(I started typing this up on the 1st of January and it took me 3 days to put 2009 into words and complete this. It is now the 3rd of Jan!!)
I've been staring at the screen for quite some time now and my mind is still blank. I've read all my new year's post dated since January 2006. That was when I started to reflect on my year. Previously, I had so much anticipation on writing this new year's post. There were so many things I wanted to say, there were so many things to reflect on. But now, for some reason, I don't know why, but I have this overwhelming feeling in me and I do not know why. It's like I have so many thoughts running wild but I do not know where to start and how to put them into words... too many that I'm now blanked out. I mean, it's just another year that came and went, right?
Despite how blank I am feeling right now, I am going to make sure I make a post because I enjoy reading my previous year's post and see what I've accomplished throughout the years and see how far I've gone, how I've grown, how I've changed.
A few weeks back, I was thinking it would be easy to blog about 2009. You know, just the usual things I've done, a recap of the year, my accomplishments and the challenges I faced. But just last week when I was dead bored at the gym, I read a few magazines and they were doing a celebrity recap of the noughties, i.e. 2000-2009, what happened, who hooked up with who, who broke up with who, who died, who became famous, the scandal of the noughties and so forth. It was then it strucked my mind then it is the end of a decade. It's not just the end of 2009, it's the end of a decade!! 10 years!!!! Do I just reflect on 2009 itself or the whole decade?
Has it really been 10 years? It felt so fast. When someone mentions to me 2000, it still felt like it wasn't too long ago, where we were welcoming the new millenium. To be honest, I don't remember how I welcomed the millenium, but I can still recall how I felt when we were heading towards the new millenium. I was 11 then going on 12. It was going to be THE year for me then. I was going to turn 12, it's gonna be MY year (dragon year... although I found out later that I'm not actually a dragon, I'm actually a rabbit.. pfftt!). The little me then felt like the whole world is going to be on my shoulders, you know, sitting for UPSR and all that. Aiming for straight A's, nothing but straight A's. That was all we were focusing at. The seniors of primary school, final year and then we graduate. I still remembered, we were all passing around autograph books, getting as many people as we can to write in that book. I didn't only have one but a few. haha!! It was like... you're not a cool kid if you didn't have an autograph book. Always wanted to be the big brothers and sisters of the school and was finally one then. Felt so great and everything, knowing very little of what the next 10 years is going to bring.
And 10 years down, WOW!! I did a quick reflection the other day after reading the magazines and that was when I got overwhelmed. 10 years... 10 years is a rather long time and a lot has been learnt, a lot has happened and a lot has changed. Perhaps it's also because that whole 10 years consisted of my teenage years, and that's the growing up stage, the dramas and what not.
In those 10 years, I came to New Zealand, went to Canada for exchange, and now, in Sydney. My life used to be evolved around swimming and taekwondo and along those 10 years, I stopped them and picked up sports I thought I would never have done. Team sports that brought me friends that I am so thankful to have. I used to despise running and who would have thought I'd enjoy it now. I overcame many challenges, learnt many life lessons. Boys slowly became my friends and stopped being my nemesis. There were crushes here and there, they came and went. Friendships were made, some didn't last long and became Hi-Bye friends, but best of all, I made friends that are gonna be friends for a lifetime. The type of friend that will enjoy with you but will also help you out in times of trouble.
I'd write a summary of every year from 2000-2009 that was significant to me but it would be too long seeing that this post is rather long already and I'm not even started with 2009. Just been blabbering so much because I still do not know how to start.
So... 2009. What about 2009 huh?
If I say 2009 was better than 2008, I'd be lying. But nevertheless, it is still a year I want to remember. I want to remember all my years because every single of one them are just as significant, just as important.
I was excited for coming over to Sydney. Staying with my cousin in a big city, no curfews, the anticipation of going to a new and more prestigious university, meeting new people and having a different lifestyle than back home. But at the same time, I was sad to leave home, leaving my friends and loved ones, afraid of what is ahead of me. I'm just gonna break everything up into parts again. The studies, the sports, social side and LDR.
Studies
Finally graduated from Sports and Exercise Science and am glad to have attended the graduation ceremony. But .... it didn't stop there....
Every year, it just gets harder and harder. Perhaps that's the whole point of studying, challenging the brain. Haha!! I have said this so many times but I'll say it again... Never in my life have I studied so hard before!!! Most weekends were spent at the library. And when come exams time, I'd locked myself in the library for the whole day, and once, it was 11 days straight at the library for at least 8 hours a day. I'd pack my lunch and dinner and snacks and bring it to the library. My weekdays start at 6 and usually get home around 7 or 8. I never fail to fall asleep in at least one lecture every week. Sometimes even more. I have never drank so much coffee in a year as well.
The mornings I drink my "moccolo" (milo plus moccona), I'd be awake the whole day. If not, the likelihood of me dozing off is very high. I was never ready for an exam. There was always more to know but not enough brain capacity. I was constantly studying the whole semester but still had to do last minute cramming. There was so much to learn, so much to know. I still have no idea how in the world I can be totally prepared for an exam. First time in my life I cried after an exam and before an exam. Hahaha!!
One thing that I am proud of was that I wasn't last minute for my assignments. I started them pretty early and I even completed one of them two weeks before its due date and the other a few days before it was due in. Hehehehe.....
But yeaa... all in all, academically, this year was the toughest and I am just glad the worst is over. I still have one more year to go as a student. I don't see myself studying in 2011 anymore. I just want to go out there and work. Next year will be a tad easier I hope. It's gonna be challenging during our clinical placements, it's gonna be stressful but I do hope I will have less late nights and less library days. This year is the last of 'real' exams. Yeaa... i do have exams next year but I don't call it real. There's only a pass or a fail during our clinical placements and we're examined on spot, not written exams. And second semester, it's back to uni studying but I heard with the exams, they will give you the questions in advance to prepare for them. So yea.. no more 'real' exams!! Woooohooo!!! (provided next year is the same concept as this year la!)
Sports
I completed my very first half marathon in February this year! Did it on the day I flew off to Sydney. Ended with huge blisters but a good sleep in the plane after that. A time of 2 hours 4 minutes and it was the last race running beside Ivan. The half marathon was rather brutal especially with the blister. I think I was sort of scarred by it that I dare not run another half marathon in Sydney.
Did two runs in Sydney and it was the first time running alone, without someone beside me and also managed a personal best for the year :) At least I achieved something. I know it's nothing big but I'd like to think I did achieve something every year. Be it huge or small. Hehehehe.. and so, that is what I've achieved and I shall syok sendiri and be proud of myself :p Hardly did any weekly runs on my own. I realized I need someone to run with orelse I won't be bothered running. Or maybe it was because I was so used to having Ivan running beside me last year that I am not used to running alone anymore. But yeaa... slowly getting better with that :)
Hope to do another half marathon next year, but first, I want to get a good pair of running shoes!!!
Netball isn't a sport I played much this year. Just a few in Sydney at the start of the year and then it stopped. Met some Malaysians and we do catch up once in awhile but not that close. I do miss netball. I do miss playing with the people back in Auckland. *sigh* I do miss playing indoor netball as well. So yeaa.. I'm not really active at all in sports this year. Studies took up majority of my time. But well.... I've walked heaps! At least 4kms everyday and the occasional 6 or 8km on days I feel like saving 90 cents or 1.80. That's how I lost weight. Haha!
At least there's a new sport to add to my list --> Diving!! Thanks to my brother and the huge christmas present in advance. A new thing I enjoyed doing and picked up over this summer. Looking forward to more dives next year and one day, I wanna go to Malaysia with my brother and dive!!! My brother calls me the lucky diver and scallop hunter.
First dive and I saw dolphins. Best thing ever!!! When I dove with him, we only used one cylinder tank each to pick over 50 scallops when our limit is only 40 in total. When he dove with his friend, they usually used two cylinder tanks each to reach 40 scallops and sometimes can't even find that much. And the other day, when I went to goat island with shaun, yin, jeremy and xin yi, we saw a stingray just by snorkelling when he haven't even seen one before. Hehehehehe..... I wonder what's next... a shark? Haha!!
Social side
At the beginning of the year, I went for THE ULTIMATE FISHING TRIP and no place other than Coromandel. My favourite place in NZ! It was my 4th time there and still loving it. Thanks to Audrey for organizing it :) Also, I turned 21 and had a party not like your typical go clubbing, go drinking 21st party. I had it the kiddy way and it was awesome!! Apart from my phone drowning :(
I mentioned before that I enjoy being with the friends I have already made few years back in uni. I don't enjoy socializing with strangers. But well.... being in a new country that I will be in for two years, having new coursemates... it has forced me to do so orelse I won't be able to make it through the year, through the course. I knew the importance of having your coursemates as your friends because we will be needing each other throughout. And well... I got lucky.
The bunch of friends I made were good and I am very thankful to have them. I do get intimidated by them at times as they're all so smart and the questions they ask are pretty tough. I do admit, it adds more stress on me but well, it forced me to study and don't fall behind by much.
And because I'm the youngest amongst them, they treat me like a little kid. So funny how everytime when we go to the bars, they make sure I'm safe and not get pushed around on the dance floor. When someone pushes me, they will push them away. Haha! And when I say I do not want to drink anymore, they won't force me to and they'll get water for me. Hahaha!!
Also, this is the year I went out the most. It's not a lot but still more than any other years. First semester, went to a bar for friend's birthday, then pubcrawl, then post mid-semester exam celebration, then pre-drinks for final semester party as I did not make it to the bars after pre-drinks because of the evil McD milkshake :p Second semester, we had another pubcrawl, another post mid-sem exam celebration and then the final year celebrations. And I gotta say, Uber Bar at Lowenbrau is still THEE BEST place!!!
Apart from coursemates, I managed to re-unite with long time swimming friends who are now based in Sydney as well as primary school friends so that was a bonus as well. There'll always be something to talk about because it has been years since we last met so there's a lot of catching up to do. If I feel like chocolate, I'd have someone to go with me.
Plus, I went to my very first, mind-blowing music gig. Ahhhhh!!!!!!!
And last of all, still keeping in touch with Auckland friends that I miss to bits!!! Everytime when I go back for my break, I always look forward to that. Seriously, nothing can beat the friends made in first and second year of uni laaa...... Thoroughly enjoyed the time when Swan and Ivan came to Sydney in November to travel around and see places with me. Apart from the dolphin highlight, their trip to Sydney is the other Highlight of 2009!
And that was why I chose to come back to Auckland for summer and not remain in Sydney. I'd be bored to death. Sure it was still boring as there's less people around but at least Christmas and New Year's were good with the oldies:) They never fail to make me laugh and never bore me out.
Family
Things that have to be learnt about this have been learnt back in Canada and I am still sticking to that. The importance of having them and how much they care for me. I am really appreciative of that and always will be. Mum always ask me to eat more when she emails or when I call her, and always ask me not to stinge on food. Dad always make sure I have enough money and brother will ask me not to stress too much. Whenever I receive an email from them, it always puts a smile on my face.
I'm lucky enough to be staying with my cousin and that made me closer to home and less home-sick. My cousin really took care of me despite her busy working schedule. She'd fetch me to the train station when it's raining and when I forgotten my umbrella. She always make sure I have enough food and made me eat healthier. I think this is the year where I ate the most vegetables thanks to her.
Also, having my aunt and mum coming over in August made it even better. 2 weeks of family time, 2 weeks of great food by them, 2 weeks of loving :)
And the final challenge of the year.... the long distance relationship.
Initially, before I got into it, I actually thought about it, about how it will be long distance the following year, about whether I can pull through it and whether it is possible. I wondered how it is going to be with not seeing him for weeks, months. I told myself that I am strong and can pull through it easily. We can still chat online, webcam, skype. Time difference is only 2 hours. It is nothing. But I overestimated myself.
It wasn't as easy as I thought it would be and I wasn't strong afterall. We were both busy and often missed each other online and don't have time to chat. Whenever I walked to and from the train station, whenever I walked pass Darling Harbour especially, I wished that he was beside me. It sucked even more when I see other couples. Wished I was them. When I go for a run, I can't run for long because I don't have him beside me. I don't look forward to my runs because he's not there.
Library isn't something I look forward to a tad bit this year. Last time, going to the library wasn't too bad because he was gonna be there too. I can nap and I'd have someone to wake me up, someone to make sure no one steals my phone. Now, I gotta set my alarm and hold my phone when I nap in the library. I thought I'll be used to it as time goes by but as it passes, I missed him more and more. I blame summer 2008 for hanging out too much that I'm not used to not having him by my side. Lol!
But at the end of the day, we managed to pull through it and I thank YOU for that, for the effort, for waiting and for your patience. And now I know what it feel likes to have a LDR, it's not easy and it can hurt at times. It's gonna be another year of long distance and I hope I can be stronger as I know what to expect. My brother can do it for so many years and so I can do it too!!!
I've never missed someone so much before till now. Still missing you now as I typed this out. Wish you were here with me this summer. It's alright. 18 days more :) Perhaps it's good in a way, you'd cherished the times you have together more because those times are scarce. You'd appreciate the tiniest little-lest things that you do together.
And so, this is 2009. The end of a decade. As I said, every year is different. Next year, it's gonna be 8-5 clinical placements. It'll be like working except I don't get paid and instead I still pay fees. I'll get to go to hospitals for the first time and see patients. I'm gonna have to start behaving professionally. It's gonna be challenging and I'm looking forward to it. My brother will be in Sydney from February to end of April so that's gonna be exciting too. Looking forward to that! It's gonna be my final year of studies.
I've talked to quite a few people and all I've heard is that they want to do something exciting the following year, they're getting bored with what they are doing. But you know, for me, I yearn for a few years in a row where I am at the same place, doing similar things. I do yearn for that. I'm tired of changes. I am thankful to be so lucky to have these opportunities to go places every year, doing different things. I am. Really, I am. But I do still want few years where I am doing the same things. But hey.. we're all humans. Wanting things that we do not have and not appreciating what we have. The grass is always greener on the other side I reckon!
I also yearn for that time to come, where majority of the days in a year is with him and not a small portion only. I wonder when that year will come. But for now, I am happy with what I have.
I wonder what 2010 will be like. I have this feeling that it's gonna be better than 2009. 2009 was just lots of fitting in, lots of adjustments. 2010 will be better. Definitely will be. I am stronger, I have adjusted, I am ready for the challenges, I am prepared. I know what to expect.
No new year resolutions again. I'd make one saying to stop biting my finger nails but I know that won't happen because I made that resolution before and I didn't accomplish it. So screw that. I do have this mission that I want to accomplish but I shall not say it just in case I chicken out. But I am really hoping to accomplish it. You'll know if I have. I think it's a rather good mission because I need something to work towards to besides studies. We'll see. We'll see. I'm pretty excited for 2010, looking forward to it a lot!! More positives than negatives. Actually, no negatives at all. So I think it's a pretty good start!!!
I was excited for coming over to Sydney. Staying with my cousin in a big city, no curfews, the anticipation of going to a new and more prestigious university, meeting new people and having a different lifestyle than back home. But at the same time, I was sad to leave home, leaving my friends and loved ones, afraid of what is ahead of me. I'm just gonna break everything up into parts again. The studies, the sports, social side and LDR.
Studies
Finally graduated from Sports and Exercise Science and am glad to have attended the graduation ceremony. But .... it didn't stop there....
Every year, it just gets harder and harder. Perhaps that's the whole point of studying, challenging the brain. Haha!! I have said this so many times but I'll say it again... Never in my life have I studied so hard before!!! Most weekends were spent at the library. And when come exams time, I'd locked myself in the library for the whole day, and once, it was 11 days straight at the library for at least 8 hours a day. I'd pack my lunch and dinner and snacks and bring it to the library. My weekdays start at 6 and usually get home around 7 or 8. I never fail to fall asleep in at least one lecture every week. Sometimes even more. I have never drank so much coffee in a year as well.
The mornings I drink my "moccolo" (milo plus moccona), I'd be awake the whole day. If not, the likelihood of me dozing off is very high. I was never ready for an exam. There was always more to know but not enough brain capacity. I was constantly studying the whole semester but still had to do last minute cramming. There was so much to learn, so much to know. I still have no idea how in the world I can be totally prepared for an exam. First time in my life I cried after an exam and before an exam. Hahaha!!
One thing that I am proud of was that I wasn't last minute for my assignments. I started them pretty early and I even completed one of them two weeks before its due date and the other a few days before it was due in. Hehehehe.....
But yeaa... all in all, academically, this year was the toughest and I am just glad the worst is over. I still have one more year to go as a student. I don't see myself studying in 2011 anymore. I just want to go out there and work. Next year will be a tad easier I hope. It's gonna be challenging during our clinical placements, it's gonna be stressful but I do hope I will have less late nights and less library days. This year is the last of 'real' exams. Yeaa... i do have exams next year but I don't call it real. There's only a pass or a fail during our clinical placements and we're examined on spot, not written exams. And second semester, it's back to uni studying but I heard with the exams, they will give you the questions in advance to prepare for them. So yea.. no more 'real' exams!! Woooohooo!!! (provided next year is the same concept as this year la!)
Sports
I completed my very first half marathon in February this year! Did it on the day I flew off to Sydney. Ended with huge blisters but a good sleep in the plane after that. A time of 2 hours 4 minutes and it was the last race running beside Ivan. The half marathon was rather brutal especially with the blister. I think I was sort of scarred by it that I dare not run another half marathon in Sydney.
Did two runs in Sydney and it was the first time running alone, without someone beside me and also managed a personal best for the year :) At least I achieved something. I know it's nothing big but I'd like to think I did achieve something every year. Be it huge or small. Hehehehe.. and so, that is what I've achieved and I shall syok sendiri and be proud of myself :p Hardly did any weekly runs on my own. I realized I need someone to run with orelse I won't be bothered running. Or maybe it was because I was so used to having Ivan running beside me last year that I am not used to running alone anymore. But yeaa... slowly getting better with that :)
Hope to do another half marathon next year, but first, I want to get a good pair of running shoes!!!
Netball in aussie
Netball isn't a sport I played much this year. Just a few in Sydney at the start of the year and then it stopped. Met some Malaysians and we do catch up once in awhile but not that close. I do miss netball. I do miss playing with the people back in Auckland. *sigh* I do miss playing indoor netball as well. So yeaa.. I'm not really active at all in sports this year. Studies took up majority of my time. But well.... I've walked heaps! At least 4kms everyday and the occasional 6 or 8km on days I feel like saving 90 cents or 1.80. That's how I lost weight. Haha!
At least there's a new sport to add to my list --> Diving!! Thanks to my brother and the huge christmas present in advance. A new thing I enjoyed doing and picked up over this summer. Looking forward to more dives next year and one day, I wanna go to Malaysia with my brother and dive!!! My brother calls me the lucky diver and scallop hunter.
Da' scallop hunter!
First dive and I saw dolphins. Best thing ever!!! When I dove with him, we only used one cylinder tank each to pick over 50 scallops when our limit is only 40 in total. When he dove with his friend, they usually used two cylinder tanks each to reach 40 scallops and sometimes can't even find that much. And the other day, when I went to goat island with shaun, yin, jeremy and xin yi, we saw a stingray just by snorkelling when he haven't even seen one before. Hehehehehe..... I wonder what's next... a shark? Haha!!
Social side
At the beginning of the year, I went for THE ULTIMATE FISHING TRIP and no place other than Coromandel. My favourite place in NZ! It was my 4th time there and still loving it. Thanks to Audrey for organizing it :) Also, I turned 21 and had a party not like your typical go clubbing, go drinking 21st party. I had it the kiddy way and it was awesome!! Apart from my phone drowning :(
Coromandel fishing trip
I mentioned before that I enjoy being with the friends I have already made few years back in uni. I don't enjoy socializing with strangers. But well.... being in a new country that I will be in for two years, having new coursemates... it has forced me to do so orelse I won't be able to make it through the year, through the course. I knew the importance of having your coursemates as your friends because we will be needing each other throughout. And well... I got lucky.
My canadians :)
The bunch of friends I made were good and I am very thankful to have them. I do get intimidated by them at times as they're all so smart and the questions they ask are pretty tough. I do admit, it adds more stress on me but well, it forced me to study and don't fall behind by much.
And because I'm the youngest amongst them, they treat me like a little kid. So funny how everytime when we go to the bars, they make sure I'm safe and not get pushed around on the dance floor. When someone pushes me, they will push them away. Haha! And when I say I do not want to drink anymore, they won't force me to and they'll get water for me. Hahaha!!
and that is why.. I just gotta love Canada :)
Also, this is the year I went out the most. It's not a lot but still more than any other years. First semester, went to a bar for friend's birthday, then pubcrawl, then post mid-semester exam celebration, then pre-drinks for final semester party as I did not make it to the bars after pre-drinks because of the evil McD milkshake :p Second semester, we had another pubcrawl, another post mid-sem exam celebration and then the final year celebrations. And I gotta say, Uber Bar at Lowenbrau is still THEE BEST place!!!
Apart from coursemates, I managed to re-unite with long time swimming friends who are now based in Sydney as well as primary school friends so that was a bonus as well. There'll always be something to talk about because it has been years since we last met so there's a lot of catching up to do. If I feel like chocolate, I'd have someone to go with me.
Plus, I went to my very first, mind-blowing music gig. Ahhhhh!!!!!!!
And last of all, still keeping in touch with Auckland friends that I miss to bits!!! Everytime when I go back for my break, I always look forward to that. Seriously, nothing can beat the friends made in first and second year of uni laaa...... Thoroughly enjoyed the time when Swan and Ivan came to Sydney in November to travel around and see places with me. Apart from the dolphin highlight, their trip to Sydney is the other Highlight of 2009!
And that was why I chose to come back to Auckland for summer and not remain in Sydney. I'd be bored to death. Sure it was still boring as there's less people around but at least Christmas and New Year's were good with the oldies:) They never fail to make me laugh and never bore me out.
Family
Things that have to be learnt about this have been learnt back in Canada and I am still sticking to that. The importance of having them and how much they care for me. I am really appreciative of that and always will be. Mum always ask me to eat more when she emails or when I call her, and always ask me not to stinge on food. Dad always make sure I have enough money and brother will ask me not to stress too much. Whenever I receive an email from them, it always puts a smile on my face.
I'm lucky enough to be staying with my cousin and that made me closer to home and less home-sick. My cousin really took care of me despite her busy working schedule. She'd fetch me to the train station when it's raining and when I forgotten my umbrella. She always make sure I have enough food and made me eat healthier. I think this is the year where I ate the most vegetables thanks to her.
when mum and aunt were here
Also, having my aunt and mum coming over in August made it even better. 2 weeks of family time, 2 weeks of great food by them, 2 weeks of loving :)
And the final challenge of the year.... the long distance relationship.
Initially, before I got into it, I actually thought about it, about how it will be long distance the following year, about whether I can pull through it and whether it is possible. I wondered how it is going to be with not seeing him for weeks, months. I told myself that I am strong and can pull through it easily. We can still chat online, webcam, skype. Time difference is only 2 hours. It is nothing. But I overestimated myself.
It wasn't as easy as I thought it would be and I wasn't strong afterall. We were both busy and often missed each other online and don't have time to chat. Whenever I walked to and from the train station, whenever I walked pass Darling Harbour especially, I wished that he was beside me. It sucked even more when I see other couples. Wished I was them. When I go for a run, I can't run for long because I don't have him beside me. I don't look forward to my runs because he's not there.
Library isn't something I look forward to a tad bit this year. Last time, going to the library wasn't too bad because he was gonna be there too. I can nap and I'd have someone to wake me up, someone to make sure no one steals my phone. Now, I gotta set my alarm and hold my phone when I nap in the library. I thought I'll be used to it as time goes by but as it passes, I missed him more and more. I blame summer 2008 for hanging out too much that I'm not used to not having him by my side. Lol!
But at the end of the day, we managed to pull through it and I thank YOU for that, for the effort, for waiting and for your patience. And now I know what it feel likes to have a LDR, it's not easy and it can hurt at times. It's gonna be another year of long distance and I hope I can be stronger as I know what to expect. My brother can do it for so many years and so I can do it too!!!
I've never missed someone so much before till now. Still missing you now as I typed this out. Wish you were here with me this summer. It's alright. 18 days more :) Perhaps it's good in a way, you'd cherished the times you have together more because those times are scarce. You'd appreciate the tiniest little-lest things that you do together.
And so, this is 2009. The end of a decade. As I said, every year is different. Next year, it's gonna be 8-5 clinical placements. It'll be like working except I don't get paid and instead I still pay fees. I'll get to go to hospitals for the first time and see patients. I'm gonna have to start behaving professionally. It's gonna be challenging and I'm looking forward to it. My brother will be in Sydney from February to end of April so that's gonna be exciting too. Looking forward to that! It's gonna be my final year of studies.
I've talked to quite a few people and all I've heard is that they want to do something exciting the following year, they're getting bored with what they are doing. But you know, for me, I yearn for a few years in a row where I am at the same place, doing similar things. I do yearn for that. I'm tired of changes. I am thankful to be so lucky to have these opportunities to go places every year, doing different things. I am. Really, I am. But I do still want few years where I am doing the same things. But hey.. we're all humans. Wanting things that we do not have and not appreciating what we have. The grass is always greener on the other side I reckon!
I also yearn for that time to come, where majority of the days in a year is with him and not a small portion only. I wonder when that year will come. But for now, I am happy with what I have.
I wonder what 2010 will be like. I have this feeling that it's gonna be better than 2009. 2009 was just lots of fitting in, lots of adjustments. 2010 will be better. Definitely will be. I am stronger, I have adjusted, I am ready for the challenges, I am prepared. I know what to expect.
No new year resolutions again. I'd make one saying to stop biting my finger nails but I know that won't happen because I made that resolution before and I didn't accomplish it. So screw that. I do have this mission that I want to accomplish but I shall not say it just in case I chicken out. But I am really hoping to accomplish it. You'll know if I have. I think it's a rather good mission because I need something to work towards to besides studies. We'll see. We'll see. I'm pretty excited for 2010, looking forward to it a lot!! More positives than negatives. Actually, no negatives at all. So I think it's a pretty good start!!!
Happy New Year to all of you and welcome to a new decade!!! Cherish every single moment you have. The smallest things, the smallest gestures... never take them for granted. Be positive and never say Never. Nothing is impossible. Know who your friends are and let them know you appreciate them once in awhile. Be there for them and they'll be there for you.
And last of all, Smile :) Because you can never get enough of it.
Hello 2010!!!!!!! :D :D :D
And last of all, Smile :) Because you can never get enough of it.
Hello 2010!!!!!!! :D :D :D
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its been 4 yrs reading your blog and i always enjoy your year end post the most. all so raw, honest and emotional, letting out almost everything in one post. love it. i was actually waiting for this, checking everyday from the 31st onwards lol..
a happy 2010 to you my other half! =)
thanks ah swan!! i'm glad to know there's someone out there who's looking forward to read my super long end of year post... hehehe.... motivates me to keep writing it every year! hahaha!!
Happy 2010 to you too my other half!!! muakzzzz!!!
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