feeling better

eek....2 a.m. and i'm awake. so glad first aid course is finally over!! 2 days straight, 9-4. boring boring boring. today wasn't that bad, had so many role plays. our group rocks! our role plays are just so funny! even had a person acting as a toilet bowl, freaking toilet bowl that doesn'st stop flushing.... such a crack up!! melissa being a good imitation of an old man was classic...man!! old ppl are just so annoying!! haha!! one of the scene, i acted as the patient who stupidly threw petrol onto the bbq stove and got burnt on my arms and erin was the 1st aid person. so yea, when she was checking my circulation after attending to my arm, she squeezed my injured foot and i screamed. she was like...what? is she meant to injure her ankle as well? and i was like.. no no!! seriously don't squeeze it!! i'm seriously injured!!! and omg! she tot i was acting... far out! the looked on her face just cracked me up so much...she was so shock when i screamed.... thank god she didn't squeeze where my talo fibular ligament was, just squeezed the bruised part... yayy!! i pass my 1st aid course!! lolxx..duh...everyone passes.... if i'm really presented with a real situation, i don't think i'll be able to do it ay!

feeling so much better today. think it's coz the role plays in 1st aid just made me laugh so much till i forgotten abt my injury. came home, checked my email and peiyun drew me a picture to cheer me up, it sure did help!!thanks!! haha.... thanks yingswan and darren for the msgs on my tagboard :). made me realized things are not so sucky afterall. yes, i'll come back next yr stronger and i did enjoy myself during the trainings, be it with the whole team or just audrey, yean and yingswan. of course, i enjoyed the after trainings reward as well :D.... lunch on weekends and juice with audrey nd yean on weekdays. thanks audrey for texting me nd yes, maybe it's a blessing in disguise and yes, we're gna get juice!!!!!!! juice juice juice!!! no need to buy me juice lar, after all u've done for me, i shld be the one buying juice for u instead! thanks david for calling me up yesterday and yes, i'll be there supporting the team :)

ok, this shall be my last post till i come back frm dunedin. tmrw will hv to sort out my student loan coz this slacker here hvnt applied her student loan yet since the start of the year, go to accupuncturist, pack for dunedin. ooo!! now i'm excited. i'm gna pig out on the breakfast there to make my 40 bucks per night worth it. i told yingswan, i will be coming back being a fatty bom bom and the rest will be coming back as skinny stick stick. then she's gna stop me frm eating too much for the sake of my health! haha!!! have a safe trip to everyone going down to dunedin and win win win....haha!! have a safe and fun holiday to everyone! and to those going up the moutains, enjoy the snow this yr! good good snow!! anyone who looks like me and wants to go to the mountains, i'll hire my season pass to you for 50 bucks and ski/snowboard as much as u want for this winter holzz!! i'm serious bout this ok.. but u gta look like me!!! basically if u hv black hair,oval shape face, average size, not too white, not too tan, then can already. make sure u wear ur shades and then u'll look like me. haha!!

before i leave, here's peiyun's artwork...

i hv to let it out, i hv to cry....and maybe in the end, i'll all be fine....

no, i can't handle it anymore... i don't know why. i kept on telling myself to think positive, it's not that bad, no big deal, i can handle it, just ignore the bad and laugh and everything will be all good. but no, all the sucky feelings just keep on coming back. last few days, i kept on having hopes that i will be able to play, i will be able to play. but today, reality check came in. went to the accupuncturist and he said my sprain is pretty bad. i've torn the ligaments and broke some blood vessels. not allowed to run or jump as i might make it worst and will take a longer time to heal. like what the physio said, i need at least one month and can be even more.

he poked some needles into my ankle and leg, send some electric thingy through my leg for 30 mins (very weird feeling, u feel vibration going on beneath the skin), apply some heat (i cldnt feel it coz something is damaged as well...dno what larr.. he was speaking mandarin to my parents and i didn't understand some words....), press here press there, squeeze some clotted blood out, put some medicine, bandaged it up. now i can walk normal but slow. but at least i can walk. but i'm not allowed to run or jump. must stay away from sports for at least a month. that whole 30 minutes lying down there, i was just thinking :"damn damn damn! why must this happen to me? why am i so unlucky?"...

sigh.... on the way home, sucky feelings came up again, had tears in my eyes. now, sucky feelings is still here. i really can't take it anymore. i wanted to just go to my mom and let out everything since i've no one else to let it out on.... maybe if my brother is here, i wld do that..... coz she won't understand i guess. she'll just say :"what? u telling me u want to play after u've injured urself so bad? u don't want to heal is it?". how do i kno she wld say that? coz she's said that before. but no, this time it's not that. this time i just need to complain and whine. so since i don't have anyone to let out my feelings, i'll just do it here..... sorry but i have to coz i want to feel better....

to be honest, never in my life have i volunteered to train hard for something and push myself and got so enthusiastic about it. this is so stupid, it's just a game, probably just a friendly game where u mix arnd with other msians arnd nz. why did i push myself? i dno, i guess it's just for self satisfaction? the kind of satisfaction u get when u know u deserve it after all the hard work even if u don't win but u know it's the best u did.....no, i hvn't been satisfied with myself for a very very long time. can't even remember when was the last time. i just realized, the last time i trained so hard for something, the hard work also did not pay off. but that wasn't voluntary at first, i was being pushed to train for it by mr.ang(swimming coach for those dat dno). it was 2001 where he realized i'm a potential long distance nd he decided to train me up for it for msss 2002 since nt many ppl do long distance, i stood a chance. i trained for it, wanted to give up so many times coz it got boring but he kept on pushing me, telling me the hard work will be paid off, kept on motivating me. when it got to the end of the year, parents said i'm going to nz the following yr to study. i got angry, disappointed, sad......sort of the feeling i'm having now..... i gave up after i came to nz... don't see the point of training hard for anything anymore as i do not want that disappointment again.... whole of college life, never push myself, never give it my best for anything....came out of college, realized i wasn't satisfied with myself.... regretted so many things that i cld hv done....

so this yr at uni, i decided to make a change nd go for it. joined umsa, joined netball, was lucky to get into the team and then i made a goal...to train hard for it since i hvnt played it before and be as good as the rest of the team and do my best in the game. that wld easily give me self-satisfaction. just last week, i thought --- no way can i be disappointed, what could happen? it's finally happening!! i'm gna get my self satisfaction!!! so close, yet so FAR just because of a stupid clumsy move.....stil cnt believe that that fall caused all of this!!! yes, i'm disappointed. the cycle has repeated itself. i'm over-reacting, i know but i can't help it. think about it, it's only what....2 months of hard training? why am i making such a big fuss out of it? why am i as disappointed as 4 yrs ago? that was more than 2 months, that was nearly a year.... do ppl tend to over-react as they get older? i analyzed it.... i kno y i'm over-reacting.. coz next yr i know for a fact that i won't put in as much effort as this year... why? it' s just my character....... i'm afraid of disappointment again....hence, i won't want to put in much effort anymore....i give up......

i accepted those criticisms and yellings coz of my mistakes, i accepted the fact that i'm not good, i accepted that my catching/throwing sucks, i accepted that my leg works are very ugly, i get all worried when something isn't right, i crack my head to think how to fix it, i accepted the fact that i can't shoot, i felt bad for being a GA coz i sucked, i worked hard to improve my shooting, i worked hard to improve my catching and throwing, i tell myself i suck and i have to do better, i always try to think of new moves when i hear "don't always do the same move", i drive all the way frm tamaki to city every fridays and then to windmill, i played under the rain once and continued despite the allergies i got frm dirty rain water, i tahan the itchiness due to rain water nd continued playing, i made a point to go to rec centre on weekdays to practice even if it's just one hr, i practiced even when exams are so near/exams are on, i was learning how to split my legs better after catching the ball, i was learning how to improve communication with yin in the D, i was learning how to communicate with the C and WA......all this for NOTHING

ahh!! feel so much better letting it all out. hope when i wake up tmrw morning, i will accept the fact that i can't play. coz right now in me, there's still this tiny voice saying "shermayne, don't give up, u still can play. still got one more week. just don't care, injure it again and then u can fix it again." so i hope the bigger voice in me will conquer the little voice coz the big voice is saying :" u siao arrr? injure again then might not be able to fix!! accupuncturist already say NO running, no jumping, no SPORTS...after he found out u've been playing, u dead meat larr u!!! mother scold, father scold, accupuncturist might scold and say can't be fixable"...

anyhuuzzz....thanks to everyone who wished me well, really nice of you all to do that. really appreciate it. thanks!!! and sorry to those who i shut off today on msn saying i don't have mood to talk, make any jokes or laugh with. so sorry!! i really didn't have the mood and the crazy/funny side of me was switched off.....happy shermayne will be back soon so plz dun stop talking to me!!!!! byebye!!!!

not fair

not fair! they go yum cha at Dynasty at Wakefield St..... how am i suppose to guess that?? where the heck is wakefield st? lolx!!

henry just said netball was fun....argh!! so jealous!!!!!

i miss out on food, i miss out on fun....how wonderful!!!

ooo ooo!! who's gna be my 2000th visitor? tag me tag me!!!

of random-ness...

of random-ness...

u know my site-counter... hehehe.. last few days... these numbers came out and i just got so amused.. hehehehe...small things amuses small minds..


that's the year my daddy was born.


that's the year msia got it's independence.


and that's the year this little girl was born!!!


yes, i'm bored..i know... i'm going psycho.... but it's working... at least i'm not depressed... muahahahahaha... and oh!!yesterday i looked at kathmandu's catalogue online and they have this hoody called SWAN hoody...haha!!!! reckon' yingSWAN shld get it but then later realized it's for kids till 14 yrs...awwww......




and that's what making me feel so gutted.. i paid 190 for this year's season pass and i don't think i'll be going this winter anymore. so wasted.. last year's one was wasted as well. maybe i'm not meant to use a season pass..... hmph!! nvm nvm.. hope can go this september and go for at least 5 days to make the pass worth it. don't u think last year's pass looks nicer? BLUE! this year's one is just plain old grey... yuckkss!!! ok, just coz i like blue.. haha! i wonder what colour next year's one wld be? it wld be so funny if it's pink!!!

and i have 111 friends on friendster ---->

man, never knew sunday mornings can be so bored.. *sigh* the girls are now playing netball...ohh wait, it's going to be 11.30 already.. so they are gonna get chased away frm the courts soon..unless they go windmill, but it's cold.. no wait, today isn't that cold... bluekk...so maybe they are still playing.. then after that, they'll SURE go for lunch....let's play guessing game..... where would they go? hmm... rasa sayang? haha!! that is if they play at gym... if not, probably some cafe at mt.eden? oh my goondusami, i'm too bored already!! ok, i better go now... shall just go continue watching prison break....i'm such a pig...sitting down the whole day....well, that's the only thing i can do! i tried walking on both legs yesterday and what happened? blue-black!!! stupid stupid...

so i'm just gna continue hopping... but i nearly hit it against the wall just now.... i think i'm very prone to accident this month.... well, THIS month.. it's JUNE this month.. so mean, i'll be sweet in JULY... which is in a few days time....right right?

eek! it's sunny but it's freezing in my room.so weird... my fingers are kinda numb...think i just better put it in under the blankkie and watch tv now!!!

HAVE A GREAT WEEK AHEAD!!!!!!

emotions

stupid emotions.. why do we have to have emotions? why? it's killing me..... why do i hv to feel like this? i'm trying not to but i am.. this is seriously not a big deal shermayne...get over it..think mei.. her's is way way way worst than urs... so many months already... urs is just a freaking torn ligament.... i guess that's what u get if u never get injuries and once u get it, u make such a big fuss out of it.....

i want to smile, i want laugh, i want to say everything is ok... but i can't.

all about me!!!!!!!

It's all about ME...

here's my lovely wall back to normal

here's the mess i have to clean up

and here's the room service dinner i had. Yee Mee from PENANG cuisine at howick (yingswan, PENANG!! haha!! come on over to chowick and i'll take u there!)

and here's the ligament that i tore - anterior talofibular ligament, the ligament that connects the talus and fibula! hahaha....

now now, chia wen tagged me long time ago and never got tagged before and i'm bored so i'll do this.

Instructions: Name 20 people you can think of at the top of your head. Don't read the questions before you write, and tag 5 people to do the survey

1.yingswan
2.yean
3.audrey
4.henry
5.darren
6.david
7.matthew
8.lucas
9.thaddeus
10.hwei gjin
11.yi wen
12. joanna
13. annabelle
14.sin seanne
15.eng han
16.siew aun
17. siew ghee
18.melissa
19. serena
20. chiawen

Questions:
How did you meet 14 (sin seanne) ?
ksas swimming pool

What would you do if you had never met 1 (ying swan) ?
weekend sports will never ever be as fun and i will be the youngest there. now i'm not!! haha!!! and i probably won't join as many sports.

What would you do if 20 (chia wen) and 9 (thaddeus) dated you?
chia wen...ermm.. i'm not a lesbian...but if she really dated me, well, first date, i'll tell her i'm not a lesbian..... thaddeus....ermmm...our conversation wld be filled with SSSssSSS
Did you ever like 19(serena)?
i only know her for a year.. and yes, i like her.. as a friend, not as my lesbian partner....haha!

Would 6 (david) and 17 (siewghee) make a good couple?
ermm.... they do not know each other...but if they do, maybe as gay partners? maybe.. maybe...haha!!!

Describe 3 (audrey).
haha!!! she says whatever she wants to say, not afraid of giving criticism, damn freaking good "coach" to me for netball, introduced me to TANK...man! i owe her heaps and i respect her!!

Do you think no 18 (melissa) is attractive?
hell yeah!!!! i think lots of guys go ga-ga over her. take a look for urself. no, i don't go ga-ga over her...lolx!


Tell me something about 7 (matthew).
wow!!! this is easy..... matthew was once shorter than me and slower than me in swimming. wahahahahahahahaha!!!!! but he's not anymore..damnit

Do you know anything about 12's (joanna) family?
errr....not really.. never seen them before. ermm..she has a little brother that she claims to be annoying, a sister that's studying at cambridge....that's all lar....

What is no 8's (lucas) favourite?
magic card tricks!!!!!!! or his gf? i dno...ahaha..both!

What would you do if 11 (Yi Wen) confess that he/she likes you?
i'd go...yi wen, i know u look hot in a skirt and all that but i'm just not attracted to girls.. sorry, we can stil be friends...haha!

What language does 15 (eng han) speak?
english, malay, chinese, hokkien... got anymore?
Who is 9 (thaddeus) going out with?
this cute chic that i saw on his display pic but he's not telling me her name!yes pppl! thaddeus's life is not all abt computer games anymore!! woohoo!!! Gosss ThaddeussssSSs

How old is 16 (siew aun) now?
20, turning 21

When was the last time you talked to 13 (annabelle) ?
i msg her on msn but she don't reply... :(

Who is 2's (yean) favourite singer?
i have no idea!!! dno her well enough...but she sings lines from disney cartoons

Would you date no 4 (henry) ?
no, haha! too old!

Would you date 7 (matthew)?
no, haha! too young! yes, i do have issues with age

Is 15 (eng han) single?
the last time i saw him, no, he isn't....dno about now

What's 10's (hwei gjin) last name?
Ow

Would you ever consider being in a relationship with 11 (yi wen) ?
i'm currently having a relationship with her........friendship larr...what were u thinking?

What school does 3 (yean) go to?
right now.. AUT...that not school, that uni.. but she don't go school anymore.

Where does 6 (david) live?
wellesley student apartment.. dno the number...same one as yin's..

What's your favourite thing about no 5 (darren)?
ermm..funny to talk to on msn

now the ppl i'm tagging...
ermmm....i dun hv friends....:(..... *looks at the names on my current tagboard*
yunnie= peiyun
yingswan
oonri = henry (i kno u hv a blog now thnx to my friend...haha!!)
darren
audrey

read yingswan's blog just now...awwwww.. i felt so touched with what she was saying abt me..... made me feel important...haha..so perasan larrr me..... but yea..thanks everyone for the wishes!!! byeeee!!!

exams are over nd i sprained my ankle....

yayyy!! exams over!! wooohoooo!! finallly!! hallelujahh! lalalalalaa@!!!!! i'm free!! i'm free!!!!

yes, i should be feeling like that but................... i'm not.... why?
here's the story:

http://waterdiva.spaces.msn.com/blog/

lazy to type it all out again and it will occupy space...and yes, that's where i blog all the while since i had a limit in here...haha!!! no, you don't get ur two bucks coz i didn't say i'm limiting the no.of blogs at msn space...heeeheee....i'm so cunning...haha!

right now, i'm just feeling so..................... i-don't-know-how-to-feel feeling... hmmnn.. i just typed one whole paragraph about how i feel but deleted it...lolx!!! decided it sounds too dramatic and pity-ish.... let's just say that the physio said i tore my ligament and to be able to play in 9 days, i have to be a very very lucky person.... chinese doctor here i come! u better bring me better news...

i wanted to go on a blogging frenzy but i can't think of anything to blog.... thinking of what to blog also make me so bored already.... i think u r bored as well... no no no!! i must cheer up!!!!! must think happy thoughts..come on!! happy thoughts...happy thoughts....peter pan!!!!!!! ok, no, i don't want to talk about peter pan...hmnnnn...ooo!!i can talk about prison break!!!! ooo!! u HAVE to watch it... michael is HOT!! ok ok, so he's not THAT hot but still hot.. hot enough to warm me up.... lalalaala!!! and hot enough to keep me watching it.... if only shiun has his harddrive now.... then i can spend my whole weekend watching it.... now, i really dno what i should do these few days..can't shop can't play sports...i want to clean my room but i'm afraid i might trip and fall on my books.... i want to write up my shopping list again but there's no point in doing that since i can't shop....i wanted to go to the gym and get back to my fitness and lose all the chocolate fats but i can't anymore.... i just hv to continue getting fatter.....man! even if i heal, i wld be so unfit for the games..... this is getting quite depressing... no no, i mustn't feel depress... coz if i feel depress, then it might slow the healing down... mind and body are one!!! so must take care of the mind as well to heal the body... hehehe!!!! biopsychosocial model.... hehehe...that's the only thing i learn frm psychology...oh ya..the paper today was tough.. it's the only paper where i think i might not pass....... didn't know getting 30 marks out of 100 can be that hard.... i was just sitting in there counting how many marks i will definitely get.....26!!! arghh!! 4 more...4 more.. let's just hope i got good guessing skills....

no, i'm not feeling any better now..this sucks... why??? i dno how to cheer myself up...how stupid... let's just think about yesterday......

imagine someone running, with no one chasing her and suddenly...she fell!! *cluck* she looks up and say :" I'm OK!" and then changed her mind and said :"No, i'm not OK!! Ouch!"

hahahahahahahha... i find that hilarious and stupid at the same time.... major gumbie!!!

arghh!!! i'm so bored!!!!! i can't wait for my mom to come back with food!!! yee mee!! u kno those crispy noodles and then they pour sauce over it? yummy!!!! aiksss... continue getting fatter..... aishhh.....hmmn!!! OooOO!! i just thought of something!! i can still do crunches!!! and at the same time, my leg will be elevated.... ohh yea!!!! yea baby!! ho ho ho!!!! ahh!!!! who's the genius here now, eh? ok, better get to it before mom comes back....... she'll definitely scream at me.... WHAT YOU DOING? YOU WANT TO GET WORST IS IT? AFTER THE BALL UNSTABLE THEN YOUR WHOLE LEG HIT THE GROUND!

okie...that's all for NOW...i'll be back tonight!! haha!! with pictures...hehehehe....

of tummy ache and the world cup

shall use up my last post now since i doubt i'll be blogging tomorrow or thursday. i shall keep my laptop again. why? because i haven't been doing much studying. yesterday, i organized my notes, plan up what day i should study what topic and planning to start today. i've got heaps more to read i don't even think i'll have time to summarise them. just read and sit the exam counting on luck? gahh!! i need 14% to pass, that's quite a lot. this paper is worth a whole 60%. shucks!

so why didn't i study today? well, i used up the whole day lying in bed all because of a sore tummy. it was really bad ok, wanted to puke a couple of times. why the sore tummy? i think it was the rendang i had for breakkie this morning. (now for once u need not be jealous that u don't get to eat the rendang) gahh! but every1 else in the family was fine, why me?? man!!! maybe i've been eating too much lately, hence my tummy decided ENOUGH so it decided to be sore so i can't eat. GrrRRrRR! i guess it's not happy anymore? but but... food makes ppl happy!!!! ohh wellzzz.. at least i'm better now thanks to my mommy's love and her reflexology. haha! it does work ok!! shall be a late night for me tonight staying up studing. at least hv to get 2 chapter done. 10 chapters needs to be completed by friday!

now now... here's what everyone's talking about... the world cup.. bluek!! i'm not a fan of football/soccer whatever u want to call it. only watch the semi-finals and finals. why? coz i just wna know who wins. haha!! and the reason i don't really follow it is coz they take damn bloody long to score a goal. i mean, i only get excited when the ball goes in. hence, i only love watching the news, they just show the scene where the ball goes in. and everytime when u think the ball is gna go in, it doesn't. so anti-climatic, it's like :"go go go go go!! AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW"

so who do i support? well, i first watched it when i was 6 and brazil won.. when i was 10, france won but brazil got second....i'll just take it as homeground advantage larr.... so i'm just sticking to brazil.. coz brazil won the last one as well. see, i don't like getting disappointed. so if i just support the team that has had the most wins, then it's less likely for me to be disappointed.

ok... that's it for now.10 posts limit is all used up!!!! i'll be back on the 23rd after 4.30pm! yeaa man!!!

one week diary

Q: What happens if you press ctrl space if u hv msgr plus?

A: You get to hide all ur convo instantly that ur mom wldnt even know u were online

Q: What happens if you decided to continue chatting after that?
A:

*ctrl space*
*ctrl space*
*ctrl space*
*ctrl space*
*clicks on msgr icon on desktop a million times*

result: nothing, it really disappears and u can't get it back!!!

no, i did not hide it coz my mom came in. my mom doesn't even care. why did i hide it?

itchy hands.no life.curiosity.desperate for some amusement.

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

Monday- powercut in auckland except for those lucky bastards in northshore. pfft!! drove all the way to tamaki thinking that maybe it's just my area that don't have power, i could still do my work in tamaki and photocopy my diagrams. on the way there, heard on the radio it was the whole of auckland. nahhh....can't be that bad, i'm sure they have generators there so it wld be all sweet. nope, that did not happen. the whole campus shut down. bluekk!!! yingswan suggested i shld just DRAW...and so, i did... here's the pics u wna see.....lolx!!

powercut wasn't too bad...was only for a few hrs...just don't get to hv my morning shower.. that's it... and hd to wear more clothes....if u don't have any exams whatsoever, just lie in the bed and sleep.. it's real cosy and nice..... not like in msia... where it gets really hot and u can't really do anything.. if u decide to sleep, it's too hot to sleep... if u decide to run around, u get really hot and sweaty and yucky...and...mozzies!!! urghhhh!!!

i remembered when we were young(ok, my grandma story time...haha) blackout always happens at night.... then we wld hv candle light dinner and use the candle to do our work.. after that, will sit in the garden drinking soft drink and ice! that was the time where we can drink one full cup...usually i wld hv to share with my brother... then after that my brother and i will climb to the roof and just sit there coz it's cooling..haha! blackout occurs very often in msia...but not the whole of selangor.... sometimes it's just like one tiny area only.. so sometimes...... i use that as an excuse when i don't get to finish my work.. one was during std.4 where we have to check i dno how many freaking chinese idioms from the super thick dictionary and write it down.... what i wld do is take a scrap paper with all my maths working and stick it to the book.. go to school next day, act all shocked and tell teacher black out and i stuck my stuff in the dark so i stuck the wrong stuff....and she believed it.. gosh!! it's better than the dog ate my hwk or the wind blew it away excuse.. i was a freaking genius last time man! haha!!!

(ok,grandma story over)

Tuesday- studied anatomy. get to photocopy the rest of my diagrams. "decorated" my room wall with diagrams and mind maps or whatever u call it lar...... pretty ain't it?



Wednesday- HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YU SHENG nd JOANNA!!! studied anatomy again. more diagrams and mind maps and tables. omg!!! the bones, ligaments and muscles are taking over my dolphins!! ohh no!! hehehe.....

Thursday- bad bad dream. more like silly. blame it on the diagrams. i dreamt that they came alive, the bones of the foot started moving and then i was kinda fascinated with it but but..... i cldnt name the bones!!! they were all weird! either not at the position where they were meant to be or just a really weird shape!! and they kept swapping places!! Woke up and decided ENOUGH... no more studying for me. 15 hrs the last 3 days, that should be alright. I still have the whole lower limb section but i'm just gna give up. At night, checked cecil. Far Out! 43.86% out of 50%...my oh my!! i can actually get an A easily!! damn damn damn!!!decided i should go for it!!!! here's what i did....

good way of studying huh?


Friday- left house at 7.30 hoping to get a parking behind the engineering building. reached there, all gone. parked at parnell instead. long walk up the hill!! gahh! at least i save on parking!! went to computer space and did more studying and started panicking when i saw last year's paper. oh my goondusami!!! (yea, u don't say oh my god coz it's bad to blame it on god. u say goondusami coz goondusami is always the person to blame. who is goondusami? it's someone i created, and yes, u can blame him too when things are not going well) ok.. that was random..back to where i stopped.. where was it? ohh yea... oh my goondusami!!!! so tough!!! i can't answer most of them!! especially the insertions, origins and actions of the muscles!!! it's 15 muscles only but out of 111!!! (yes, i counted them but don't pity me, it's not that hard compared to ...... chemistry or whatever subjects other than sportsci. sportsci is for mentally challenged ppl like me.it's actually easy if u hv a darn good memory capacity coz all u hv to do is memorise them and u're sweet. u dun even need to hv any understanding whatsoever.) i'm definitely not aiming for A anymore. no way man!

10am- checked my phone and yingswan txted me, saying she's at the rec centre already playing squash. decided i hd enough of anatomy so went there nd played a bit as well. heeheee..quite fun tho i suck.... later, had netball 11-12.30... no, that wasn't the highlight of the day.. highlight of the day was... TANK!! yea man!!!! we went there after netball. coz i hvnt bn going for two weeks! i need my juice to make me happy.... heeeheee.... i became a happy person!! then touch...1-3.... it was only me, yingswan, sheng and sean...how sad!!! slackers!! the rest are slackers!! haha!!! no larrr...they hv exams....cnt blame them, they wna do well, unlike me who already given up. gta admit, eventho it was only 4 of us, it was still fun... realized u need to run quite fast...hehehe, touch is fun coz it's like a game of tag when u playing when u were young...teeehee!!!

Saturday- today....ermm...anatomy exam was alright.. but i don't think i'll get my A.... sigh.....came out of the exam 30 mins earlier... my first time leaving an exam early.. well, when i left, the whole lecture hall had like maybe a quarter of the class left.... so it's not too bad....besides, can't wait to come home to see my dad...he came back today!!! he got my coconut sweet!!!! so happy!!!! u know those coconut sweet wrapped in red transparent or yellow transparent wrapper? hehehe... hvnt been eating them for AGES!!! then suddenly one day my bro and i were talking about coconut then somehow came up with coconut sweet.... wonder if he got my 3-in-1 milo...didn't check properly.. was more excited bout the sweet... thanks dad!! went for dinner afterwards at the nyonya restaurant.. we had........................ wait, no..... can't mention it or some of u might get jealous...hehe... it's great to be me, i know...haha! (so perasan!)

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ok.. that's it....this is my 9th post... ooo!!! one more post!!! one more week to go!! last paper is psychology.. really clueless abt this paper..seriously i hv no idea how to study it.. shucks! i'll start reading the textbook on monday....

lastly, always bear in mind that chocolate keeps you going! No, yingswan, those aren't fireworks. haha!!

Last paper, bring it on!!! two more weeks to dunedin!! woohoo! Enjoy ur week!!!

food= happy tummy= happy shermayne

Nothing can make me any happier when there's food.

have i told you how much i love food? food can really make me the happiest person on earth!!!

last saturday was like...woahh!! so good man!!!!

afternoon had chicken laksa at rasa sayang along symonds st....then at night, mum said we're going to have dinner with yuen and family. where? at this malaysian nyonya restaurant at howick. it was my first time going there though i live so close to howick. anyhuuuzzz.... when she told me msian food, i was like..gahh!! must it be today? i just had msian in the arvo... ohh welllzzzz.....

had hainanese chicken, prawns(dno what prawns is it but it's good), beef rendang, the tofu that's crispy on the outside, soft like jap tofu in the inside and covered with soy sauce and fried ikan bilis, coffee sauce pork(the only dish that i didn't like) and vegetable(don't really fancy vege). but yea.. man!! the rest was so good!!!!!! YuMMmMYY!!!! i was basically grinning while eating my food.... cldnt stop smiling....apparently i've got this really funny expression when i'm enjoying my food a lot.. my whole family can tell.. especially when it comes to dessert..omg omg!! yes!!! dessert!!!!!!!! YummMMm!!! we had sago with gula melaka and coconut cream.....wooahhh!! syok man!! ahhhhh!!! so good...so good... taste like heaven!! wait, i hvnt tasted heaven... taste like....sago and gula melaka larr.... very good!!!! i was a very happy person!!!

then today.... good good dinner..thanks mom! i was feeling real shitty bout my exams the past two days..biosci107 and sportsci105... if only i studied harder for them... they were actually easy paper compared to past papers.... but gahh!!!! felt like an idiot.... very geram!!!! if only i started studying last week.. i calculated and i spent only a total of 14 hours on biosci 107... 9 hours on wednesday(yes, i was cramming), 4 hrs on tuesday and 1 hour on sunday.... i cldnt be stuffed doing past papers on wednesday coz they were too hard and no answers to them.... 14 hours... not a lot.... ppl spent like 14 days.... the mid-term for bio, i spent one week... blehhh.... then sportsci 105, i spent 8 hours... 6 hours on monday, 2 hours yesterday.... hehhh...why so little yesterday? coz after bio i was like..woohoo!!!! in a happy mood tho i cld hv done better..and then i checked cecil and realized i only need 10% for 105 to pass.... but now i feel so shitty coz this morning most ppl got like higher than me!! 42%-48%.. i'm 41%...yerrrrr..... i thrashed them in bio..... bio is hard...how can they thrash me in sportsci....eeeeekkk!! felt so dumb.... then again, they are sporty so it's easier for them to speak during the practical....they got like 9 out of 10.. me.. i just passed...5 out of 10....haha!!!!

ok.. i'm going off topic.. i'm meant to talk about my dinner.... ok, after feeling so shitty and everything........ i'm all happy now.. why? coz my mummy made chicken rice tonight!!!! it was so good i tell u!!! and and... i ate till i'm satisfied..like seriously satisfied!! one whole chicken between 3 people.. and i ate maybe half of it? heeeeheeee.. so happy!!!! talking abt it is making me all smiley now... lalalalalala!!! i still wonder how those chics in msia can be so slim....screw them!! i rather be happy than starving myself just to look good... tummy more important =p....speaking bout msia.. my brother is going back this winter holzz...for two weeks.. then last week come back here for skiing...lucky fella.. i think he's going back coz he misses his gf...heeeeheeeee....but he never say.. he just says he feels like going back for a holiday..haha! so cute!!! thank goodness dad's coming back next sunday orelse mom will be all alone during the holz since i'll be at dunedin....

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didn't go to tank today.. didn't feel like it coz netball wasn't tiring.. was just shooting with audrey.. yean didn't come.. she's meant to but she forgotten....spent one hour waiting for her but she didn't show up.. so yea.... practice was still good tho... so much more to improve on..... and i'm a very un-coordinated person...haha!!!

tmrw netball 10.30-12.30..but i'm going to reach tamaki at 8 to take the free bus.. this stingy girl here wants to save on petrol.....travelling 13.85km uses up one litre of petrol...that's 1.709 bucks.... frm my house to tamaki, it's around 12k... so it wld cost around 2.90 for to and fro... whereas if i drive to city, i wld cost me i dno how much.. way more than 2.90... haha!!! plus i need to find parking....blehhh... anyway, hope can go to tank after netball!! didn't go this week.... omg! think i'm addicted to it.... at least i'm not addicted to red bull... but red bull works ok... that day at tamaki, they were giving out a can of red bull to everyone in the library... haha!! so that's how i managed 9 hrs of study straight!! ok, maybe it was the big breakkie i had at mcds in the morning..haha!! but still... red bull works.. but nahh.. musn't rely on it.... I'VE GOT THE POWER!!!! *says it in bruce almighty way*

haha!! i've gone MAD!!! shall stop now... lalala!!!

Life's good when you have food!

Have an awesome weekend and a great week ahead!!!

on a random note....
i have no idea that 6.6.06 was devil's day until i read so many ppl's blog..bluekkk... what's with the number 6 tho? why not 1,2,3,4,5,7,8, or 9? why 6? wldnt have 4 been worst? 4.04.04...die die die (in cantonese)....haha!!! can someone tell me why the number 6? i always thought 6 is just a normal number....hehehehe..ok.... yahh.. i'll go now la...sorry!

i dun hv discipline

it's so tough, so tough for getting myself into a study mood... i thought this year would change, have i not learnt my lesson from the last two years? two years of disappointment.. it mustn't happen this year... i don't want to disappoint myself again... i want to do well like my brother, so i can say i'm as good as my brother or just a wee bit below him but not WAY WAY behind him... but at the same time, it's tough.... i think i'm easily influenced which sucks... all my friends at sportsci all just want to pass... they're not aiming for A's....biosci is the hardest paper for us.... they want to pass it, they're struggling to pass it.... all they say is :"i hope i pass, i hope i pass...man! u're sweet for biosci, u just need 6%".... yea, true... i just need 6%.... why study? the paper is worth 40%... so easy to get 6%... but i don't want to just pass, i want to try to get an A!! but with what everyone is saying, half of me is like" yea yea.. i'm all sweet for biosci...." and half of me is:" shucks!! i need to get 90% for this exam to get an A-!"...... *sighs* really don't know what to do.... today was meant to study the whole section of Cell processes, where am i up to? first two pages of the first lecture.... and what's the time now? 9.25p.m.....

here's my plan for the next dno how many weeks..three wks i think... last two weeks ain't detailed coz i can't plan that far... i'm just worried for this week...if i can stick to this week's plan, then i have a slight chance of getting A- for my biosci 107..given up on sportsci105 coz i screwed it up so far....

Sunday 4/6 (right now!!!)
10pm-2am: Cell Processes

Monday 5/6:
Will wake up late
11am- vacuum the house so need not worry abt mum bugging me to do so
12pm- sportsci 105 lecture 1-5
go uni dno at what time with bro : sportsci 105 lecture 6-12

Tuesday 5/6:
9am-12pm: touch
12pm-1pm: shower and lunch and if lucky, quick nap at city
1pm-6pm: sportsci 105 lecture 13-17
6pm-8pm: dinner, rest
8pm-2am: Blood and immune system

Wednesday 7/6:
10.30- travel to city
11am-3pm: Neurons
3.30-7.30: Muscle
After dinner: Past papers

Thursday 8/6:
9.15-11.30: Biosci 107 EXAM!!!!
11.30-1pm: Lunch, rest at city
1pm-5pm: Sportsci 105 lecture 18-24
After dinner: Past papers

Friday 9/6:
9.15-12.30: Sportsci 105 EXAM!!!!
woohooo!!!!!
1pm: Netball at windmill!!!! yeee-ya!!!
Tank juice after that? Yes? heeeheeeee

Saturday 10/6:
10.30-12.30: Netball at rec
Tank juice again? lolxxx.... i want!!!!!!
Rest whole day...enjoy!!!!!

Sunday-Friday 11/6- 16/6: Sportsci 103 study, maybe some netball in between

Saturday 17/6:
2.15-5.30: Sportsci 103 EXAM

Sunday 18/6:
Maybe netball in the morning?

Monday to Thursday 19/6-22/6: Psysch 108 study

Friday 23/6:
2.15-4.30: Psych 108 Exam!!!!!!!
4.30: MERDEKA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yeah baby!!!! bring on the holidaysss!!!!

ahhhhhhh...can't wait for it to be over.... i shall be keeping my laptop now...if need to use internet, will use bro's computer (so later he can shoo me away!!!) or the uni's computer... if you see me online this week at all, be it AWAY or BUSY, please ask me to go off and just annoy me heaps till i go off..okiee?? to chase me off, here's what i did to my wallpaper for my laptop...



good luck to me trying to stick to my plan!!!!!! Shermayne Boleh!!!!

Good luck to everyone else in their exams!!!! You Can DO IT!!!!

Have an AWESOME WEEK!!!!!!
Smile and Stay Happy (eventho exams are dreadful :p)