whining session 3..hopefully the last one.... don't read if u hate my whines... this is gna be long...
"sorry we didn't spend much time together... when u're free, i'm not, and when i'm free, you're not. and when we're both free, WE don't have transport coz YOUR parents don't let YOU drive or YOUR parents aren't free to take us around" omg!!! wth?? first u said i didn't mail u and that i've forgotten u.. now u say this.... i've been mailing u so much nd no replies... nw u blame it on me.. nd u make it seem that i'm the reason y we didn't meet up so much... geez! who's the one with appropriate full license nd drives in that kind of traffic more often? i dun even kno if my license is valid.... u think it's alright for me to trouble my parents and not urs? nd then urghh!! ppl who saw me quite often now say i didn't spend much time with them as well... but at least they say it in a nicer way and don't blame me.... they say i've changed tho, say i don't organize things anymore... say i stayed home more as if i can't be stuffed going out... man! it's really hard to please both sides as said earlier on....
u think u're always right and ppl hv to always suit ur time.. u think it's alright to always cancel plans last minute?? and the one day that we decided to go out for lunch.. heck! u didn't eat..u left me eating and u went off to exchange ur top... it seems like the main reason for u to go was to exchange ur stuff... and then u had to rush home ... and i had to finish my lunch fast....i kept the whole day for u and u told me last minute that u hv to be home at a certain time... u didn't even bother to tell me earlier... i cld hv planned other things...
all the time i've fallen for ur reasonings....and i always say it's alright.. i always say it can wait....now................. u know what? i didn't even bother to wish or have a small hope that u came that day (that day shall not be mentioned or ppl will kno who it is).. but u turned up.... u turned up late and left early.... to me, u just came for a show... let them stare at u, the way u dress, act as if u care... then u left to another... i guess i'm not important to u anymore even when u say i am... and all those times when u asked me to go for the functions at ur ch, now it seems u juz want me to change...not want me to have fun.... y dun u respect what i am? i'm happy with my religion, i respect urs, respect the teachings as well... now, i'll still respect ur religion.. but not u... coz u're not right.. u dun make ppl happy.... ppl who hv good teachings will make ppl happy... but u don't nd u go arnd complainin abt me as well.. guess u dno who's close to me, and who isn't... u tld the wrong ppl nd it got to me.... u came up with a reason to avoid it but u gave others a diff reason.. how am i gna make u happy if u dun tell me what u really want? argh! screw it!
u say u'll go back eoy and we'll meet up for sure... u know what? bullsh**! even if u go back, u won't hv time for me.. u nv will.. u'll come up with so many reasons... and even if u do, it will just be for an hour or so where i'm eating and u're doing ur stuff...
as i said.. i'm not gna get pushed arnd so much anymore... i'm gna stand up for myelf... i'm nt gna get ur fav stuff, i'm nt gna drive u arnd(not ur chauffeur).. u can do all the plannings if u wna meet up.. i'm just gna wait for ur call... wait for ur offer... and then..... i'll do what u did to me=ffk.. i'm not the nice person u think i am anymore... not to u of course... u still consider us best buds, i don't... they're just words.. they dun mean anything to me anymore.... to me, i see that u're just using that term to maintain our friendship...yupz, friendship will be maintained... u'll just be my HI-BYE friend so i won't feel bad anymore....
THE END (i doubt u'll read this coz u're still so busy.. but i'm nt gna reply ur mail)
this is the end of it... i think? i've got nothing to else to say already.. i've said everything i wanted to say.... it's out.. it's out for the world to read it.... but person still remain anonymous.... i'm a happy person right now... both sides been sorted... or shall i say 3? lolx!!!
I hold no grudges. Ignorance is bliss. Nothing ever happened. Forget the past(forget that u existed), treasure the present, plan for the future.
IT WOULD BE MUCH APPRECIATED IF YOU DON'T QUESTION THIS ENTRY AND THE PREVIOUS 2 THAT WERE SIMILAR TO THIS. ALSO I ASK U NOT TO DISCUSS THIS WITH OTHERS AS THEY JUST MIGHT BE THE ONE I'M TALKIN ABT. HAVE A NICE LIFE :-)
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