semester 2 starts tomorrow

Semester 2 starts tomorrow

After the Bersatu Games, the road trip ... I had one whole week of ME time. Well, not exactly one whole week as I had to help my parents with work and become a driver during ASIA games. For the rest of the time where I'm not occupied, I just lay down and think. Thinking of what's gonna happen next year.

It was only last night where I actually got hit in the head and was reminded that this will be the last semester of my undergrad degree! So fast! I'm done by the end of this semester. Though I'll still be a student, I'll no longer be an auckland university student. Heck! I might not even be a student in Auckland! No No No.... I actually do not want to end so fast. I wish I could stop time. Semester 1 went by so fast and I have a feeling semester 2 will go by pretty quick too.

I hate being in unfamiliar places, meeting new faces. I'm the kind of person who just enjoys being in her comfort zone, being familiar with everything around her. I dislike uncertainties. I want to feel secure all the time. But somehow, it seems like I'm always running into situations that keep on changing. 1st year of uni was all about stepping into a new environment and getting used to it. 2nd year of uni was about going into a whole new different country on the other side of the world and trying to fit in for 4 months. And now, 3rd year of uni is all about deciding my path next year and also moving out in the 2nd semester (more on that another day).

I want to be able to be confident in saying what I will be doing next year when people ask me about my plans. I don't want to just say "I might ...". I used to have a plan. A plan to pursue a degree in Physiotherapy at AUT for 3.5 years and still remaining in Auckland after graduating in Sports n Exercise Science. Sounds like a good plan. Being able to still be with all the friends I've made throughout the past few years. Not much changes. Just a different university. But just recently, a new option came up. Which is to head over to Sydney University and do a Masters in Physiotherapy for 2 years. Yes, I have that option now. This would mean stepping into a whole new different environment again, leaving the family, making new friends, leaving old friends. 2 years. Sure, australia is right next to nz. But still.... 2 years. That's quite a lot.

Haven't applied for Sydney Uni yet but will soon. As usual, procrastinating. Parents want me to opt for that choice. I finish faster (2 years instead of 3.5 years) and I get a Masters instead of another undergrad degree. If I'm accepted, would I go? Most likely I guess. Who wouldn't, right? Finish earlier, Masters, and get to go to Australia, gain new experience ... isn't that's what making the most out of my life while I'm still young all about?

Part of me wants to do postgrad just so that I can stay put in NZ and stop starting new chapters in life and make this chapter a longer one. Part of me wants to go to Sydney to pursue what I really want ... to be a physiotherapist ASAP and start earning money! Yes, I could go to AUT but that would take me 3.5 years and parents are more supportive with going to Sydney. Plus, Masters wei!! I always wanted to get a PHD just coz of the title but it seemed impossible as the years went by. So now, Masters will be the next best thing wei!!! *sigh* Choices... we just gotta make them eh?

Ohh wellzzz.... For now, I'm hoping to get accepted to Sydney Uni and I'll just have to cherish this last semester of mine and enjoy it to the fullest and make the most out of it. Just hope time slows down this semester for me so I can enjoy every single moment of it slowly. Pray for me please.

"... and just when you thought you found something after looking for so long, you have to part with it soon ..."

That's life huh?

Have a wonderful semester 2 people!! May it be much better than first semester!! Enjoy it to the fullest for those who's in the same boat with me. Last semester of your degree!!!!