Not many more weeks left

1 week of study break

1 week of classes

1 week of exams

5 weeks of placement

And then I'm done.

8 more weeks in total!! Gosh!! Time flies.

And then it's back to Malaysia. KL, Singapore, Kota Kinabalu, Krabi, Bangkok.

And after that, it is still all unknown.

I'm quite nervous for interviews really. No, I haven't got any. It's because I haven't make any applications yet.

As I scroll through job websites, there's none in Sydney really. That is why I am procrastinating to applying the other jobs. I have to go out far.

As I sit and ponder whether I should apply jobs out in the wops wops, I think about him. It would be ideal if I stay in Sydney and if a long weekend comes along, I can just hop onto a plane. But if I'm out in the wops wops, then it would be a different story.

When I tell my friends that I'm going to stay back and work in Australia for at least a year or two, they asked - what about him?

When I say I'm not going back to Auckland this summer, they asked - when do you get to see him next then? Is he coming over?

These were all questions I asked myself too. Questions that I wish didn't need to exist in the first place.

But somehow, I have come to face the fact that these are questions that can't be answered. I have come to face the fact that I will just have to go with the flow and come what may.

Afterall, I'm only 22. There's still so much in this world to see, to experience. I'm still so young. I admit, making all these decisions for next year such as where to work and if I should apply, would be so much easier if I didn't have someone in my heart and if I didn't miss that someone so badly everyday.

And so there's the saying... You can't get the best of both worlds.

Not just yet... but One Day... One Day I will.

For now, I'm just going to take things one step at a time. Follow my mind, and not my heart. Whatever will be, will be. Money is stronger than love for now. Hehehe... Sue me.