good day turned sour

ok, i was happily checking my inbox, reading my lovely emails, being all happy because exams are over....... AND THEN...... when i was abt to delete all the junk mails in my junk mail folder... there i saw it.... from Rory Barrett, Title: Tutorials... *screams* shucks!!!! first time that sprung my mind......Scholarship exams!!! Calculus!! aHH!!! NO!!!!! so i opened it.......


Hello Young Friends (ahh!! sounds so pleasant and happy!!!! is it coz the exam is cancelled??)

Schol Calc on Sat, Dec 10, in morning( Darn!! I knew that anyway). I will be running tutorials most mornings at 9.00am(pfft!! i don't need to go to it, it's not compulsory. But if i don't go, i will lose out). Do as much as you can of this which is on conics( what the heck is conics????)

I will run through it tomorrow morning, Tues, Nov 29, in Hillary, hopefully H5. (yahh right, like i'll be there.. perhaps only ppl like adam, tom and caroline will be there, then again........)

Mr Barrett

*opens attached file on Conics* #$%^&*()!!!???$#%& ( i'm screwed)

i really want to break down and cry.... i prob won't be able to sleep tonight.... man, i don't even know how to do a single question!!! why do i have to take this exam?? gRRRRRRrR!!! what have i gotten myself into? and they will send back our papers in february.. do they have to do that? i don't want to see those papers at all coz it will most prob be blank! i'm only planning to see it ONCE, which is during my exam.. and after that, i don't want to see them anymore... but now...... i guess i will have to since they are sending it back to us.. so i HAVE to AT LEAST do one question so i can say.. I TRIED.... leaving it blank will definitely meant that i DIDN'T TRY.... mann!! this suckssssss!!!!! ok, i kno it's easy money.... easy money for braniacs... but for ppl like me, it's money you get when u r dreaming... ok, i kno i shld hv more confidence in myself and all that but what's the point lying to yourself and saying you can do it when you KNOW it's impossible? i mean, i KNOW what i'm capable of doing (well, most of the times) and when i saw the question papers, the questions are like... HUH? WHAT THE? it's like you're sitting a foreign language paper when u hv no knowledge on it.... now, how can u say that u will pass a french paper when u don't even know french??? it's just..... IMPOSSIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!! yes yes yes, shermayne, you should be more confident in yourself and believe in yourself...yada yada yada.... shucks!! i can't do it this time..... serious!! i can't.... maybe i'll just go study chemistry hard out and try to understand some stats... it's understandable.. unlike calculus where u hv freaking X's and Y's and squares and other weird stuff. i call it.. the MATHS LANGUAGE in which people like tom wang and caroline jiang uses to communicate...

ps:/ to all the maths lovers, i don't hate maths.... i just hate DIFFICULT MATHS..... i like maths where u have to add, substract, divide, multiply NUMBERS that has a $ sign in front of them where NO alphabets are involved.....