they are never satisfied...

Let's face it. I'm a last minute person. Of course it's not a good thing but somehow, I can always handle it and get things done in the end. Hence, it's hard for me to change to become a more organized person as things usually turn out alright for me. So I figured, why change if all is good?

I wish you could just accept me for who I am and that I am like this. Everyone has their flaws. This is one of mine. I've tried to change so that you can be happy and be satisfied with me. And of all people, I thought you would've been proud of me but it doesn't seem like it. I'm never good enough for you, am I?

It's like you're never satisfied and always finding fault with me. One after another. When I've sorted something out and have found a solution to it, you don't really praise me on that, you'll just find something else to nag about. It sucks and it upsets me knowing that you are not happy with me and that you don't really trust me. It's like you don't believe in me that I am strong and capable enough to take up the challenge.

Please know that I do care and I am worried. Please know that I am trying to be less last minute than the usual and I am learning to be more organized. Don't think of me as the person with the couldn't-be-bothered attitude. I just don't show that I care but I do care!! I'm doing everything to make sure I'll survive. Doesn't mean that you don't see me worrying means that I am not worried. Doesn't mean that you don't see me preparing means that I'm not prepared and have got my act together.

I wish you could trust me. I wish for you to believe in me. These are the wishes from your daughter...