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i was actually waiting till the end of this week to blog so i will have more stuff to say but well, screw that!! i'm so..... i dno...angry? sad? i dno.... i think more like sad.. the kind of sad when u lose something that have a sentimental value and u will never get it back....FOREVER!!!!! *sob* here's how it goes...
this evening after my shower, i decided to go check my emails before i study. turned on my laptop, everything was working fine. was signing onto msn and then suddenly, the power just turned off. well, i guess it was coz i tripped over the wire and the plug to the power got disconnected. no harm done, just have to turn the the power back on and i'm good to go. BUT... NO! when i turned it back on, it came to a screen saying that my files have been damaged or smth like that larrr... lots of words that's all i know. so i asked my brother to help me. he tried everything and said i have no choice, need to format my computer. the moment i heard FORMAT.. i was like..... NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! all my files gone!! i didn't back them up and he tried to recover them but couldn't coz couldn't even get windows xp to load. we tried REPAIR windows but also cannot. so, no choice but to format my computer. how can this happen? virus? don't think so coz i didn't download anything apart from team america from bittorrent and that was like a week ago. and there wasn't any annoying pop ups or anything weird going on. haihhh...so sad.... all my files.. gone!!
my music files- it's ok larr. .i can download them again from limewire, most likely to get virus but can back the files up and format the comp again.
tv series LOST and movies- can get them from shiun, still having his harddrive with me, hehe..
so it's ok.
book-marked sites- nvm larr.. can slowly search for them again
cambridge past papers where some of my money comes from there by printing them and selling them- ermm.. i shall find another way to get money.. i think i still hv the cd anyway.. hiding somewhere
ok, all those i'm fine with them being gone. i will have to download windows media player, divx player, real player, msn msgr and all those again but i'm used to doing that, so i'm fine with that lar....
now, here's the part where i'm sad.....
all my past assignments, essays written when i was in macleans.. all gone!! ok, u might be thinking, why the heck do i keep them? such a weirdo.. ok i am a weirdo but well, for memories sake.. u know, it's quite funny reading them over again... there was my 4th form science fair project and i find it really cute. plus i took a lot of time writting my essays, especially the english essays in 6th form. all the satire writings. ok larr.. not that bad i suppose, coz i have them somewhere in my blog i think. but i don't think i have the one i wrote on romance publish anywhere. it's quite dodgy but very funny. that essay made the whole class laughed and even the teacher. and i threw away the copy that i printed out. haihhhh....
now, here's the part where i'm really really sad, the kind of sad that i explained earlier on....
all my photos are gone!!! ALL of them!! i did not back them up... i have the ball photos on yahoo so i guess i can live with that eventho they're small... but but... all the family photos that we took since 2002 when we came to nz are gone!! all the travelling photos... all gone!!! i guess we can start going back to all those places again and take photos but.. it's different... *sigh* all the funny poses the whole family did, all the lovely brother and sister photos, mum and dad photos.... all gone... *hits self on head for deleting them from the harddrive*... what i have left wld be those in my geocities website... tiny tiny ones.... and then there's the childhood photos... that's not too bad i suppose coz i took them from the video my dad recorded when we were young and i still have the cd.. video better than pictures so that's alright.
then there's the college photos.. all the funny photos i took during the last term at macleans... we were just taking as much as we can coz it's our last year of college life and want to remember it. all the crazy poses we did and made ourselves looked psycho. those were photos that i treasured a lot. those were the photos where in 10 yrs time u look back at them and will just start cracking up. ok, i have a few of them in my msn space but they are small, i want the original huge ones!!!! omg!! and then there's the photos from my 18th bday!! those are gone too!!! and the photos i took during my trips back in msia....man!! those are precious!!!! the pictures i took during climbing mt.k! those are gone too!!!! NO!!! nvm lar.. that one can go climb again and take again..hehe... but but. 18th bday!!! i won't be 18 anymore.... bugger!!
and then there's the folder where all my files on my geocities website are stored at... i haven't been updating that website for ages...2 yrs already perhaps but every single time i format my computer, i always back them up as well tho i kno i won't touch them anymore....never have the heart to delete them.. guess it's coz it's like what kept me occupied during my first 2 yrs in nz where i'm seriously bored and hated nz so much!
well, i guess i have to learn to let go.. all i have now would just be memories in my head... not from photos anymore... at least not all is lost.. i still have them on my msn space, some at yahoo, some at geocities....it's not the best but i'm thankful that i still have some of them. i suppose sooner or later this day will come, the day where everything in ur precious laptop just can't be retrieved... happened to so many ppl i know, never thought it wld happen to me... and now i'm making such a big deal... typing such a long post.
maybe this year calls for some changes eh? since i leave college, i also have to leave those photos behind i suppose.... start a new chapter, a new collection... i'm still young, got so many more great events to capture... i learnt my lesson... at the end of every year, i shall burn the photos and files into a cd... that way, if this ever happened again, i'm all good!!!
ok, time to study for my practical test.. it's tmrw!! that was another reason why i planned not to blog till end of this week... so i won't waste time... my laptop really cannot use till end of this week also.. hehehe.. need to install so many programmes... grrrrrrrrr!!!!!
Smile and Be Happy!
Have a Great Week!!!
BYE!!!!!
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