we do need time

So many things to do....

2 assignments to be completed, 2 tests to be examined after this two weeks "break"... sort out t-shirts for bersatu games (I hv no idea what to do about it), writing proposal letter to request sponsorship for t-shirts from asb (I really think this shouldn't be my job, I hv no idea how to write one and I seriously don't want to go google right now and search for samples and learn), finalizing the bersatu squad, booking courts, worrying whether the numbers of players will exceed the max and what to do about it, trials for squash and athletics, finding a suitable field for athletics (found one today at Mt.Eden thanks to Shaun! but there's no marking on where to start for 200, 400m).....

And on top of that...... Today I found out that I've been nominated to go for an exchange programme to McGill University in Canada.... happy?
Not really.....Why? coz that means more things to do....

Need to enquire bout my visa application, complete application form for that uni, look out for flight tickets, look for accomodation over there, need to get another reference....

And no, it's not confirmed whether I'm going. Still have to wait for acceptance letter from McGill after I've handed in my application form....deadline-1st of May. *sigh* I don't feel like going anymore. So many things to do. So many things to find out. But when I think about it, after all the rushing and worrying I've gone through, all the research I had to do on that university, the constant nagging from my parents, after troubling henry to hand in my application forms back in january, after the nail-biting interview (my very first interview in my whole entire life ok!).... if i don't follow up, then all of these would just be wasted and i did this for nothing. i won't be able to say "at least i tried my best" if i don't get in. i would be the same ol' shermayne who just gives up when faced with a challenge that she can't be bothered going for it because she's scared, because she's uncertain on what the outcome may be. So yeahh.. i'm going to go ahead and follow up, do what should be done, and perhaps hope to get in as it is an opportunity of a lifetime not to be missed. And if I don't get accepted, at least tried my best :)

I agree with Swan on how it's all about time. "Just need time, to stop, to think, to understand, to take in what is happening around you and attend to them."-yingswan. I want more time, I need more time. I guess I have no more time for Heroes anymore until.............. this semester is over. *sigh*

You know what I need?
I need to go to the beach and clear my head. Or perhaps go and lie on the garden, stare at the stars till I fall asleep. Yes, I need that.

Good Night...