all gone... so sad....

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i was actually waiting till the end of this week to blog so i will have more stuff to say but well, screw that!! i'm so..... i dno...angry? sad? i dno.... i think more like sad.. the kind of sad when u lose something that have a sentimental value and u will never get it back....FOREVER!!!!! *sob* here's how it goes...

this evening after my shower, i decided to go check my emails before i study. turned on my laptop, everything was working fine. was signing onto msn and then suddenly, the power just turned off. well, i guess it was coz i tripped over the wire and the plug to the power got disconnected. no harm done, just have to turn the the power back on and i'm good to go. BUT... NO! when i turned it back on, it came to a screen saying that my files have been damaged or smth like that larrr... lots of words that's all i know. so i asked my brother to help me. he tried everything and said i have no choice, need to format my computer. the moment i heard FORMAT.. i was like..... NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! all my files gone!! i didn't back them up and he tried to recover them but couldn't coz couldn't even get windows xp to load. we tried REPAIR windows but also cannot. so, no choice but to format my computer. how can this happen? virus? don't think so coz i didn't download anything apart from team america from bittorrent and that was like a week ago. and there wasn't any annoying pop ups or anything weird going on. haihhh...so sad.... all my files.. gone!!

my music files- it's ok larr. .i can download them again from limewire, most likely to get virus but can back the files up and format the comp again.
tv series LOST and movies- can get them from shiun, still having his harddrive with me, hehe..
so it's ok.
book-marked sites- nvm larr.. can slowly search for them again
cambridge past papers where some of my money comes from there by printing them and selling them- ermm.. i shall find another way to get money.. i think i still hv the cd anyway.. hiding somewhere

ok, all those i'm fine with them being gone. i will have to download windows media player, divx player, real player, msn msgr and all those again but i'm used to doing that, so i'm fine with that lar....

now, here's the part where i'm sad.....

all my past assignments, essays written when i was in macleans.. all gone!! ok, u might be thinking, why the heck do i keep them? such a weirdo.. ok i am a weirdo but well, for memories sake.. u know, it's quite funny reading them over again... there was my 4th form science fair project and i find it really cute. plus i took a lot of time writting my essays, especially the english essays in 6th form. all the satire writings. ok larr.. not that bad i suppose, coz i have them somewhere in my blog i think. but i don't think i have the one i wrote on romance publish anywhere. it's quite dodgy but very funny. that essay made the whole class laughed and even the teacher. and i threw away the copy that i printed out. haihhhh....

now, here's the part where i'm really really sad, the kind of sad that i explained earlier on....
all my photos are gone!!! ALL of them!! i did not back them up... i have the ball photos on yahoo so i guess i can live with that eventho they're small... but but... all the family photos that we took since 2002 when we came to nz are gone!! all the travelling photos... all gone!!! i guess we can start going back to all those places again and take photos but.. it's different... *sigh* all the funny poses the whole family did, all the lovely brother and sister photos, mum and dad photos.... all gone... *hits self on head for deleting them from the harddrive*... what i have left wld be those in my geocities website... tiny tiny ones.... and then there's the childhood photos... that's not too bad i suppose coz i took them from the video my dad recorded when we were young and i still have the cd.. video better than pictures so that's alright.

then there's the college photos.. all the funny photos i took during the last term at macleans... we were just taking as much as we can coz it's our last year of college life and want to remember it. all the crazy poses we did and made ourselves looked psycho. those were photos that i treasured a lot. those were the photos where in 10 yrs time u look back at them and will just start cracking up. ok, i have a few of them in my msn space but they are small, i want the original huge ones!!!! omg!! and then there's the photos from my 18th bday!! those are gone too!!! and the photos i took during my trips back in msia....man!! those are precious!!!! the pictures i took during climbing mt.k! those are gone too!!!! NO!!! nvm lar.. that one can go climb again and take again..hehe... but but. 18th bday!!! i won't be 18 anymore.... bugger!!

and then there's the folder where all my files on my geocities website are stored at... i haven't been updating that website for ages...2 yrs already perhaps but every single time i format my computer, i always back them up as well tho i kno i won't touch them anymore....never have the heart to delete them.. guess it's coz it's like what kept me occupied during my first 2 yrs in nz where i'm seriously bored and hated nz so much!

well, i guess i have to learn to let go.. all i have now would just be memories in my head... not from photos anymore... at least not all is lost.. i still have them on my msn space, some at yahoo, some at geocities....it's not the best but i'm thankful that i still have some of them. i suppose sooner or later this day will come, the day where everything in ur precious laptop just can't be retrieved... happened to so many ppl i know, never thought it wld happen to me... and now i'm making such a big deal... typing such a long post.

maybe this year calls for some changes eh? since i leave college, i also have to leave those photos behind i suppose.... start a new chapter, a new collection... i'm still young, got so many more great events to capture... i learnt my lesson... at the end of every year, i shall burn the photos and files into a cd... that way, if this ever happened again, i'm all good!!!

ok, time to study for my practical test.. it's tmrw!! that was another reason why i planned not to blog till end of this week... so i won't waste time... my laptop really cannot use till end of this week also.. hehehe.. need to install so many programmes... grrrrrrrrr!!!!!

Smile and Be Happy!
Have a Great Week!!!
BYE!!!!!

the end of easter break

April 30th- last day to purchase mt.ruapehu season pass at $299!!!! tomorrow onwards, it will be $569... so hurry while it's too late!!!!!! lolxxx!!!

yeapzzz.. in the end, i got it.. in the end, i key in my dad's credit card number and there's another 300 bucks gone... in the end, i'm a spoilt brat who spent 600 of her dad's money and soon, it will be even more..

i feel so guilty! i actually decided not to buy it but my brother and his friends said they will only go to ruapehu the 3rd week of holz coz will have more snow and not so rocky..the snow only came in september nd i had to study for stupid a lvls.. hopefully this yr both times will be awesome. omg!! and i'm planning to get a snowboard!!! far out! another 400 bucks or so.... shucks!!! coz if i use the board for more than 20 times, then it's definitely worth it.. one day is 20 bucks.. hmmmnnn...man!!i feel that i really should work my butt off and earn some money orelse i will feel really guilty coz i don't deserve it. but, there's no job and they don't want me to get a job in like countdown or the cinemas. frm nw on, i'll just do whatever they ask me to do with no complaints!!!

omg!! the april holz just ended and i already sort of planned out my july holzz.. lolxx!!!

26,27 june- first aid course compulsory for all sportsci students
29/6-8/7- otago
9th - maybe 14th- ruapehu

wahhhh!!!!!!! lets see how much money will be spent during that holzz...
first aid course-free
otago- hopefully not more than 800
ruapehu- season pass 299, snowboard maybe 400, accom for 5 nights 100(bugger! otago is double the price!! grrrrrrr), petrol 50, food 100

Total: $1749!!!! far out!!! that's a flight back to msia with some leftover money!!! bugger!!!! ok, i shall make myself feel better.. say if i dun buy the snowboard, then it will be $1429... ahhhh!! that's a little bit better... a flight back to msia with very little leftovers...

hmmm... the september holz (here's me thinking so so so far ahead) will definitely be cheaper.. let's count... petrol 50, food 100, accom for 5 nights 100.... total $250!!! wahahahahahhahaa!!! 7 times less!!! lalalalalalalaa!!!!!!

8 more weeks till holiday!!!!!!!!!!!! 5 more weeks till exams!!!!!! 8 weeks of working my butt off!! have to!!!!! it's a MUST!!! let me see.... i shall allow myself to 10 posts from tmrw onwards till the 23rd of june..... if i blog more than 10 times, i will pay 5 bucks to all of u that tag me and tell me that i blog more than 16 times.. currency in ringgit of course.... hehehe... the current exchange rate is 2.6 something.. but i shall be nice and put it to 2.5..... so it will be 2nzd....i dno what u can do with 2nzd(ice cream or pie at mcd's or wriggly insects at two dollar shop) but u can do heaps with 5 ringgit!!! at ss2 murni, satu roti special 3.50, satu ayam goreng 1.50..mmm!!! or 5 bucks worth of roadside rojak and cendol near yiwen's house till u cirit birit but it's all good coz it's so yumm.... or wan tan mee with extra wan tan and lime with sour plum juice.... or chicken rice and lime with sour plum juice or milo ais... lalalalalala.... i'm getting hungry.....

anyhoooo...... so from 1st may 12a.m. till 23rd june 4.30p.m., i can only blog 10 times orelse u get ur money!!!

ok, i'm so sleepy nw.. slept at 5am this morning and woke up at 9.30.. was meant to stay up the whole night watching lost but... but.............. i got scared!! my fingernails are...wait, i dun think i have any left!!!! all bitten off!! it got kinda freaky.... that dude just creeps me out..... what dude? he might be................................. no, i won't spoil it for u all.. so yea, decided to go and sleep.. couldn't really sleep.. was suddenly freezing... i shall go take a nap and finish up my notes on bio.. hehe, was meant to do it on friday but didn't.....bye bye and happy schooling!!!!!!!!

omg!!! lost!!!

with 8 new episodes of lost to watch tonight, scary movie 4, ice age 2, the ringer and maybe some smallville episodes, i don't think i'll be sleeping... thanks shiun!!!

i have my reasons watching them tonight ok... good reasons.... u see, if i watch lost now, then next time i don't need to make wednesday my tv night for the next 8 weeks.. then i can study...wow!!brilliant eh? of course i wld not look forward to wednesdays anymore but heck!!! nvm larrr...study comes first right? of course i cld study tonight instead of watching but..... no mood... and i wldnt hv the will to study the whole night and not sleep... but i do have the power to stay up and watch lost....who doesn't??

ok... oc and dinner time and later.....heeeheeeheee

weird dream

(seriously, don't read this post, u won't find it interesting and it's super long, i blabber too much)

had a really weird and scary dream this morning... seemed so real but when i woke up, the location and everything was just weird and impossible.... why this morning? well, woke up at 8 something after a really nice dream then slept back again since netball was cancelled... wanted to go back to the same dream(i was talking to a hot guy man!) but no!!! went into a weird, nice and later.... a scary one....

i was at this hotel (dno what hotel larr) and they had this really nice swimming pool but it's weird coz it's really huge and really deep.. deep like the one in ksas(msia) .... usually weird shaped hotel swimming pools aren't deep.. but this was really deep.... so syok!!! so i jumped in and then i realized i was still having my bag on me and my phone was inside!!! then it was like as if i didn't care about the phone.. i just took the bag off and chuck it to the pool side....

then yea, was playing with matt and then i pulled him all the way to the bottom of the pool and then somehow i accidentally hit his head on the floor and he became unconscious!! omg!! and then so funny, i tried to wake him up when i was still under the pool and then i was like.. wake up wake up!!! come to think about it, how can i talk under the pool and how is it possible that i was able to hold my breath for that long? anyway, i tried to pull him up to the surface.. but then he was so heavy...matt is heavy? lolxx!!! then now come to think about it, he wld just float up what.... so yea, i carried him and slowly climbed the stairs on the side of the pool.. stupid lar!!! the stairs at the ksas pool is so short only.. haha!! where got go till the very bottom!! haha!!! so yea, halfway up he woke up! apparently he was just faking it.... and then we started kicking each other and wrestling underwater...

anyway, we got all the way up and guess what??? mr.ang was there!!!! aiyooo!!! what dream is this man?? hahahaha!! then mr.ang was like.... if you all don't want to train properly, pack ur bags and go home!! and then yiwen nd shaleeni came running to us and said, yayy!! water polo time!!! omg! so random!! and then we played water polo!!! and then in the game there were ppl from macleans as well!!! like all the ppl that i played water polo with last yr at school..they were all there... playing with the ksas swimmers and we knew each other and stuff.... it was so fun nd filled with laughters....

then after the game, i got out and realized my phone was really flimsy.. the part where u flip the phone open was like just danggling there.... i was like.. omg omg!!! and then matt and yiwen came and look at it and the whole thing just got dismantled!!! the numbers and everything just fell to the ground..... then matt was like, nvm, can fix one.. i fix before... wtf?? then he took out an instruction book and started fixing the phone... where got instructions on how to fix back a dismantled phone? maybe got such thing but i dno lar....but tak jadi still.... then my laptop was there as well.... and it was also really flimsy and the screen was just blank.. when u turn it on, it's just a screen of white light... and then couldn't really keep the laptop open.. it kept on falling down..... i was like.. ohhh no!!! how can? both my phone and laptop rosak!!! i was so sad.... so so sad..... then............



ding dong!! i woke up.. got a text from siewaun.. lolx!! first thing was... yayy! it was just a dream and my phone is still working.. and my laptop on my table is fine!!!!! i was so happy!!!! but the dream about being in ksas was just so nice.... now i kinda miss the pool and the good times and friends there.... ok, i even miss the training days and mr.ang's scolding... i hvnt had a dream about being in ksas for a very long time.. actually the whole of last year i never dream about that.. when i first came to nz, i always dreamt that i was training in ksas but schooling in nz.. haha!! but this morning, i dreamt about that suddenly... but the phone and laptop was the main point of the dream lar...i was seriously so sad.. coz both also very new.... wow!! just realized that i've been away from the pool for so long... my last swim was in february 12th... didn't go lloyd elsmore this year to just go for a swim...maybe that's why i dreamt about being in a pool? i dno.... but lloyd elsmore is boring nd shallow... what makes swimming fun is the friends and sometimes, the exhaustion is fun.... if just swim leisurely, it's quite boring.... unless the pool is real deep and then u hold ur breath and go all the way down and try to touch the floor!! heeeheee.....

1.70.9 petrol!

Btw, petrol prices are now 1.70.9

someone just shoot me!

hvnt blogged the last two days

weeeee!! blogging time!! ok, so i did use the laptop the last two days. I have my reasons ok! Wednesday I had to finish downloading team america and had to check my bank account coz mom said it had some weird transaction. Still can't find it. Then also brother wanted me to check my bank account to see if some money went it or not.. so yea, have to use the computer.. didn't go on msn tho!!!! ok larr.. i appeared offline.... just curious to see who's online... heehee! ooo!! and wednesday peiyun came to my house!!!! so surprise to see her!!!!! felt kinda mean when LOST started coz i stopped talking to her already and she was just waiting... sorry yun!!! but yea.. lost that night was so cool!! omg!! they met The Others!!!! woah woah woah!!!

anyhuuuuzzzz.... thursday had to go online and book my flight for otago... and had to go on msn to ask yingswan whether she wanted to do the same as me- fly down earlier and wander around otago and perhaps sleep in the airport (like tom hanks in The Terminal!)... ok larr, maybe go to some really cheap-ass budget backpackers lodge and sleep and explore the tiny town. so yea.... by flying down earlier, we save around 68 bucks or more. We can use the 68 bucks to stay at some cheap place, feed on a box of cereal. of course it will cost more than 68 bucks but yea....better than being stuck at auckland and have nothing interesting to do.... probably would go shopping again and spend much more. so yea, we were discussing this online yesterday and made our decision to fly down earlier. Hmmnn.. come to think about it, it wld be so cool if we go and hitch-hike cars along the highway.. then don't need to pay for transport..haha!!! south island ppl more slow-going and more kind what.... coz crime rate less than north island so still may give rides to strangers, right? i'm such a genius!!! *coughs*

btw, clap ur hands for me coz i resisted from logging on to friendster for TWO days!

there's evidence!!! it was so tempting to go on yesterday.. seriously, what's so good bout friendster? there's nothing on it really.... but why do i still want to log on? habit i suppose.. haha!!! and yea, i also resisted from blogging... heeheee....

i did not manage to learn 50% of my anatomy but i updated all my psychology notes, that's one achievement at least!!! ohh!! and today went to tamaki to get help from the tutor on my pscyh lab report, realized i actually got everything right in the first place.. my interpretations of my data were correct!!! thank goodness i wasn't bull-shitting when i met the tutor.. hehe.... so yea, got it typed out and print and weeee!!! so two achievements!!! ok, didn't touch my biology when i was meant to but hmmm.. will do it later larr.. hehehe.. hopefully!!!! and oooohh!! Team America!!!!!

so much work! so lil time!

cleaned my room today so can start getting some work done tomorrow and the rest of this week.... after dinner, decided to start on my psychology lab report and finish it... got up to a third of it and realized i don't really know what i'm doing. i don't even know what the data meant! so yea, couldn't interpret the data at all. went thru my lecture notes briefly and flip through a few pages of my textbook and then..................... i freaked out. i realized in order to complete that lab report, i have to read both chapters on development.. argh! and yea, i haven't been reading the textbook for quite some time and wasn't paying much attention during the lectures.... boring lecturer and the whole thing on development just did not interest me... but well, for the sake of passing, i shall start reading tomorrow and hopefully i can complete my lab report so i need not worry about it.... hmmnn.. got lots to do before school starts... i think i need to keep my laptop again so i won't get distracted..... but i hvnt finish downloading team america..

my plan for the next few days...

wednesday: read both chapters on development and complete psychology lab report(draft). write up notes on individual differences and basically finish up all the unfinished notes for psychology. no laptop!

thursday: study anatomy at tamaki campus, must know most of the muscles and ligaments at the end of the day. must be at least 50% prepared for the practical test and mid-term test. no laptop!!

friday: do some work on biology, write up unfinished notes and be very prepared and organized when uni starts. take out laptop and go online!!!! type out psychology lab report for handing in.

saturday: shopping with peiyun!! finally!!! organize exercise prescription notes, go through anatomy at night.

sunday: netball. revise anatomy. get ready for school!!!!!

btw.. i've decided not to get my season pass for snowboarding this year.. last year one was wasted coz my winter holz was diff frm my bro so didn't go to the mountain for many days...and this year, don't think i can go with him during the july holidays coz he said he'll most probably go during the 2nd week of holiday..arghh!!!so yea, not worth for me getting it if i am only planning to go during the september holzz.... and my bro is definitely going to go in september as well so i'll follow him... i'm sure i won't snowboard for more than 5 days straight!! to make the season pass worth it, must go to the mountains at least 5 times.... season pass is 290... 4 days lift pass is 274... so yea.... the most i will snowboard for will be 4 days straight.. it wld be enough.... so i guess, no snowboarding for me this winter.... haihhh.. i was looking forward to it since last year!!! on the brighter side, i'm so looking forward to go to otago so it's all good...


since today's anzac day, i shall do my part.....

"At the going down of the sun and in the morning... We will remember them"

don't die on me!!! and shermayne's anatomy?? haha

far out!! bittorrent just had to die on me!!! i was so excited... from 30.5% this morning(monday morning) and then to 91.5% and it died!! alahh!! i tot i can watch team america tonight... it was going quite fast... then ishh!!! pfft!!! hopefully tmrw morning when i wake up, it will be finished.. right now, it's not downloading at all.... 0KB/s.. a lot of ppl say team america is very dodgy... but i kept on thinking.. they're just puppets!! how dodgy can it be? not real also.. lolxx! so yea.. decided to see it for myself... haha! hopefully i'm downloading the correct one... sekali turn out to be some sort of joke then i'll hit myself on the head dno how many times....

hmmnn.. it's 1.18am already.. so it's considered tuesday already. meaning..... i didn't blog on monday!!! hahaha!!! anyway.. so yea, monday... went to tamaki campus with melissa, amy and christine.. practical on wednesday 15%... mid-term test on thursday 20%... shucks!! realized i have HEAPS to study.... worked with the skeleton from 10am till 2pm!! hmmn.. what bond we have eh? i named it sawyer the skeleton.. he's the hottest skeleton ok!! haha!! wanted to name it charlie coz of the british accent but hmmnn...hot accent or hot looks? of course go for hot looks lar.. so yea, that's 4 hrs with the skeleton.. learnt 40 muscles today!! but ermm.. right now, i can hardly remember any of them... i mean, i can name them all but ask me their insertion and origin.. i have no idea.... so confusing... got another 40 more to learn on thursday.... gosh!! still got the ligaments!!!

i was so stressed out at the lab today.. panicked quite a bit... haihhhh... after 2pm, got bored of sawyer so used the dynatomy prog on the computer.. copy and pasted so many pictures so i can go home and learn them... went home at 4pm..i feel so proud of myself.. did 6 hrs of work straight!! hehe... i deserve a break tmrw.. lolxx!!! took few photos of sawyer's hand to learn all the carpals...one of the phalanges of sawyer's hand is dislocated.. just realized it when i was going thru all the photos.. haha!!! so funny!!! i'm laughing by myself.. how saddening....

ehe! go me!! no pictures for this post!! wahahahaha...yayyyyyy!!! dad's arriving frm msia on 26th april at 3am in the morning.. so excited!! he's not bringing any food tho coz he hd to go down to sgp first... well, at least i'm getting my A4 lined refill!!! msian paper - better quality and cheaper.. heeheee!!

dinner and pool pictures

i didn't blog yesterday!! yayy!! go me!! was so tempted to but nahh.... i controlled myself... haha! so now, i deserve to blog... like it or not, i'm gna blog... wahahahaa.... i won't blog much when uni starts so now blog till very sien then stop blogging... i guess when i'm damn free, i wld tend to put pictures in my blog.. coz i just realized that since holiday started, nearly every post have pictures in them.. coz hv time to slowly wait for them to upload... sorry for damaging ur eyes!! i think it's a record, this is the month where i have the most picture post and then super uber funny video clip.... sorry abt the pictures.....

yesterday, didn't bike to airport, bro didn't wake up also... stayed at home and sleep till damn syiok... like a pig only... cooked dinner for the first time after don't kno how many months....

ok, be honest.... did i just made u throw up or drool? hehehe... i hope it's the second one...duh! but then again, it looked burnt.. so hmnnn.... at least it's colourful right? haha!!!

got pictures of me playing pool the other day.. carol was snapping them... i'm too attractive to her... haha! jokes!!! so perasan.... realized i do hv lots of expression when playing pool... the top 5 would be here... vote ur fav one by tagging me! cheers!!

this is my fav! the zoolander/ :-o look....

have a great week!

barbie boys? bloody idiots more like it

what do u get when there's two white guys lipsync-ing?

answer:





got it off chia wen's blog.... thanks chiawen!!! u made me laugh!!!!
darn freaking hilarious!!!! u have to go see it!!! i couldn't stop laughing throughout the whole thing!!! seriously... watch it to the END!!! take my word for it! thank goodness no one was around me orelse they'll think i'm an idiot laughing by myself... what to do? bored marrr.. but seriously, go see it... hahahahahahaha!!! tummy ache!!!

butt hurts

i think i shld really get a bike pants.. my butt really hurts... cycled to botany today to get a bike lock coz i lost mine and at the same time, was finding for bike pants but cldnt find.... coz i cldnt be stuffed going across the road to rebel... was just at k-mart.... there was hedgehog bikes but hehe... was too lazyy and i was all sweaty... my main reason was just to get my bike lock anyway.... was so tired.... haven't cycled for ages... but yea!!! road bikes are awesome!!!! managed to cycle up macleans rd w'out stopping and walking the bike up.. wahahahahaha!!!

followed my brother to the city today coz he had some activity thing... met up with carol and went shopping.. more like window shopping coz i mustn't spend anymore money... hehehe.. at 4, we were so bored... there's nothing much to see except the price tags which scares us off... so yea, went and try playing pool and be fools... ooo! that rhymes... shermayne and carol playing pool, they really looked like fools! hahaha!!! i won btw!! muahahahaa!!! then again, i played a couple of times when i was in msia making a fool out of myself and she never played before.. so yea.. heehee! i did won once tho when i was in msia by luck..hehehe... black ball went in first.. wahahahaha! don't u love it when that happens?

tmrw i might go biking with my brother to the airport!!!! MIGHT! if i can wake up and if i'm not aching and if i've got nothing on...haha!

btw.. here's the ONLY picture we had at rach's sleepover... two night two days and we only took one... so terrible...i remembered a yr ago, we took like hundred over....haha! guess i'm not in the mood...... rather watch dvds and fall asleep.. sorry rach!! haha!

White and Black

petrol discount for a LIMITED time only!

i really don't have a life.. i either sit at home the whole day staring at a screen or listening to a box lying down on my bed.... but, listening to the radio do have benefits....

here's what i found out at 6.38pm today which made me jumped out of my bed....

What the?? Can you guess??? what's so interesting with cars?

well, i was one of those cars..... petrol discount only till 7pm at participating Shell outlets..... so i rushed out and drove the car to the nearest shell station and that's what i saw.... i guess so many car owners also don't have a life.... then again, they might just be on their way home when they saw the fall in petrol prices by 5 cents for a limited time only!!!

reached home at 7.. but on the way home, i saw Mobil having the petrol price at 1.62.9 as well.. so i got home and drove the Estima to Mobil and fill it up...

*sigh* i really don't have a life (c'mon! i'm hvin 2 entries per day, that explains everything!)... computer, tv, radio, pump petrol.. how sad is that?

bio results and random thought on lynx

wow!!!29% out of 36% for my biology mid-term test! that's 81% for that test..... wahhh!!! i'm so happy!! i've been deprived from A's since...... since...... since 5th form.. so that's 2 yrs having no A's at all.... i'm serious!! but i don't think i'll get an A overall for this paper... just counted.. i only can bear to lose 8% the next half of this term if i wna get an A... which is highly impossible coz next half of this term wld be harder.... ishh!!! and the practicals are just killing me!! pulling my marks down so much!!

ohh wellzzz.... i shall be happy for now.. actually, i was happy for this holidays but now i shall be even more happier... i just don't wna kno what i got for exercise prescription coz i think i'll be disappointed as i'm aiming high but i hv a feeling i won't get high coz i didn't finish the multi choice.....

anyhuuuuzzz..... this morning when i was still lying in bed... i just thought of something random....

u know how the ad for the new LYNX deo called CLICK? where ben affleck goes arnd counting how many girls check him out and then when he got into the lift, this dude that's not hot at all had like way many more girls that checked him out compared to ben coz he used the new LYNX-CLICK ? well, i was just wondering.... say if u spray lynx click all over a girl and get her to go around, would other girls check her out as well coz of the smell? hmmnn....... suddenly u go shopping then u smell something real nice and thought there's a hot guy coming towards u, then u turn around, alah!!! just a chic only.... then she will click her clicker thingy coz u "checked" her out... quite an interesting experiment to do during the holidays, huh? go spray lynx click all over and walk around the shopping malls...haha! is the deo that effective? maybe the not-hot janitor looking dude got some inner hotness or something as well eh?

ok.. that's all... my tummy is grumbling....

satisfied me....

spent so much the last two days with rachel..... 50 bucks on her sweet 16 bday present, 15 bucks on food.... $135 on myself which got me everything i wanted hence i don't need to go shopping anymore....... heeeheeheeee......

$100 bucks on this pair of lovely nike cortez... i always wanted this kind of shoes!!! what more, it's baby blue!!!!!

i'm not a shoe lover so when i get shoes, i must really like them.... hehe.. dun think i'll be getting anymore shoes this year...jandals aren't considered.. then again, i'm happy with my current jandals....hehehehe.... now, i've got two shoes to switch during winter.... my nike running shoes and this nike cortez.... during summer, i switched btwn my running shoes and jandals.... only wear shoes when there's lab....haha!! yayy!!!

$10 army skirt from jay jays..

i only buy cheap stuff... haha!! i dun wear skirts(big thighs as u can see) but it's so cheap! maybe i shall consider wearing them the next summer... ooo!! with my new shoes... it'll be so awesome!!!! LOOK!!!!

taa-daa!!!! not bad right my mix n match skills!!! *ahem*

now, where did the other 25 bucks go to?? i bought a white racer back frm the warehouse for 9.88 and running shorts for 14.84.... so that's 24.72 actually... but i round it up lar.... don't u just love the warehouse?? everyone seriously gets a bargain... esp my white racer back...it was actually 15.41 before.. then now it's 10.. so happy... as for running shorts, no discount... but well, saves me the petrol frm going to dressmart and get the nike ones for 20 bucks. cheap lar for nike shorts but who cares lar? my ACTIVE running shorts is comfy!!!

*sings* The Warehouse.. the Warehouse... where everyone gets a bargain!!! ..................... with your money back guaranteed! *ends singing and sign off while laughing like an idiot*

rise of petrol prices just killed me

i feel so......... BETRAYED?? CHEATED?? HURT? ANGRY??

all because of.....................................................................

the rise in petrol of 11 cents in less than a WEEK!!!!!!!!! it was 1.56.9 on wednesday the 12th, then on the 13th, it shot up to 1.61.9... i already thought that was CRAZY!! that's why i was lining up for 10 mins on wednesday night to fill up the car full tank.... 5 cents rise!!! i thought "ohh well.. maybe it will remain like that for quite awhile..." mana tahu today on the way back from rach's house and saw it to be 1.67.9.. wtf??????? crazzzyyy!! 6 cents rise this time... this is too much!!!!!! too much i tell you.... ishhh!!!!!! what are they trying to do man??? why are they doing this to me? why?? why??????(shermayne feels like crying) so all in all, 11 cents rise in petrol in 6 days.... maybe taking the bus is cheaper already.... ish ish ish!! i want FREE PETROL!!! anyone? my ermmm.. super belated bday present?? petrol voucher perhaps? hehehehe....

the rise in petrol just kills the mood for shopping.. after i saw the rise in petrol, i was like..... nahhh, not going shopping anymore.. if i want to shop, i'll just bike to botany and shop... if suddenly just run out of milk and there's nothing else to buy, i'll bike to countdown and buy it.... besides, i got what i really wanted already at northshore today when i was at rachel's place..

this holiday, i actually planned to go shopping at st.lukes, dressmart and manukau with peiyun...also told caris and caroline that we shld go shopping during the holz coz hvnt shop for ages!!!! but now.......... really don't feel like it.. even the thought of just turning on the engine just hurts me... u know what? i am even considering cycling to the rec centre this wknd for netball... i'm just afraid that i'll be too tired to cycle back or it might rain and i'll hv to get my brother to come pick me up and then waste petrol....hmmnnn... there's a risk to take.. but if i cycle to and fro, i'll save maybe 6 bucks? it's a lot ok, i could go get a bk meal with that...

now i just hv to think what to do to meet up with peiyun.. i really miss her a lot!!! maybe we cld bake some cookies (and get fat) and then watch a movie? borrowed some dvds from rachel but peiyun works at the movies so i bet she hv watched all of them already...haha! but maybe we cld try to bake a proper cake... lolxx!! and for movies, maybe cld do that with caris and caroline and just hv to tell them i don't wanna go shopping coz of petrol prices.. if they want me to take them, pay me, haha! 6 bucks to st.lukes or to dressmart or to manukau.... 4 bucks to botany....i'm getting calculative now... blame the petrol prices!! blame the govt??

ok, that's all for today's procrastinating session.. wahahahahaha!!! sorryy!!!

yayy!! sleepover!!

in 6 hrs time.. i'll be seeing rachel!!!! woopteedooo!! haven't seen her since malaysia! that's ermm... 3 months? woahh!! 2 nights at her place this time.. heehee! must make the trip worth it, one night ain't enough, and petrol prices are so freakin high that if u travel all the way to northshore and just stay a night, it's not worth it!!! ooo!! i'm so excited!!! hopefully i can still watch desp housewives nd greys anatomy there.... lolx!! coming back on tuesday night so i can DEFINITELY watch LOST!!! it's getting so interesting!!! and my brother say it's such a lost show coz he gets so lost when he watches it.. geeezz!! just not paying attention man!!! hmph!!

yesterday night went to ajita's place when my bro and his friends ate at wildfire.... ajita said she wld only go if i go coz she didn't want to eat so much meat... and yea, i didn't want to eat so much as well coz i'm putting on weight.. what more? it's the holidays meaning i'll put on even more and there's the 5 tubs of ice cream in the freezer.... so, went to her place and had pasta nd chicken wings and watched SAW 2.... from...... her laptop... why? coz i think her dvd player doesn't play pirated dvds..haha! well, mine doesn't play pirated dvds as well so my dad got a dvd player frm china and it plays pirated ones...haha!!! the movie was...well, not that scary actually... i think it's coz i didn't watch saw1 so i didn't really kno what's going on nd when i'm trying to figure out what's happening, i tend to forget about fear... makes any sense? hmmnn....

anyhuuuu...back to vacuuming.. was vacuuming the downstairs and internet started working so yea...heeheee.... easily distracted...lolx!!! happy holidays!!! weeeeee!!!!!

no!!!!!!!!!!

sometimes it's not good setting ur hotmail account to exclusive coz u'll miss out on some important mails esp. if you don't check ur junk mail everytime... just realized sarah sent me an invitation to this msian sporean party/gathering and it's today!! omg! and i was desperately finding something to fill up my saturday night as i've been a goody good staying at home on thurs and fri... aww man! it wld be kinda fun to go, see all the new junior members and spot all the msian or sporean wannabes and meet some of the old members... hahahaha!! and maybe.. maybe hot thai dude will be there!!! he's in the club this yr according to sarah.. damnit! y didn't he join the club last yr? grrr!! then he can fry bananas with me!!! but no, he joined this yr and fried bananas with sarah.. lucky girl but she don't find him hot.. hmph! apparently they didnt get to sell all the pisang goreng this yr during food fest (evil me grinning coz my pisang goreng got sold out in 10 mins last yr! i'm good!!) .. i rckon those who bought it are all the girls that just wna talk to hot thai dude.. "excuse me, can i have a fried BANANA?"

ok, this is just wrong.. checking out younger guys...he's only few mnths younger lerr.. nope.. that's still not right... hahaha!!!

cookies and cream heaven... yummm!!!

woke up at 8 this morning to send mom to aunt susie's house coz she's gonna go for a walk.. so i decided to go to the rec. centre earlier.. went onto the bike coz didn't want to go on the rowing machine anymore...scared of blisters.... but after 15 mins on the bike... i got bored.. and the rowing machine was just right there!! it was so tempting!!!! u gta believe me... the rowing machine is the best equipment ever! so fun!!! so yea, went on the rowing machine and did 2ks only... blisters are getting bigger but ohh wellzzzz.... as long as i'm happy, it's all good... screw the blisters!

later at 11, played volleyball and netball.. i suck at volleyball... the ball is always going the opposite direction.. i think it hates me.... and my arms hurt so much(NO PAIN NO GAIN) and it's all swelled up with bruises.. so fat and ugly...

isn't it pretty? u gta admit it's pretty.. i mean, bruises are sort of the same thing as scars right? having scars are cool!!!! i think i need to toughen up my arms... build some sort of immunity towards pain.. is there such thing? should have right since i didn't feel much pain when breaking ice during taekwondo performance.. it bleed but no pain.. lolxx!! so maybe i shld start breaking ice with my arms? then again, mum wld kill me if i make ice blocks again and occupy her freezer.. coz now it's pretty much occupied by.....................................

what the heck are those blue boxes??? guess... guess!!!!

damn rightt!!! cookies and cream ice cream!!!!!!!! guess how many boxes??

if you guessed 6, you're WRONG!! it's only 5 lar.. mum's predicted reaction:"ONLY 5?? no more space to put my food already u know! siao arr?" hahahhaa.. the other box is my rocky road ice cream that isn't finished....

hey!! i'm not the crazy culprit this time ok.. the milo heaven the other time was me.. but this time, it was my brother.... i was just innocently sitting inside the car.... we went to the foodtown at pakuranga and there was only one box left.. he was so disappointed but he still grabbed it of course! on our way home, drove to the foodtown at highland park and he came out with 4 boxes!!!!!! this old lady was just staring at him thinking he was crazy and i was just cracking up in the car.... *sigh* this is just how far we would go if we like something a lot and when it's CHEAP ($2.99 a box)!!!

haha! can't wait to see mom's reaction when she opens the freezer... lolxx!!! i think we will be eating cookies and cream ice cream fr the rest of this holxx... it's all good!! i'm not complaining.. haha!! it's fattening but screw it!!! life is all about enjoying it! if tmrws weather is good, might bike to tamaki... see how long it takes... and then come home and eat cookies and cream or i might hv to finish my rocky road icecream first.... bro biked to city campus today and it took him 40 mins.. what a legend!

wow! this is a long post.. hope you're drooling over those ice cream which i have and you don't! muahahahhahahahaa!!!! i'm so bored.... bluekkk.. i want my hot x buns, caris!

honesty is the best policy?? think again

i really disagree on the saying HONESTY IS THE BEST POLICY

right now, HONESTY SUCKS!

then again... i asked for it, i deserve to be hated...

running and rowing

Happy Easter Everyone!!!

MmmmMMmmm... this year's easter is awesome..why? coz i have free supply of HOT Xsss!! thanks to caris.... mmmmm... last year i spent like over 50 bucks just for hot Xsss.. heaps ay? but this year.. i spent nil... heeeheee..still loving those hot Xssss....

yesterday, was last day of school...had my exercise prescription test.. it turned out to be quite alright except that i have lost 8 marks coz i didn't get to finish my multi choice questions.. u see, i thought it was for an hour.. but turned out to be only 50 mins... so yea...ishhh!! ohh wellz, at least those that i finish, i know that they are correct... well, most of them... hehehehe....

after that, went to the city to the gym...was meant to meet up with stephanie nd ajita for lunch but they cldnt make it.. ohh wellzz... went to gym instead.... ran 3ks on the treadmill and then tried the rowing machine.. man!!! it was awesome!!!! so fun!! heeeheee... did 5ks of rowing.... when i was halfway thru ie 2.5k, i wanted to stop... coz it was my first time rowing so i shouldn't exert myself... arms were getting kinda sore but then they were nice video clips on the tv so i didn't want to leave... so yea..... continued and finished 5k... didn't dare to use the weights after that coz it was all guys doing weights... no girls on the weights area.... so i guess no resistance training for me eh! after running and rowing, got changed and went home...

now... my shoulders and arms are sore... and i have blisters on my fingers from the rowing.... no wonder this guy that was on the rowing machine beside me was wearing gloves... i thought he was some sort of freak or smth.. my bad!! need to get some gloves now i suppose? nahhh..toughen up shermayne!!

i carry your heart with me

I Carry Your Heart With Me by E.E Cummings

I carry your heart with me(I carry it in my heart)
I am never without it
(Anywhere I go you go, my dear;
and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)

I fear no fate(for you are my fate, my sweet)
I want no world(for beautiful you are my world, my true)
And it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
And whatever a sun will always sing is you

Here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(Here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
And the sky of the sky of a tree called life;
Which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
And this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart.

I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart)

heard this poem when i was watching In Her Shoes few weeks ago. it was actually quite a good movie. was really touched and really liked it so i decided to share it with all of you. i don't get touched easily ok... hahaha!! so yea, go watch the movie! i realized that this poem is suitable for all your loved ones.. family members, friends, bfs/gfs.... don't you think so?

this week's resolution

My resolution from the 10th of April till 13th April 2pm:

Don't go on msn, don't blog, don't check friendster, don't read kennysia, don't read random blogs, don't check my hotmail, gmail.... uni's webmail is acceptable.... don't turn on the notebook in my room, it must stay put in the laptop bag till the 13th of april.


Highlights of this week:
Tuesday: get the psychology lab report done!
Wednesday: Human anatomy lab quiz 5%, Biology 107 lab 5%
Thursday: Exercise Prescription Quiz 15%

wish me luck!

pouring rain....

this morning.. it was sunny.. i was so happy coz then i won't need to run under the drizzle like the last two weeks to the recreation centre from where i parked....BUT it just had to start pouring on my way to the uni.... urgh! parked my car the usual place and well... i had to run.. under the POURING RAIN.. not DRIZZLE....ishh!! so yea, got really wet when i reached the rec centre.. u see, the parking near the rec centre was full..no parking for me...hehehe.. so had to park quite far.... 3 minutes run i think.... haha! my shorts were wet, my jacket was wet... my shoes were wet coz i stepped into a puddle...how lucky can i get, huh?

and during netball, my shoes were just making squicking sounds.... today's netball was by far the most tiring one... hehehe.. and most sucky one coz i was on the losing team.. i hate losing... tho it's just for fun..hahaa.... kinda depressing when we only scored 1 goal when the other team scored like heaps! haha! but i was the one that scored it!! weeee!! and then when we swap around, got a chance to score more goals but... it was 2 already and other ppl had to use the court..... ohh wellzz..it was FUN!!!! very challenging... hehehehe.... and i learnt that i can actually pivot around when i get the ball and want to shoot.. haha!!!i always thought once u get the ball, u can't move at all.. can only just throw.... hehehehe.... silly me.... i was like standing in a really awkward position and trying to shoot... no wonder the ball cldnt go in...lolx!

ooo!! met a girl that's same year as me!!! younger than me a few months..september girl..she skipped 7th form...yayy!! and she's playing netball also and planning to go for bersatu games as well.... yayy! got teman to go for tryout for volleyball as well... now i won't feel that out of place anymore...hehehehe....

after netball, when to tamaki campus to get some studying done... not really productive..the freaking photocopy machine did not let me photocopy the book..dno y..all three didn't work!!!! hmphhh!!!! but yea...thank goodness it was 4 so i get to take the book home for the night but hv to return it at 9 tmrw morning... i think i should really go get that book...but it's so expensive... hopefully my dad can find cheaper one in msia.... ok.... i gta go now... wna study for my exercise presciption paper.... niteeezzz

so much stuff to do!!!

had bio test on thursday..... so disappointed...studied kinda hard for it and well, didn't do well... *sigh* lost 12 marks from the multi choice which was out of 56... and for short answers, i know i definitely lost 15 but i'm sure i'll lose more... haihhhh.... 36%.... better do good the next half of the semester...

got an exercise prescription test this coming thursday and i haven't touch it yet.. have been studying for the stupid biology paper...urghhh!!!! never really revise for exercise prescription as well....damnn!! better start revising tmrw coz i have to update my bio notes later.... after blogging..haha!

tmrw going for netball again.. it's so fun but so many freaking rules...urghh!! no wonder it's a game for girls only.. coz guys can't really follow much rules...haha!!! it's at 12.30 tmrw so i get to sleep in....weeee!! watched brokeback mountain yesterday night... i'm quite surprised so many ppl liked it.. i hated it.... no, not coz i'm SOOOO against gays but...... it was soooo slow moving and it was REALLY BORING!!! i fell asleep..... i tried to keep myself awake but just couldn't....

holidays in a weeks time!!! so many plans.... gonna go sleepover at rachel's... then i'm gonna have to update my biology notes, prepare for the next half of the term.... study for my human anatomy practical test...arghhh!!!! every single freaking muscles of the upper limb..including those tiny lil muscles that move the fingers..... booohoo!! might have to go to the lab and use the computer programme to see some movement... kinda sucked at the insertion nd origin... haihhh.... hopefully can get someone to go with me..... and yea, read my psychology book coz i haven't been reading after since the lecturer on child development came... BORING!!!! but i HAVE to do good... omg!!! and i have to complete my psychology lab report!!!! shucksss!!! so much for easter break eh? more like study break now.... hopefully i'll be disciplined and do the above....

bio notes time.. coz i can't watch OC coz my mom and bro are watching a movie on the tv..urgghhhh!!!! i missed it two weeks in a row now..... ishhh!!!! better not happen for LOST!

random note: my squishy pink koala pillow with glow in the dark ears hv a name now!! after one year of being namelesss.... it's now called kirby!! isn't it a cute name???

names of all my soft toys... pongky the purple punk, snoopy the blue dude, kolala the koala stitch look-alike, frolic the dog, tubby the chubby koala, pinky the girl koala, ferby the february bear, kirby the huggable comfy koala pillow.... yes, i dun hv that much soft toys. coz if i have too much, then i won't love them as much as i do now!!! hehehe..

omg! how random can i be?

food night...

last night was great!!!! it's just so nice to see a huge whole bunch of msian and everyone's speaking with their msian accent.. how awesome is that!!!!! and everyone is so friendly.... saw hweigjin and yingjie there as well... hehehe.. went with caris.... saw the netball ppl as well.... so sucky how they can remember my name and i can't really remember theirs..... haihhhhh... i'll learn them today.. i was trying so hard to remember it last week... today will be better i suppose....

the food was nice but too little.. wanted more.... got a big whole lump of ginger and i thought i was lucky to get a chicken drumstick... ishh!!! and yea, all i got was one piece of chicken and heaps of bones.. i think the meat came out of the bones or smth... haha!!! the dessert was ermm... weird? well, the sago didn't taste or look like sago.. sago's meant to be white but this was green... well, at least the coconut milk nd gula melaka made it not so bad.... ahhhh!!!!!the best sago was in msia at ksas.... but that was the same night where i ate the "hainan" chicken rice which didn't TASTE or LOOK like hainan chicken rice... the chicken was meant to be white steamed chicken, but mine was brown, fried chicken.. and it was so dry..... lolx!! i'm straying away.... so yea.. food night was all good despite the one hour plus of delaying.. what can i say? malaysian time marrr.. one hour later than suggested...haha!!!

ok.. going for netball soon... then later i'll stay back at the uni and study... hehehehe.. got sort of distracted yesterday when i was using my computer.... lolxx!!!byeee!!!!!!

tips for asian posing

Handy tips for asian posing:

1. open ur eyes darn freaking big
2. puff up ur face to look all cute
3. never leave out the "peace" sign
4. do the 1-5 with your fingers when posing
5. look up at the camera, remember.... BIG EYES!

no..not like this..

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it's more like THIS

before u click THIS, make sure you prepare urself.... or u might suffer from mental disturbance.. u might puke so make sure you did not just have your meal or having ur meal right now. i hold no responsibility for any causes.... if you are concern about this, i advise not to click it.

Thanks for your co-operation and for your time and bearing with me.

(yuck!! so disgusted with asian poses! urghh!!!!)

my new born embryo

remember how that time i was sort of advertising to sell my A level books?
well, i listed them on trademe like a week ago and after a week, i sold 6 of them!! wooot!!! and i did make some money from that... heeeheee!!! i made 35 bucks of profit!! wahahahahhaa... meaning i didn't have to pay for my revision books for the last two years...heeheeee...and it meant that my psychology book that i bought of trademe cost on 5 bucks since i can use the 35 bucks to pay for it...haha!! i'm so happpppyyyyy!!!!!

btw.. today's (29th march 2006) the birth of my embryo named "starsha"... she's got like really small hindbrain, and a distorted midbrain and forebrain...well, i suppose she will be better?? i dno ay!! and yea... she's got weird numbers of somites... meant to have 43 pairs but she's got less that 20..hmmnn.. i wonder how she's gna be like when she's a real human.... i bet she's gna be so special!!!! coz i created it with Du-kit (cancel the KIT nd add the REX..wot do u get? DURex...lolx! i'm so random)... all by myself... w'out a guy....i'm super, ain't i?

no, i'm not pregnant.. do u think i was pregnant? GEEZZZZ!!!!! what were u thinking????? hahaaha!! it's my embryo model i had to make during bio lab today...haha! we used this thing called Du-kit which feels like plasticine but will be hardened when it's heated....and yea.... it's really munted.. spent like one whole hour doing the neural tube.. it was so hard!!!!! i think it's gna turn out real crap...but it did have everything an embryo shld hv....a heart, a brain, blood vessels, guts, lung bud, optic and auditory vesicle, kidneys, trigeminal ganglion and somites... well, except the somites weren't in the correct numbers..lolxx!! and the model is distorted...very very distorted... i hope i put the blood vessels in the correct place!!! it was really stressful!! who knew that making an embryo cld be that stressful? at least music were playing throughout the lab and we were making jokes abt our embryo....

"i'm gna name my embryo charlie and he's gna be like charlie in LOST"
"u sure it's gna be a guy?"
"well, charlie cld be short form for charlotte"
"i'm gna name mine jo.. so it can be joseph of josephine"
"mine's gna be emma the embryo"
"mine's gna be tubby the troubled one coz even making it is so troublesome!"
"hmmnn...Du-kit.. sounds like Durex.... sounds like another condom brand.. i didn't know you can make embryos if you have a condom it.. must hv been a crappy brand"
"man, i didn't know making babies is so stressful, i thought it was gna be full of excitement"

hahaha!! i like the last one the best....

anyway.. my future plans for my starsha? well, it she turns out all pretty after going through the heating process, i'll give it shaleeni for xmas prezzie or bday prezzie...haha!! coz i told her that already.. if it turns out all munted, then i'll just keep it for myself and take good care of it... coz it would be an embryo with special ability..haha!!!

omg!! i'm getting so lame.. i just watched LOST... nd INVASION.. LOST is getting so exciting!!!! can't wait for next week!! OOOOOOOOOO!!!!

ok, i've gotta do some work right now... test next week.. arghhh!!!

can't wait for this wknd!! FOOD NIGHT nd SPORTS SUNDAY!! woo-hoo!!

sick....sports sunday=awesome,msia kick nz nd spore ass in commonwealth

i'm sick... AGAIN!!! it's always like that.. first i get a sore throat, then running nose, then block nose, then dry cough, then cough with heaps of phlegms( if that how u spell it), then only i will be fine.. what stage am i at now? well, it's the runny nose going to block nose stage...arghh!!! 3 more stages to go...grrrrr!!!!

dad went back to msia today... sent him off to airport in the morning.... it's a cold and wet and miserable day today.. hate these kinds of day.. arghh!! the sign of winter's arrival...bluekkk... newayzzz... after sent dad to airport, went home nd got changed... went to auck uni's recreation centre for sports sunday by umsa... wanted to try volleyball but was too late.. so just go for netball..... i went there ALONE, ok. ALONE i tell you!! no one else wanted to go with me..ishh!! lazy bunch of ppl!!! so i went there w'out knowing anyone.... well, saw hweigjin but she was playing badminton at that time..so yea, felt such a loner....for a lil while surprizingly.. coz i decided it's time to be brave and go mix around and approach someone without having them approaching me... wahahhahaha!!! and yea... smart me... i approached the correct person!!! her name's jo and she's in charge of netball..so yea, she xplained all the rules to me and show me how to pass.. mind you i haven't played netball in my whole entire life ok! looked a lil dumb but there's always a first time for everyone.. hehehhee...

met more new ppl after that.... mann!! i can't remember all the names...i think i do but not sure... it takes time ok... haha!! everyone i talked to are either in their last year or second year... no one in their first year.. felt so young nd out of place a little... but they were really nice and friendly ppl.. ALL OF THEM.. what can i say? Malaysians!! ohh yeaa!!!!

speaking about malaysians... let's go on to Malaysia.. we beat NZ in the medal tally for commonwealth games!! woot!! just by one gold.. but we beat them!! woah woah!!!i think we came 7 and nz came 8th.. or maybe we came 8th and nz came 9th.. bluekk.. who cares! hahaha!! so proud right now... and to the s'poreans out there.... haha! who's better now, huh? huh? wahahahahahhaa!!!!

i just did my pre-lab quiz for bio just now.. woww!! STRESSFUL i tell you.. was texting caroline at the same time nd she helped me... felt so bad for interrupting her chinese soaps... why stressful? coz there's a time limit.. lolz! i was still on my 2nd question out of 5 after 30 mins.. obviously stressful lar! wasn't confident with my answers at all... only knew 1 one of them was definitely correct..the rest was just crossing my fingers.... and and.. i got 4 out of 5!!! who's the smart one now, huh? Caroline of course! haha!!! but yea.. got question 2 wrong which was the question i spent the most time on.. ish!! so geram!!!

ok.. i have to do my psychology lab report now.. due in on tuesday... must complete it tonight nd go nd ask help from tutor tmrw... then write it up tmrw night nicely... hehehe... byeeeee!!!

GET WELL SOON to ME!

which celebrity do i look like?

i was reading the all time favourite kennysia and i found a very interesting site that tells you which celebrity you look like by submitting your own picture.. and here's what i found out.....

if i don't put on any make-up......

63% of Alizee.. who the heck is alizee? i don't even kno such person exist! *googles alizee* ahhh.. she's some french singer.. righttttt.. they probably hv to use her coz lots of ppl look like her...

72% of Michelle Rodriguez with this picture taken before my makeup for the ball.... who the heck in michelle rodriguez? name sounds familiar but dno who she is.. *googles her*.. omg omg!! she's the chic in LOST!!! Ana-lucia!! it's her!! woahhh!!! i cld be some LOST star now, ay? woot!!

what if i'm in school uniform? who wld i look like?

72% of Kristin Kreuk... now i know who she is!! she's the girl Lana in Smallville.. hot chic that clark kent likes!!





then i decided to use some of my "pretty pictures" where i'm all dressed up and have make-up on for the ball and grad dinner... here's what i got....

ahhhh..both also zhang zi yi, one of the actress from memoirs of a geisha....
hmmmn... from michelle rodriguez to jennifer garner.. haha!!!! but that's only like 63%... so it's not really counted...

newayzzz.. i came to a conclusion... if i want to look like zhang zi yi, i should put on make up.. if i want to look like some french singer, LOST star!!!!!! or the girl clark kent loves!!!!! i shouldn't put any makeup!!!! wahahahhahaa.... what a nice thought, eh? haha!!!



i got carried away and started to try crazy pictures..... here's what i got....


my retarded grandma picture made me look like 64% keanu reeves.. poor fella! haha! he hv to be matched up with retards...


my nerdy picture made me look like the dalai lama.. far out!!!!! that's like so cool!!! i'm the dalai lama!!!

in conclusion, if i wna look like a dude............ wear SPECS!!




and then i tried my ninja picture....

64% beyonce... ROTFLMAO!!!!!! ohmigod! ohmigod!! i'm like... like...... like... i'm sooooo Beyonce... ohmigod!!!!!! *screams and jumps around like a bimbo* man!!! i don't see any resemblance...hahaha!! just imagine that ninja shermayne running around screaming and fanning herself with her pathetic hands coz she's like..... like so totally on a high coz she's like.............. beyonce..... i think beyonce gets matched up with weirdos.. like kennysia's green face with microsoft's PAINT drawn eyes.. go search his blog kennysia.com and search for the post on 23rd March and scroll all the way down.. u'll get what i mean...

hope you enjoyed that.. haha!! u wld enjoy more if you just go check out www.myheritage.com ... no regrets i tell you!!!

bye now!!!

pectoral girdle muscles...anterior nd posterior

i'm aching in so many places due to yesterday's gym... haven't been doing resistance training since.......since 12th of february... haha!!! so yea... i'm in PAIN!!!

ok.. don't read anymore coz u'll be bored.. i'm just gna state some of the muscles that is hurting and those that i can name.. haha!!! revising my anatomy at the same time...

the obvious ones wld be biceps brachii, triceps brachii, deltoid, trapezius, latissimus dorsi....

then new ones that i learnt this year... my serratus anterior (thought that part was just part of my lat.dorsi last year.. hehe), rhomboideus major nd minor, rotator cuff muscles(supraspinatus, infraspinatus, teres minor, subscapularis), teres majorand levator scapulae.... yupzzz... all these muscles are aching!! and i can feel it.. and i can name them!! wooot!!!! basically my whole pectoral girdle is aching.... tho i can't really tell whether my pectoralis major nd minor is aching or not... haha!!! i wanted my coracobrachialis to ache so i can identify it but i can't seem to find it... it's near the biceps brachii so maybe that's why i dno whether it's the one.. ohh wellzzzz....

next mission.... make my forearm muscles hurt so i can identify some of the muscles.. coz i can't really identify them... rock climbing wld be a good way to make them hurt...haha!!! i wna go rock climbing!! wna go back msia now!!! hahahahhahahaa...maybe i shld consider joining the gym at the city. there's a climbing wall there... lolx! hmmnn...really don't kno....

ok..time to do some studying.....

ermmm..... dno what title to put...

wow... haven't been blogging for nearly a week!

got a car on monday.. went with mom and dad to the auction..hehehe..mitsubishi mirage... looks kinda new.. so that's good.. but haven't drove it yet.. dno why today we still take the odyssey to uni... ohh wellzzz.... maybe i can drive it later when i pick my brother up...yea, i'm home already coz i finished lecture at 11.30, went to gym for some resistance exercise till 1 then came home...forgotten to bring towel so i can't shower there and i don't like doing work when i stink...

so now i'm at home.. not doing work...haha!! yesterday's exercise prescription was a a tad better... at least could answer most of the questions.. but yea, still struggle a bit.. so freaked out bout next week's lab....so much reading to do for that....

i've been talking more this week and did laugh as well... shermayne's making progress here... haha! not really... still a loner when no lectures are on...hehehehe... ooo! but i did have lunch with this girl.. crap...omg! i can't remember her name.... shucks! and i went to gym with her today.. haha! how can i forget her name? woops!! aww mann... how embarassing is that? if i see her again i hv to ask for her name again..damnnn.... bad bad me... ishhh.....

i wna go for super sports sunday organized by umsa!! but then no friend to go with.. i know i can go make friends there but then... it's better to go with a friend then make more friends from there marr...aiishhhh.... don't want to look like a loner... tho i kno i'm one... haihhh... will just wait till sunday and see how it goes...

i shall go shower now.. hehehe.. i smell...

chicken wingssssss

had chicken wings today.. heeheee..am happy!!! after bio 107 lecture, got onto the bus to tamaki... was feeling kinda lonely and didn't feel like being alone.. tired of being alone.... thanks to caroline who texted me and say to meet her in front of library.. thank goodness i checked my phone!!! so yea.. i had to get off the bus!!! but it started to move... so yea.. had to get out of my seat real fast and asked the bus driver to stop. felt like an idiot!! but yea.. met up with caroline and had my chicken wings!! and chips!! 4 chicken wings and chips for $4.50... man it was good! i'm happy!!!!

had lecture at tamaki at 11.30.... we started 15 mins late and ended 20 mins earlier.. haha!! it was the shortest lecture ever... coz it was a diff lecturer and he had trouble with the computer at first that's why we started late... but yea... he finished the lecture so fast..... he didn't really explain much so gta do some readings later.... but no matter what, had to do readings anyway.. ex prescription ain't that easy afterall.... was so amazed we actually finished early... wooott!!

dad got a new car... not car actually.. it's like odyssey but bigger...toyota estima.. and we're gna get a small car to go uni.. lolxx!! we sold off the nissan car.... haha! so yea, he picked me up with the new ....van? lolxxx! it's second hand tho but looks quite new... later had lunch, went home, sleep till 6 and now.. online... hehehehe..

peiyun say we shld get a recycle box so when we want to give jewellery to each other, we can use the box.. and then we were thinking of names for the box.... such a crack up!!!!

peiyun - the drummer in The Eisen Guards is so damn hot!!! says:
no la something wacky like us
Sher Mayne says:
wacky box
peiyun - the drummer in The Eisen Guards is so damn hot!!! says:
thats TOO wacky
peiyun - the drummer in The Eisen Guards is so damn hot!!! says:
something exquisitely wacky!! ahhahaha
peiyun - the drummer in The Eisen Guards is so damn hot!!! says:
something that sounds "what???? omg whats that? so cooL!!! whats that?!?!?!?"
peiyun - the drummer in The Eisen Guards is so damn hot!!! says:
sisterhood of the travelling what???? omg whats that? so cooL!!! whats that?!?!?!? box
peiyun - the drummer in The Eisen Guards is so damn hot!!! says:
ahahhaha
peiyun - the drummer in The Eisen Guards is so damn hot!!! says:
ok no thats too long a name
Sher Mayne says:
hahhahahaahahaa
peiyun - the drummer in The Eisen Guards is so damn hot!!! says:
we will get a sorethroat everytime we say it
Sher Mayne says:
yalorrrr!!!!!!
Sher Mayne says:
everytime wld be like.. hey! can you please pass me the sisterhood of the travelling what???? omg whats that? so cooL!!! whats that?!?!?!? box
peiyun - the drummer in The Eisen Guards is so damn hot!!! says:
ahaha
Sher Mayne says:
or... hey! can you please pass me the... ermmmm..wait i go check my msn.... ohhh yah!!! the sisterhood of the travelling what???? omg whats that? so cooL!!! whats that?!?!?!? box
Sher Mayne says:
siswatsdat box
Sher Mayne says:
hahahaha
peiyun - the drummer in The Eisen Guards is so damn hot!!! says:
huh
Sher Mayne says:
i trying to shorten it marrr
peiyun - the drummer in The Eisen Guards is so damn hot!!! says:
xob box
peiyun - the drummer in The Eisen Guards is so damn hot!!! says:
oi pass me the xob box
peiyun - the drummer in The Eisen Guards is so damn hot!!! says:
ahahahhaha
peiyun - the drummer in The Eisen Guards is so damn hot!!! says:
so funny
Sher Mayne says:
why xob?
peiyun - the drummer in The Eisen Guards is so damn hot!!! says:
and ew
peiyun - the drummer in The Eisen Guards is so damn hot!!! says:
box xob lor
Sher Mayne says:
oohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
peiyun - the drummer in The Eisen Guards is so damn hot!!! says:
hahaha
Sher Mayne says:
blablooblabla box
Sher Mayne says:
martian box
peiyun - the drummer in The Eisen Guards is so damn hot!!! says:
i think just call it the box
peiyun - the drummer in The Eisen Guards is so damn hot!!! says:
until one day we have some funny experience with it
peiyun - the drummer in The Eisen Guards is so damn hot!!! says:
then we name it afte rthe experience
Sher Mayne says:
okieeee
peiyun - the drummer in The Eisen Guards is so damn hot!!! says:
then if ppl ask how come that name
Sher Mayne says:
THE box
peiyun - the drummer in The Eisen Guards is so damn hot!!! says:
aha! we got STORY to tell!!!
Sher Mayne says:
yeaaaa!!!!
peiyun - the drummer in The Eisen Guards is so damn hot!!! says:
hehe
Sher Mayne says:
i'm sure will hv something funny one
Sher Mayne says:
atm, when we say THE box... we have to stress the THE....
peiyun - the drummer in The Eisen Guards is so damn hot!!! says:
ok

so yea.. atm.. the box shall be called THE box.. we haven't got one yet but will get one soon.. ooo! so excited! wahahahhahaa... ok.. need to do some readings now.....

last whining session for the month...

whining session 3..hopefully the last one.... don't read if u hate my whines... this is gna be long...

"sorry we didn't spend much time together... when u're free, i'm not, and when i'm free, you're not. and when we're both free, WE don't have transport coz YOUR parents don't let YOU drive or YOUR parents aren't free to take us around" omg!!! wth?? first u said i didn't mail u and that i've forgotten u.. now u say this.... i've been mailing u so much nd no replies... nw u blame it on me.. nd u make it seem that i'm the reason y we didn't meet up so much... geez! who's the one with appropriate full license nd drives in that kind of traffic more often? i dun even kno if my license is valid.... u think it's alright for me to trouble my parents and not urs? nd then urghh!! ppl who saw me quite often now say i didn't spend much time with them as well... but at least they say it in a nicer way and don't blame me.... they say i've changed tho, say i don't organize things anymore... say i stayed home more as if i can't be stuffed going out... man! it's really hard to please both sides as said earlier on....

u think u're always right and ppl hv to always suit ur time.. u think it's alright to always cancel plans last minute?? and the one day that we decided to go out for lunch.. heck! u didn't eat..u left me eating and u went off to exchange ur top... it seems like the main reason for u to go was to exchange ur stuff... and then u had to rush home ... and i had to finish my lunch fast....i kept the whole day for u and u told me last minute that u hv to be home at a certain time... u didn't even bother to tell me earlier... i cld hv planned other things...

all the time i've fallen for ur reasonings....and i always say it's alright.. i always say it can wait....now................. u know what? i didn't even bother to wish or have a small hope that u came that day (that day shall not be mentioned or ppl will kno who it is).. but u turned up.... u turned up late and left early.... to me, u just came for a show... let them stare at u, the way u dress, act as if u care... then u left to another... i guess i'm not important to u anymore even when u say i am... and all those times when u asked me to go for the functions at ur ch, now it seems u juz want me to change...not want me to have fun.... y dun u respect what i am? i'm happy with my religion, i respect urs, respect the teachings as well... now, i'll still respect ur religion.. but not u... coz u're not right.. u dun make ppl happy.... ppl who hv good teachings will make ppl happy... but u don't nd u go arnd complainin abt me as well.. guess u dno who's close to me, and who isn't... u tld the wrong ppl nd it got to me.... u came up with a reason to avoid it but u gave others a diff reason.. how am i gna make u happy if u dun tell me what u really want? argh! screw it!

u say u'll go back eoy and we'll meet up for sure... u know what? bullsh**! even if u go back, u won't hv time for me.. u nv will.. u'll come up with so many reasons... and even if u do, it will just be for an hour or so where i'm eating and u're doing ur stuff...

as i said.. i'm not gna get pushed arnd so much anymore... i'm gna stand up for myelf... i'm nt gna get ur fav stuff, i'm nt gna drive u arnd(not ur chauffeur).. u can do all the plannings if u wna meet up.. i'm just gna wait for ur call... wait for ur offer... and then..... i'll do what u did to me=ffk.. i'm not the nice person u think i am anymore... not to u of course... u still consider us best buds, i don't... they're just words.. they dun mean anything to me anymore.... to me, i see that u're just using that term to maintain our friendship...yupz, friendship will be maintained... u'll just be my HI-BYE friend so i won't feel bad anymore....

THE END (i doubt u'll read this coz u're still so busy.. but i'm nt gna reply ur mail)

this is the end of it... i think? i've got nothing to else to say already.. i've said everything i wanted to say.... it's out.. it's out for the world to read it.... but person still remain anonymous.... i'm a happy person right now... both sides been sorted... or shall i say 3? lolx!!!

I hold no grudges. Ignorance is bliss. Nothing ever happened. Forget the past(forget that u existed), treasure the present, plan for the future.

IT WOULD BE MUCH APPRECIATED IF YOU DON'T QUESTION THIS ENTRY AND THE PREVIOUS 2 THAT WERE SIMILAR TO THIS. ALSO I ASK U NOT TO DISCUSS THIS WITH OTHERS AS THEY JUST MIGHT BE THE ONE I'M TALKIN ABT. HAVE A NICE LIFE :-)

so screwed.. so blur... so not happy

my body hurts for no reason.. didn't do anything during ex. prescription lab today.. coz only 1 person in grp of 3 hv to do it... they had to cycle on the stationary bike for 40 mins in total but can rest every 10 mins... got diff level they hv to cycle and diff time intervals and so on.. nd after that we gather the info on heart rate, RPE and calories to finish up the assignment.. omg!!! it was so freaking hard!!! we have to write up training programmes including warm-up, stretching, main programme, warm down for 3 diff kind of ppl.. one was the 40 yr old dude who's lazy but healthy.. another was this 20 yr old chic who goes to gym everyday and she's fit... last one was a netball pro who's preparing the for the new season.... wth? we have to give reasons for every single programme... be it short interval, constant pace, med interval, mixed interval bla bla bla. omg!! i don't even know what intervals are appropriate for each of these ppl!!!

i mean, all we did was the bike!!! takkan u get the netball chic to ride the bike at mixed intervals.. doesn't make sense! she's training for netball.. not cycling.... grrr!! and i don't play netball so i wldnt kno what kind of training she needs... and i don't kno hw the treadmill works..dno whether the levels are the same as the bike... dno whether the cadence wld be the same as bike as well... besides, wth is cadence??? this is so unfair!!! and what's worst is that these weekly lab assignments count towards our final mark!!! got 8 out of 11 for the first one.. that's not that good already... i think i'm gna get like 2 out of 11 for this one?? crap!

tmrw's bio lab... urgh! better try not to lose so much marks! ishhh.. need to go do some readings now....i prefer ppl to set hwk for me.. heehee... if i dun hv a set hwk like now, i'll be blogging, surfing the net.. and hvin a laptop in my room is kinda distracting.... ishh!!! *offs laptop, unplug it and study now*

i miss mt.kinabalu!! wna go climb it again!!

was just looking through the pictures i took at mt.kinabalu....so beautiful..made me feel like going back there again as the photos i took for the sunrise wasn't that nice and i don't have a proper one of me at the peak of the mountain.... if only i can be there without having to climb it again...haha! then again, the self-satisfaction won't be there nd the feeling won't be the same... won't have the WOW factor...haha!

if i have a chance to go to sabah at the end of this year or start of next year, i will definitely take it.. want to be there for a longer duration.. maybe a week? then i can go climb the mountain again, go around exploring, snorkelling maybe? hmmmnnn... but i will do the mountain last... i'll pack less and MUST take nice photos of sunrise (got heaps of nice sunset ones already) and me at the peak!!! teeheee...

man! this post is so random! hehehe... me talking about holidays...end of the year holidays...haha! hmmnnn..maybe i should go join the diving club at uni, then go for lessons, get a cert for diving then when i go back to msia, i can go diving!! ooo!! hmnnn... anyone up for it? 320 bucks i think.... apparently to get a diving cert elsewhere is way way more expensive....hmmn.. i really dno.. need to find someone to do it with me....

ok... yea..that's all.... nitezz!! 3rd week of uni here i come!

angry, upset..cnt bliv u did this to me... i'm stronger nw....

This is what i figured out on what i should do.......

Just because you're unhappy with it and think it's unfair, it doesn't mean that it's right to voice it out to others and convince them to think they should be unhappy as well and make complaints. It's just wrong, morally wrong. I can't believe someone like you, someone who came from a good religious background, would actually do such thing. You don't gain from it, you gain nothing, in fact, you lose someone's respect towards you. You think you can get what you want just because you can make others complain? Think again! It doesn't work that way. I respected you all the while. Now I know a different side of you. Can't believe you're so petty over tiny little things, and what more, you need to complain to others behind my back? But I'm willing to forgive and forget and I shall not talk bad about you to others because I don't gain anything from it. All it would do is just ruin a relationship. And I don't want to lose someone just because of this. As for my respect towards you, you have to gain it back. How? Go figure! But I guess someone like you wouldn't care. Just bear in mind that I'm not going to give in so much anymore. I've been giving in all the while and I guess you didn't really realize it. I want to let you know I'm not that easily bullied anymore.

ok, just what was that about? well, i'm not gonna tell the whole world about it because then it would be wrong as well to talk bad about someone. now it's just anonymous so it's all good. you have no idea who it is, what it was about. heck! you don't even know whether this person exist or not.

>>>>> What all of you should learn from this post: Forgive and Forget. Give and Take. That's how it should be for the world to go around. For everyone to live a happy, harmonic life.

of statistics and conclusions...

stats: 50% of sportsci student failed bio 107 or medsci 142 or both
stats: there's an average of 10 ppl per year from sportsci who graduates. that's around 10%.
stats: sportsci students who went for 107 tutorial that was organized specially for them passed their 107 paper last year.

conclusion: screw the time at the library on fridays, don't take a nap ... go for tutorial to pass and be one of those 50% end of this year and those 10% in 3/4 yrs time!

what i learnt from today's tutorial: the above and get a textbook if i want to pass!

ewwww...disgusting!

i wasn't that late to bio lecture this morning.. so i managed a seat in the lecture hall that has a real lecturer in it, not just an image. it's so unfair for paying few hundred bucks to just see an image of the lecturer and sometimes u can't even see him, only can hear his voice..... talked to 3 new ppl today...yayyy me!! haha! but then i can't remember one of their names...woops! hehe...told u i'm bad at making friends......

newayzzz... after exercise prescription, took the bus to city as we have a anatomy tutorial at grafton.... i didn't go alone... went with melissa, the first friend i made during that 7k run...haha! and then two other girls who guided us there..... coz we were both kinda lost in the city.... so yea, we just followed them.... didn't know the med school was actually so far... 20 mins walk frm the city campus.. i reckon' they shld hv a shuttle bus... man! imagine if it's winter.... brrrrrrr......

what did we see in the med school? well, let's just say i'm studying anatomy..... so it's got something to do with the human body.... some of the stuff was pretty cool but disgusting at the same time..... was having goose bumps most of the time... kinda freaked out but it's all good.. will get use to it.... HAVE to anyway coz if not, i'll flunk my anatomy....nd i don't want that to happen....

after that, we walked back to city campus...another 20 mins.. for some reason, the city stinks!!! stinks like rotten eggs...like what u smell in rotorua... ewwwww.... maybe it's just today or maybe it's just the city... i think i prefer tamaki....not so crowded and not so lost... heeeheee...

hallelujah! it's friday tmrw!!! will just keep the day before yesterday, yesterday, today's work for the weekend...teeehee!!

relaxing day..aching body

today's a very........................... relaxing day? but my body hurts frm yesterday.. think i really need to start exercising to prevent this frm happening again.....

had anatomy lab from 8.30-10.30... played with skeletons...haha! naming the bones nd identifying them was kinda hard tho.... it looks diff from the pictures in the book...so yea, was just spending a lot of time standing next to the skeleton shaking its hands.. i've wanted to do that for quite some time ok.... macleans had a skeleton in the bio lab but well.... we weren't allowed to touch it.... or maybe we just didn't dare to.... anyway, i remembered it has a name...it's charlie... nd we wld go on and on saying how much we love charlie...haha! ooo!! made another new friend...yay for me!!! ok, i kno i only hv two friends atm.. i told u i'm shy...geez! she helped me a lot in remembering some bones that i always mix them up last year.... now i know... tubby tibia, fina fibula.... i remembered last year i was like.... tibia is the Thick one coz it starts with T, fibula is the fine one.... then i got sorta confused coz...... tibia cld be the thin one coz thin starts with T as well! oh no!!! haha!

at 10.30, went straight to anatomy lecture..... so confused!!! man, it's getting harder....ohhh no! gta start studying....

lectures for the day ended at 11.30...woohoo!!!!! mum nd dad picked me up at 12...went for lunch then went home... i slept till 5...... hehehehe..how nice... woke up, had dinner and now i'm blogging...read over bio just now..... confusing again...bluekkk.... this weekend i MUST update my notes..... hvnt been doing much this whole week.... so sleepy... gna sleep again.

busy tuesday... exhausted but interesting

Happy Birthday to my mummy!!!!!!!!

today was a very busy day.... reached the city late coz we drove there.. reached bio lecture late so had to go to the lecture hall that doesn't hv a real lecture... just the image of the lecturer... unfortunately, the camera wasn't working so we can't see the lecturer at the other lecture hall and can only hear his voice... grrrr!!!!

went to tamaki nd had an hour break.. and then there was a fire drill..... interrupting my sleep in the library...haha! at 11.30, went for exercise precription lecture.. 12.30 went for psychology lecture... 1.30 to 3.30, had psychology lab... then had to walk to the unisports training centre.. that's 8 mins walk if i walk fast... the lab is from 3.30-5.30... but i finish psych lab 10 mins earlier... so yea... reached the training centre in time, got changed and then went to the field...it was drizzling by the way..... played a game for around 5 mins to warm up then started our lab session...first lab for exercise prescription.... ooo! i made a friend today!!!! coz yea, had to get a lab partner...haha! so yea.. go me!!! ok... i've only one friend right now...how saddening is that? haha!! nvm... slowly...

anyway... first we had to run 1k to see the route..... (bear in mind it was drizzling and getting heavier)..... then later the next 1k, we had to do 4 step breathing and then measure our heart rate after 1k... it's kinda hard to jog 4 steps then breathe in, jog another 4 steps and breathe out nd so on... i can't multi task! hv to concentrate on my breathing nd at the same time the no. of steps i take! hahahaha!!!!! then later it was 3 steps breathing for 1k, 2 steps breathing for 1k....
nope.. it aint over yet.. the next 1k we have to make sure our heart rate was btwn 120bpm nd 140 bpm... this time we had to walk real slow.. kinda hard to bring a heart rate of 200 down to 120!! dno why... hahaha!!! then the next k it was 155bpm..had to walk faster...... and the final k, 180bpm.... but my heart rate monitor wasn't working.. it was remaining at 164 all the time... omg!! so i had to run faster and faster and it was still remaining at 164... and then somehow... it shot up to 224!!!! wth?? how can it be 224? it's like...... impossible? coz a person's maximum HR is 220 minus age.... haha!! maybe i had an heart attack or something.... we were both laughing... and then few seconds later... it went to 53bpm!!! hahahahhaha.. it was just crazy!! so yea.... got back and then told the tutor abt it... so we had to make up a result... after that, had to do or lab report... we were soaking wet and we were doing the lab report outside!! it was shaded but yea, not closed up... so it was really cold! how lucky! we had to draw bar graphs and line graphs for our lab nd we didn't hv rulers.. and the lab reports count towards our final mark.... hahaha!! ohh wellzz.. hd really crooked lines and the book got kinda muddy... heeheee.... i was shivering so even my handwriting was terrible....

finished lab really late.. was meant to finish at 5.30 but in the end, we finished at 6... and i was meant to meet my brother at tamaki campus at 5.30..... so yea, half an hr late.... ran back but went the wrong direction. i got kinda lost....haha! so yea.. it was so tiring... after 7k and then to running with carrying two bags! must've looked like an idiot!!! got there and yea.... my brother said he wasted 20 bucks to find me coz he missed called my phone so many times and called my dad nd asked him about me.... nd my dad also missed called me.... and........ they seriously thought i was kidnapped!!! my brother wanted to report to the police and go to the city and find me.... woah!! felt so bad! but i cldnt really text coz my bag was locked up when i was doing the lab.... nd i din kno it wld drag on till so late.....

went for jap dinner for mom's bday... yum!!!!!!! so full but not guilty at all coz i only had breakfast and i ran 7k! well, 6 actually since the other 1 was walking...haha! came home and had cake.... now i'm really full... didn't do any notes today...ohh wellzzz...tmrw i finish at 11.30!! yayyy! so i'm gna go home early and complete my notes......

ok..real sleepy now... heeheee..i'm back to my normal self!! weeeeeee!!!

u think i'm inconsiderate? think again!

i'm feeling sooooooooo.................. bluekkkkk right now.... arghh!! not a nice feeling at all.... everyone's grumpy.. it's not nice at all... grrrrr.....can't sleep... that's why i'm blogging.. hopefully i'll feel better by the end of this.....

u know what? i just realized that i'm always giving in too much.. it sucks.... coz when u always give in, ppl wld expect u to give in all the time and do things for them.. and when u make a mistake, u get blamed..... nd when u try to stand up for urself for once, it's hard... it's hard to say no.. when u say no, u'll automatically hv this guilt in you and u'll feel that it's ur fault straight away..... it's hard to say what u really want.... it's also hard to please everyone around you.... i hate this feeling.. i really really do.... i mean, you please one side but it won't favour the other side..... i hate it!!!! nd u will be called inconsiderate, inflexible just because u made the wrong choice but actually u think of a lot of things before making that choice..... and when u want to try to fix it and make it easier for someone, u get rejected....man, this is the first time where i blog and hv tears in my eyes at the same time.... kinda weird....

i think i'm not going to do it anymore... will just let the rest do it.... all i get is all the blames... "why didn't u do that?"..."you should have said it earlier on!"... "perhaps u're too young that's why u can't understand."....yea, i prob agree with the last one... and i can't handle the blames... and i can't take it.. maybe i'm making it such a big deal eventho it's just minute... but how can it be minute when everyone is grumpy???? even getting a freaking ruler can be grumpy? ishhh!!!! i hate feeling bad...... even if i do this, i'll just do it once awhile when help is really needed...or when they beg me...hah!!!!! i'm gna get a proper job.. gna go check out student job search one of these days..maybe on wednesday... hopefully i can get a coaching job.... pays well... 13 bucks an hr.... keep myself busy so they can't drag me into it... i can even say.. i'm getting experience frm it..something that will be useful in my course... or maybe get a job at the gym... i dno.. i'm inexperienced.... but hopefully get a job that has something to do with my course.. or maybe work at countdown or something first if they require some working experience.... i mean the one i've been doing all the time isn't really working experience.... it's not even certified or anything....

i'm just gna forget everything.. i'm gna try to be a bit more assertive.... to the right people of course.... i must learn not to feel bad all the time... screw it if you're not happy! u might be thinking everything is always going my way coz i'm all happy all the time... and i'm making this such a big fuss just because it's not going my way.. think again!! so many things happened and i'm not happy with it but i learn to live with it, compromise and make it seem as nothing happened and just put on a fake smile.... but now, i really can't.... ENOUGH is ENOUGH... maybe next time i shldn't give in at all so one day when i give in, then i'll be appreciated.....

on the brighter side, caris delivered cape seed bread and hot Xsss to me today!!!!! ahh! it's hot X's season again!!! oh yeaa!!!! nd she lent me her super thick bio book in exchange of me helpin her in chem.... hahaha! more like i just told her to search google and gave her my notes frm last year.... didn't get much work done but at least we did get some work done.. learnt a new word.... toluene... haha! thank goodness i'm not doing chem this year.. poor her.... and my bio notes are up to date atm....

tmrw's the start of week 2 of uni....arghh! i'll survive.... hopefully i'm alive on wednesday.... tuesday we are apparently gna do 10k of exercise in total for lab in exercise precription.... haha! fun! NOT!

nitez nd i'm feeling heaps better! do not question what i was really talking abt.... it's for me to know, and NOT for u to find out.... byeeeee!!!

still friendless...

nope.. uni's not getting any better.. still remaining as the loner.. no friends.... this is so depressing.... why can't i be more friendlier? why can't i be more outgoing and just hv the guts to make friends? why??????? gosh!!!! i'm gna hate uni soon if i don't get any friends.... damnit!!! i can't!! this musn't happen!!!! shermayne wants to go back to macleans...where she actually have FRIENDS! *sigh* mom's always saying i have to be more sociable... is that hw u spell sociable? coz somehow it looks kinda weird... newayzzzz... socialble? hmm...socialbel? nahh...socialbal? def not it...ok... whatever it is, u understand me....

on the bright side, i ended my week with shopping along queen st with peiyun!!!! and had bk nd had cookies.... nd i bought a top frm glassons for 10 bucks.... that' 26 ringgit.... it's quite alright... the quality is good compared to msia ones...... so, i'm happy...and mom came back frm msia today.... heheheehe....

to sum it up...............

uni life sux atm bt others are sweet!