound but with mum yelling like crazy.... all of these not knowing what was gonna hit her.
She definitely have live life to the fullest at such a young age. And luckily she did before she got diagnosed with MS. She told me how she was glad she did all of these before 'this' all happen. 'This' being the worst attack ever. Now she have no regrets at all. She's seen the world and is contented.
With relapsing-remitting MS, you never know when it will strike you again even after your first attack. The relapses are very unpredictable and is followed by months to years of quiet remission .... without you knowing, WHAM! it can strike again just like that. Many things can happen after an attack. You could lose the sensation in your hands, your feet, you'd get muscle weakness or spasms, an increase in muscle tone, you could develop double vision, you could lose your co-ordination and balance, and can come down to difficulty in initiating a movement. You could pretty much.... not be able to walk despite how hard you try.... And you have to start all over again. Like... Learning to walk....
With this type of MS, you can usually recover fully but some deficits will remain. For example, this lady of mine have loss the sensation and proprioception in her feet. She can't really feel the ground, doesn't really know that she's on the ground till she looks down. She can be stepping on someone's feet and not knowing that she's doing that till she looks. And this is bad because if you can't detect the different surface types, you'd easily lose your balance.
Ok, enough about me explaining what multiple sclerosis is. There's many different types. Google it if you're interested. Google will do a way better job than me explaining this.
Anyway, it has been an eye opener working with this patient aka my 'star pupil' as she puts it. Always so motivated, I usually have to ask her to stop her exercise and not overdo it. It is usually the opposite where I have to ask my other patients to keep going! It was so good to have her sitting next to my other patients in the gym as she motivates them and tell them.. it works! The exercises works! My patients would listen to her and start doing their exercises. I am gonna miss her for that!!!
I really enjoyed my time treating her. I'd take her for walks and she would tell me her travel stories and she would narrate as we walk along the ward. "So here we are in Rome... on your left, you could see the fountain of love...." And when I took her to climb stairs, she'd imagine it's Mt.Everest. My day was never dull I tell you.
I've learnt a lot. Not only how to really find the deficits and treat them specifically. But also... a better idea on how I should live my life. Which is really.... not to hold back and live it to the fullest. Enjoy and make the most out of it. Don't save it for next time before it's too late. You never know what's ahead of you. In her case, being diagnosed with MS. But yea... anything can just be around the corner waiting for you. *touch wood* nothing bad will happen to me ... i'm just saying.... you just never know..... Definitely going to miss her presence. Yes I've admitted and treated many other patients, but I have never felt so satisfied this time. I guess it's more satisfying with neuro patients compared to orthopaedic. Because it's more challenging. Seeing the changes happening slowly but surely. Today was just THE BEST surprise.. not only to her... but to me. She came in, completed 75m during a 6 min walk test with a rollator frame. And this morning, she completed 160m with walking sticks. Double the distance! Test not completely standardized because doctors were walking up and down the corridors this morning doing their ward rounds and hence the distraction. She would have done better. But I'm over the moon with 160m! Wooot woooot!!!!!!
And so... to my other half, Ah Swan, our 25 year old plan will definitely have to go in plan! No backing out. We have to do it. And so is our 30 year old plan..... Hahaha! As long as we complete all those, I'd be contented. Haha!!
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Saturday, August 06, 2011
Work's great!!!
Despite the run of difficult, demanding patients I have...
I gotta admit... work's still awesome!! Because praises from one or two patients can just make it all better again :)
I got a patient back on a walking stick in 3 weeks when last time, it took her 5 weeks to get back on it. She said I'm the best physio :) And I'm gorgeous and she wants to intro me to her hot cousin (i'm taking that as a compliment. lol!). And she gave me a box of mini cupcakes from The Cupcake Factory the other day (of course, I shared it).
And there's other patients who wants to matchmake me with their grandsons. Italian men... hmmnnnn.... hahahaha! should I consider? haha! just kidding!
Apart from that, I am very well fed at work. BBQ lunch for staff, pot luck lunch within the allied health department, kitchen staff treating all the staff do a cooked lunch...... ohh god!!! not forgetting the endless chocolates and lollies lying around the physio gym... one of the physio was given 3 boxes of ferero rocher by a patient of hers and it's now on the table for all to share!!!!
It's no wonder I have to keep up with my running!!!
Friday, August 05, 2011
Ballet Revolucion
I think I am one of those people who succumbs to TV ads.
If you think that video was impressive, wait till you watch the live performance. Totally mind-blowing. Took my cousin along with me as I have been wanting to treat her to something for quite awhile now. I felt like I was watching So You Think You Can Dance/Step Up live ....... but better! It was a combination of ballet, hip-hop and contemporary - the Cuban way. The sounds span from flamenco and Cuban Jazz to hits by artists such as Enrique Iglesias's Hero, Shakira's Hips Don't Lie, Ricky Martin's She Bangs, Beyonce's Single Ladies, Usher's DJ got us falling in love again, and my favourite, Cee Lo Green's Forget You, because of it's quirkiness and humour. Love it!!! Plus, they had a live band that was playing/singing all these songs and they were pretty good. I was a bit skeptical to buy tickets for the final show in Sydney as performance might lack energy and enthusiasm as the dancers have been performing for few nights in a row.
But my oh my was I wrong! The moment they came on stage, you could tell that they were full of energy and passion. Couldn't keep my eyes off the stage from the very start till the end. Didn't even wanna blink! I have to admit, I couldn't stop staring and the bodies of the male dancers quite a bit... when they had their shirts off. OMG! Hot hot hot!!!!!! nice chiselled bodies... the abs.... aHhhHHHHH!! *screams*
Love the way they ended the show. They 'ended' with a modern ballet dance to Prince's Purple Rain and everyone was calling for an encore. I'd be kinda disappointed if they had really ended it with a ballet and they did not fail to disappoint. They came out again (i'm sure it's all planned....) dancing to more modern hip hop songs, filled with even more buzz than ever. The audiences were all clapping to the beats while they were dancing and the live band did a great job to include the audience. There couldn't be a better closing than this I reckon'. Final show in Sydney - AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!
After two weeks, I am still buzzing!!!!
I spent AUD 186.40.... biggest spending ever for 2 hours of entertainment. No regrets :) (of course must have no regrets... it's 186 bucks man! lol!) The joy of earning money ---> spending it!!! We were waving spirit fingers ever since. Haha!!!
If you think that video was impressive, wait till you watch the live performance. Totally mind-blowing. Took my cousin along with me as I have been wanting to treat her to something for quite awhile now. I felt like I was watching So You Think You Can Dance/Step Up live ....... but better! It was a combination of ballet, hip-hop and contemporary - the Cuban way. The sounds span from flamenco and Cuban Jazz to hits by artists such as Enrique Iglesias's Hero, Shakira's Hips Don't Lie, Ricky Martin's She Bangs, Beyonce's Single Ladies, Usher's DJ got us falling in love again, and my favourite, Cee Lo Green's Forget You, because of it's quirkiness and humour. Love it!!! Plus, they had a live band that was playing/singing all these songs and they were pretty good. I was a bit skeptical to buy tickets for the final show in Sydney as performance might lack energy and enthusiasm as the dancers have been performing for few nights in a row.
But my oh my was I wrong! The moment they came on stage, you could tell that they were full of energy and passion. Couldn't keep my eyes off the stage from the very start till the end. Didn't even wanna blink! I have to admit, I couldn't stop staring and the bodies of the male dancers quite a bit... when they had their shirts off. OMG! Hot hot hot!!!!!! nice chiselled bodies... the abs.... aHhhHHHHH!! *screams*
Love the way they ended the show. They 'ended' with a modern ballet dance to Prince's Purple Rain and everyone was calling for an encore. I'd be kinda disappointed if they had really ended it with a ballet and they did not fail to disappoint. They came out again (i'm sure it's all planned....) dancing to more modern hip hop songs, filled with even more buzz than ever. The audiences were all clapping to the beats while they were dancing and the live band did a great job to include the audience. There couldn't be a better closing than this I reckon'. Final show in Sydney - AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!
After two weeks, I am still buzzing!!!!
I spent AUD 186.40.... biggest spending ever for 2 hours of entertainment. No regrets :) (of course must have no regrets... it's 186 bucks man! lol!) The joy of earning money ---> spending it!!! We were waving spirit fingers ever since. Haha!!!
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Full on weekend!
On Friday, my colleague asked me :" What do you have planned for the weekend?". I answered :"Nothing much. Just staying at home and laze on the couch."
And so I thought...
Decided I NEED to increase my running distance and hence woke up at 6.30 for my run. It was sunny. Did 13.5km. It was freaking cold the whole time - 7 degrees when I left the house, 7 degrees when I got back. I wanted to do 15km but it was just too cold and because I ran a slightly different route, I got tired quicker.
Got home, stretched a little, did some cleaning (by means of cleaning - it's laundry, tidy up my study table and make my bed), showered, and then... the cleaners came!! Weeeee! love it when the cleaners come. Yes people, we get the cleaners to do the rest. They clean the toilets, vacuum the apartment, clean the kitchen, mop the floor, wipe the tables and furnitures. Hehehehe.... spoilt much?
After the cleaners left, went into the city to meet Lucas for brunch as he just finished his night shift. Had har mee!!! What a good treat after my long run. Was meant to get my medical insurance done but realized it's too late by then so.... we went and grab taiwanese dessert after brunch. Went to woolies first to get some cream because it makes the dessert much better! hehehe.....
Got home, and napped. Woke up and had a slight headache and my normal routine began - couch potatoe-ing in front of the tele. Had scrambled eggs and bagels for dinner (because i'm just too lazy).
And this morning, woke up and went for dragon boat. Got home, cousin texted and joined her for dancing at the Sydney Dance Company! Our attempt to get one step closer to being part of Ballet Revolucion (will blog about this soon!)... yeaa right....... It was good as I really needed to stretch. I only enjoyed the stretching and warm up part. When it came to learning the steps and doing the dance... Ohhh god!!! I felt like a headless chicken running around. Too funny!!!!
Now I'm thinking whether I should go back to doing Yoga because my body is really sore with the running and dragon boating. I mean, I can do the stretches myself but doing it in a group is sooo much better. Ahhhh... but money.... money money..... perhaps I should go start looking for free trials! hahahaha!!
After dance, went to grab groceries. Traffic was surprisingly bad and hence, got home at 5.
And so.... that was my weekend. Pretty full on. So much for wanting to sleep in... working next Saturday. Wooooot!!!!!!!!!!!!
And so I thought...
Decided I NEED to increase my running distance and hence woke up at 6.30 for my run. It was sunny. Did 13.5km. It was freaking cold the whole time - 7 degrees when I left the house, 7 degrees when I got back. I wanted to do 15km but it was just too cold and because I ran a slightly different route, I got tired quicker.
Got home, stretched a little, did some cleaning (by means of cleaning - it's laundry, tidy up my study table and make my bed), showered, and then... the cleaners came!! Weeeee! love it when the cleaners come. Yes people, we get the cleaners to do the rest. They clean the toilets, vacuum the apartment, clean the kitchen, mop the floor, wipe the tables and furnitures. Hehehehe.... spoilt much?
After the cleaners left, went into the city to meet Lucas for brunch as he just finished his night shift. Had har mee!!! What a good treat after my long run. Was meant to get my medical insurance done but realized it's too late by then so.... we went and grab taiwanese dessert after brunch. Went to woolies first to get some cream because it makes the dessert much better! hehehe.....
Got home, and napped. Woke up and had a slight headache and my normal routine began - couch potatoe-ing in front of the tele. Had scrambled eggs and bagels for dinner (because i'm just too lazy).
And this morning, woke up and went for dragon boat. Got home, cousin texted and joined her for dancing at the Sydney Dance Company! Our attempt to get one step closer to being part of Ballet Revolucion (will blog about this soon!)... yeaa right....... It was good as I really needed to stretch. I only enjoyed the stretching and warm up part. When it came to learning the steps and doing the dance... Ohhh god!!! I felt like a headless chicken running around. Too funny!!!!
Now I'm thinking whether I should go back to doing Yoga because my body is really sore with the running and dragon boating. I mean, I can do the stretches myself but doing it in a group is sooo much better. Ahhhh... but money.... money money..... perhaps I should go start looking for free trials! hahahaha!!
After dance, went to grab groceries. Traffic was surprisingly bad and hence, got home at 5.
And so.... that was my weekend. Pretty full on. So much for wanting to sleep in... working next Saturday. Wooooot!!!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, July 18, 2011
Time flies!
You would think time can't go by any faster....
But..... It will!!!
Working next Saturday (23rd) ... so no sleep-ins if dragon boat is ON on sunday.
Doing nothing the following weekend... sleeping in!!! and dragon boat on sunday....
Working the weekend (6 aug) after that....
Working on a Sunday at City2Surf (14 aug) the weekend after.... and Shaleeni is coming to Sydney that weekend too!!!
And off to Perth the weekend (18 aug to 21 aug) after that!!!
:D :D :D
And then I will start appreciating my no plans weekends when I get back from Perth ....
But..... It will!!!
Working next Saturday (23rd) ... so no sleep-ins if dragon boat is ON on sunday.
Doing nothing the following weekend... sleeping in!!! and dragon boat on sunday....
Working the weekend (6 aug) after that....
Working on a Sunday at City2Surf (14 aug) the weekend after.... and Shaleeni is coming to Sydney that weekend too!!!
And off to Perth the weekend (18 aug to 21 aug) after that!!!
:D :D :D
And then I will start appreciating my no plans weekends when I get back from Perth ....
Saturday, July 16, 2011
Cis!!!!
I need to kick the habit of looking up at other flights a few days after I have bought mine....
Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!
Because now... I can't sleep :S WHyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy???????? why they always turn out to be cheaper than what i paid for???? why la why????? Ish Ish Ish!!!!!!
Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!
Because now... I can't sleep :S WHyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy???????? why they always turn out to be cheaper than what i paid for???? why la why????? Ish Ish Ish!!!!!!
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Msia... negaraku?
Me and Malaysia politics don't mix. Well, just politics in general actually. Recently, there's some issue called the Malaysia Solution. Something to do with Aussie and Msia swapping asylum seekers... Aussie take few thousands of msia's asylum seekers, and swap it for 800 asylum seekers.... or something like that. WTF right? Why would australia wanna do that? I didn't bother reading more. Put it simply, i am plain ignorant.
Despite being a proud Malaysian..... I think I know very little about what's going on.
I still remembered when I went down to Canberra to get my Malaysian police check and I was asked a few questions about Malaysia...
Him: Who is our current prime minister?
Me: *pauses, thinks in head... hmmn.. is it badawi? or wait.. he retired already... i think?* *mutters out* Najib?
Him: What's his full name?
Me: i don't know
Him: What is the rukun negara?
Me: *thinks in head.. wtf is that?* No idea.. I forgotten.
But I am still proud to be a Malaysian...
The past few weeks, there's a lot of people having the Bersih badges on facebook. Being the ignorant me, I did not bother to find out. Must be some sort of trend/awareness thing going on that I can't be bothered to know.
Then.... over the weekend... there were photos being posted on fb.... it looked like some riot going on in malaysia and yellow seems to be the colour....but then there were photos of very young people.. people around my age.. and they look decent... not those who would create trouble.... why they so free meh? go and get in trouble with the police and get shoot by water guns by the police? Nothing else to do??
Mum and dad who were back in malaysia for holiday emailed me and told me about the road close and how they were stuck in the traffic for hours! Ok.... must be something pretty big..... Then I saw similar photos of protesters wearing yellow.... in familiar places.... in Sydney. OMG! there's even protesters in Sydney? Isn't this a Malaysia thing? I still have no idea why it was in Sydney but hmmnn....
The amount I know now is still very minute. All I know is they are protesting for clean votes, no corruption or something like that. But I do not know how all those actions will change things. Hopefully it will? After all those things the people went through.... I wonder if the govt will have the heart to change things?
But really.. honestly.... I do not care. Perhaps it's because I am not there anymore. I don't see how the changes will affect me. It probably will a little seeing that the malaysians in sydney are protesting too? Hmmmn.... But as I said, I am just plain ignorant.
Then I saw this video. And then I wonder..... is the govt. that bad? Can't people solve things through a more civilized way anymore? I am shocked to see what Malaysia have become of. It saddens me to actually watch that video (no, not just because of the terrible english....lol!). Malaysia does not seem appealing to me anymore. Will all these lead to something good? Or will things get even worse and more out of hand? I think.. it's really 50-50.
I am still proud to be a Malaysian.. an ignorant one to all the happenings going on right now....but giving up my citizenship seems more appealing than before now... is there much use in it? I don't see any. I wouldn't want to be involved in whatever is going on .... even if it's for the better....
Despite being a proud Malaysian..... I think I know very little about what's going on.
I still remembered when I went down to Canberra to get my Malaysian police check and I was asked a few questions about Malaysia...
Him: Who is our current prime minister?
Me: *pauses, thinks in head... hmmn.. is it badawi? or wait.. he retired already... i think?* *mutters out* Najib?
Him: What's his full name?
Me: i don't know
Him: What is the rukun negara?
Me: *thinks in head.. wtf is that?* No idea.. I forgotten.
But I am still proud to be a Malaysian...
The past few weeks, there's a lot of people having the Bersih badges on facebook. Being the ignorant me, I did not bother to find out. Must be some sort of trend/awareness thing going on that I can't be bothered to know.
Then.... over the weekend... there were photos being posted on fb.... it looked like some riot going on in malaysia and yellow seems to be the colour....but then there were photos of very young people.. people around my age.. and they look decent... not those who would create trouble.... why they so free meh? go and get in trouble with the police and get shoot by water guns by the police? Nothing else to do??
Mum and dad who were back in malaysia for holiday emailed me and told me about the road close and how they were stuck in the traffic for hours! Ok.... must be something pretty big..... Then I saw similar photos of protesters wearing yellow.... in familiar places.... in Sydney. OMG! there's even protesters in Sydney? Isn't this a Malaysia thing? I still have no idea why it was in Sydney but hmmnn....
The amount I know now is still very minute. All I know is they are protesting for clean votes, no corruption or something like that. But I do not know how all those actions will change things. Hopefully it will? After all those things the people went through.... I wonder if the govt will have the heart to change things?
But really.. honestly.... I do not care. Perhaps it's because I am not there anymore. I don't see how the changes will affect me. It probably will a little seeing that the malaysians in sydney are protesting too? Hmmmn.... But as I said, I am just plain ignorant.
Then I saw this video. And then I wonder..... is the govt. that bad? Can't people solve things through a more civilized way anymore? I am shocked to see what Malaysia have become of. It saddens me to actually watch that video (no, not just because of the terrible english....lol!). Malaysia does not seem appealing to me anymore. Will all these lead to something good? Or will things get even worse and more out of hand? I think.. it's really 50-50.
I am still proud to be a Malaysian.. an ignorant one to all the happenings going on right now....but giving up my citizenship seems more appealing than before now... is there much use in it? I don't see any. I wouldn't want to be involved in whatever is going on .... even if it's for the better....
Friday, July 08, 2011
Note to self
I need to get more weekend work!
So I worked 4.5 hour on a Saturday and the amount I get is equivalent to working a normal 8 hour day. Plus I get $10 meal allowance.
Heeeheee :D
So I worked 4.5 hour on a Saturday and the amount I get is equivalent to working a normal 8 hour day. Plus I get $10 meal allowance.
Heeeheee :D
Thursday, June 30, 2011
Heh... I guess I must be pretty tired...
I woke up this morning and the sky was bright. I was thinking... ohh! It must be Saturday.. can sleep in...
Then I looked at my phone ... 7.43am... WEDNESDAY ......
WTF!!!!! I jumped out of my bed, pulled down my pants, took off my jumper... and stood there for like 10 seconds...... and then I started walking around my room like a headless chicken (or pant-less person in my case).....
calculating how long it will take me to get to work and how late I will be.... I'm gonna be like SUPER LATE
LOL! I'm still laughing at my initial reaction when I realized I'm definitely going to be late for a work. You see, I usually leave the house at 6.55am!!!
And so, I reached work at 9.15am instead of 8.30.... thank goodness for the time off in lieu policy and i've already stayed back late MANY times so I definitely have made up for it.. haha!!
I'm setting two alarms from now on!!!!
Then I looked at my phone ... 7.43am... WEDNESDAY ......
WTF!!!!! I jumped out of my bed, pulled down my pants, took off my jumper... and stood there for like 10 seconds...... and then I started walking around my room like a headless chicken (or pant-less person in my case).....
calculating how long it will take me to get to work and how late I will be.... I'm gonna be like SUPER LATE
LOL! I'm still laughing at my initial reaction when I realized I'm definitely going to be late for a work. You see, I usually leave the house at 6.55am!!!
And so, I reached work at 9.15am instead of 8.30.... thank goodness for the time off in lieu policy and i've already stayed back late MANY times so I definitely have made up for it.. haha!!
I'm setting two alarms from now on!!!!