thoughts

Koko said....

man! by next week, you'll be gone. not gone for like one or two weeks. it's like you'll just disappear. disappear for 5 months. we've never been separated for so long. 5 months. that's nearly half a year. the youngest in the family and you're the first to be away for so long. it's like, you're just packing and moving out just like that to the other side of the world.

Yes, I'm starting to get scared. The thought of it is exciting. It's what I wanted. A challenge. Something different. Running away from reality, running away from responsibilities. But it's terrifying at the same time. Sometimes I wonder, is it really running away from reality or actually stepping into reality? Am I really running away from responsibilites or actually asking for more? I think it's the latter. RaWwrRrrRr!!!

One week. One week from now. One week from now I'll be leaving my family for 5 months. Never done that before. Something new. One week from now I'll be leaving a bunch of wonderful friends I met this and last year. Yes, I had that feeling before when I left malaysia 5 years back. If I recalled, it wasn't a pleasant feeling at all. *sigh* I'm ready la... I've done it, I can do it again! Plus, it's 5 months. I'll see them again. Well, most of them. As some will be going back to malaysia for good by the end of this year. *great big sigh*

Now I just wonder, will things be the same when I come back next year? I hope it will. Coz things aren't the same everytime I go back to Malaysia. Will just have to wait and see.

K, need my beauty sleep now. Bwahahahaha!! So looking forward to my dinner tonight. Guests list: 40 over ppl. Teeeheeeheeee :D