my results

Medsci: B
Spanish: A-
Functional Anatomy: A-
Sports and Society: A-

Why can't we just be happy with what we've got? Maybe it's just human's nature to strive for more, to want more. I think the only way for me to be happy is to get A+ for all. But then again, I might yearn to get even closer to 100%. See, never happy. This is stupid. Referring back to my October 20th post.....

"Not doing as well as last semester. I'm kinda worried. Definitely goodbye to my A- in medsci. sportsci102, i have already lost 12% out of 50%. Need a miracle to score an A- as well. Found out today we have to write an 800 word essay, 400 word essay, answer 6 short answers and 20 multi choice question in 2 hours. Crap! If like that means I have to basically understand every single thing lar... So much readings to be done... I hate this paper a lot, no right or wrong answer, or is there? As for sportsci104, i don't know where i'm sitting at but the mid-semester test, i did not score an A. So, what are the chances? Very low too. Not like last semester. Haihhhh.... Only hope left is Spanish, but spanish doesn't count towards anything, it's just a freaking main-main paper. *sigh* I really don't want Cs at all but I have a super strong feeling i'll get them this time."

Reasons why I should be happy:
1. I did better than 1st semester. 1st sem: 2A-, 1B+, 1 B-. 2nd sem: 3A-, 1 B
2. I said I need a miracle to score A- in sportsci102(sports n society). A miracle happened, I got my A-.
3. I said the chances for scoring an A in sportsci104 (func anatomy) is very low. And I got an A-.
4. I didn't have any Cs at all.

Reasons why I'm not happy:
1. Wanted to score better than an A- in Spanish (if only I actually put in more effort in it. But the motivation to study really died after Nov6.)
2. I'm like most people- Never satisfied with what they achieved. Always complaining.
3. I tend to compare myself with other people who did better than me. Hence, never happy.
4. I'm stupid.

Someone please whack me for not being happy!!!

Why? Why are you like that? I don't understand. I really don't. I said don't disappoint me. You said you won't. But in the end, I having a feeling you're in the process of disappointing me. Lies, they're all lies. Now I don't even know what you say is the truth or just another lie. People do make mistakes, and from there, they learn. But I think you're not learning. I thought I could trust whatever you say from then on. But it doesn't seem like it. I'm hearing different stories from other people. I want to believe that you're telling the truth and they're making up stories. But somehow I tend to believe them more than I believe you. Do what you want, I don't want to say much anymore. I can't do much anyway. It's all up to you. In the end, you're the one who makes the decision. All I'm doing is just telling you what I feel is right. But I know there's so many things for you to think about. There's other people who influence your decisions, your actions. I think no matter what you do, whatever the choices you make (even if I'm so against it), I'll still end up supporting you. Why? It could be because I'm just plain stupid or it could be because I'll always be by your side no matter what.

I feel like all I'm doing is slowing the process of you messing it up. I have a feeling you're gonna mess it up in the end. Now I hope reverse psychology works and you prove me wrong!!

I'm just not the happiest person these few days because of........ (nahh, i shall not blame it on others... i'll just blame it on myself la...)

Ahhhh!!!! hope tomorrow onwards will be better.
Smile smile smile smile smile!! :D :D :D :D :D