31st-Friday: Went to auntie suzanne'se house for dinner. Our own tiny lil merdeka celebration. Lolx! Nice family. Am so blessed to meet such wonderful people. Thanks to them, I saved heaps on buying bedsheets, pillow, pillowcase, kitchen utensils and so on. I'm a lucky girl.
1st - Saturday: Fish Frosh! No idea what frosh is but yea, it's like orientation like that. Didn't join the one that the uni organized as it costs 65 bucks because of the unlimited beer they have. Not a good way to meet friends - everyone will be drunk. Instead, I went for this alternative frosh organized by several christian clubs in the uni -Fish Frosh! As evangeline was a christian, hence I just tagged along. It was great! Nice bunch of people, really friendly. Started with a free pancake breakfast and then in the afternoon, went for this scavenger hunt. Didn't really get to see the place properly as we were basically running around trying to complete our tasks. Let me see ... I kissed a horse, I kissed a stranger (a lil kid so not too bad :p), I asked strangers for their phone numbers and did many crazy poses with statues. Sorry, no pictures. If one day I get hold of them, then it'll be up here. Was so tired the whole time as my jetlag kicked in on Friday. Didn't have jetlag when I arrived as I guess I was so busy hunting for houses and then after settling down, then the jetlag kicks in. Came home, Skyped with mummy and daddy for half an hour then went for a nap. Supposed to go out at night for bubble tea with the same group of people but I couldn't wake up. Slept from 8 till 9 the next morning.
2nd-Sunday: Woke up from a wonderful 13 hrs sleep and then lazed around as evangeline went to church. Finally a day where I don't have anything to do. Good that I can relax but bad coz I just started thinking about everyone back in nz. The super sports sundays, the yogo moments, the eating sessions .... *sigh*
Throughout yesterday and today.. I was just thinking. I had so much free time to just think.
Realized I'm missing out on so much. So many things going on back there. The free merdeka lunch (I'm always a sucker for free food) .... The upcoming road trip up north ... arghh!! I really wish I can go as I had so much fun the last road trip!!! And this time with van!! Swannie, make sure next easter we go ok! promise me..... but then it'll still be diff coz vanessa won't be here next yr... *sigh*
And then there was the ball. I missed a superb ball. One which I didn't want to go in the first place because of................. But that was before the dance practices started. Before I met more wonderful people. Before I knew it was gonna be so much fun. Once the trainings started and once I got to know these people better, then I regretted. Because all these factors over-ruled the two reasons that made me didn't want to go.
Why did I pray so hard to go on this exchange? Why didn't I just decline the offer to go on the exchange when I got accepted? Why didn't I just book my ticket on the 27th and skip the first few days of orientation so that I won't miss the superb ball?
I should have prayed less. I could have declined the offer. I would have booked my ticket to fly on a later date.
Here I am on the other side of the world missing out on so much fun back home. Here I am wanting to experience the feeling of being an international student but I'm not really since I'm not staying in the residence hall. That was also one of the main reasons why mom wanted me to go on an exchange, so that I can experience how it's like to live with other students from all over the world and mix around with them. Now she's even considering of sending me to the residence halls when I go back to akl next yr. Haha! I doubt I would want it after this. Lolx! Should have just done that in the first place eh? Would have saved heaps!!!!
(after even more in-depth thinking and analysing.....)
I realized this is life. Where you have to expect the unexpected. I didn't expect I would be running around Montreal looking for a place to stay. I didn't expect it to be so hard. I didn't expect I have to wait for so many days to just open a bank account. I didn't expect I have to survive with 40 bucks for more than a week. I didn't expect the majority to be speaking french. I didn't expect for all the menus to be in French.
But all of these happened. I guess it's all about adapting and moving on.
And the answers to my own questions....
Why did I pray so hard to go on this exchange?
Not just because of running away from responsibilities. In fact, I actually put myself into having more responsibilities. It was because I want to be challenged. To overcome whatever crap is being thrown at me. An opportunity to be a stronger person.
Why didn't I just decline the offer to go on the exchange when I got accepted?
Because I don't want the hard work of applying for this exchange to go away just like that (besides, if i were to decline it, I won't be getting $3000! It's all about the money baby!). Because I have troubled some people to hand up my documents and I have to make their time worth it. Because it would be a once in a lifetime opportunity.
Why didn't I just book my ticket on the 27th and skip the first few days of orientation so that I can attend the ball?
Because if I were to arrive a day or two later, I will still be homeless and be spending heaps on backpackers. I won't be here blogging, I won't be poker-ing.. I will still be running around looking for a place to stay, I will be getting more blisters, I will be more than broke because of backpackers.
It is true indeed that everything happens for a reason.
Things may seem sucky right now but I believe with time, it will be better. Because eventually we will move on. We will stop thinking on what we could have,would have, should have done... Because there isn't really a right or wrong decision. It's all about how you go about it after making that decision. Be positive and everything will be a-ok!!
School starts tomorrow. I'm all ready for a new semester. After more than 2 months of break, welcome back!!
Bye bye house-hunting chores!!! The search is over!!!!
New semester... clean table. Fresh start!
The lil empty space I have in my room. Let's see how long this tidy-ness will remain.
Notice anything familiar on the door? hehehe.. told you i'll bring it!!
Because I'm broke. Because I'm trying to save money. Hence I can't afford to buy a pencil holder. Time to recycle! A pencil holder made from a water bottle. Haha! The water bottle was FREE. Heeheee.... I think the lubang btwn my fingers getting smaller and smaller d.
Current time: 10.46p.m.
Date: 3/9/2007
2 comments:
aiyo...asal emo...no need to cause like u said everything happened for a reason..
and u are considered so damn lucky..you get to visit canada and all the great places in america..i would love to swap places with you anytime..your exchange is priceless u know that...enjoy while you can..
smile
yes yes sifu darren.. everything happens for a reason...i'm all good now la... it's just one of those moments when i'm feeling down... i mean, it's normal to be emo once in awhile right? if not, i'm not human...wahahahaha!!
great places in america? now i not really sure if i wna go travelling in the US.. maybe buy one way ticket home.. if mummy n daddy let...hahaha!!
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